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2008........not much has changed, dang shame......just getting back on here for years. Update more later!
2005 Update.....Here is a more recent pic of my little one, she is 20 months now. That`s it on the update tip....lata..... 2004..... Greetings, I am now a Mom! This is a pic of my little one, and she is truly the love of my life....Nothing matters more to me in my life right now.....ya dig! Her name is Xois (pronounced Zo-us), which was the location of the XIV Egyptian Dynasty.....AND YES SHE IS TRULY ROYALTY, so show US some love and leave a msg : ) 2003 Update.....Greeting BP FAM......well its that time again.....time to reveal whats been on my heart and mind.....heavy stuff, really heavy.... Love is a hot topic in today s popular culture. Unfortunately, society has perpetuated a false image of what true love really is. Borrowing from leading social thinkers, namely bell hooks and M. Scott Peck, I believe I ve come across a definition that fits well with my mind, body, and soul. Love is the will to extend one s self for the purpose of nurturing one s own and another s spiritual growth Love is an act of will namely, both an intention and an action. Will also implies choice. We do not have to love. We choose to love love provides us with the means to cope with our difficulties in ways that enhance our growth being loving does not mean we will not be betrayed. Love helps us face betrayals without losing heart. And it renews our spirit so we can love again. This quest for a true definition came about after a very recent abandonment/rejection from someone I had been dating (inordinately from what he says) for 2 years. It s weird you know, you can believe your extending love, accepting someone for who they are, attempting to establish and sustain a meaningful relationship, but when the other person/mate CHOOSES to not reciprocate that emotion, then you will quickly find yourself subject to pain, rejection, and in my case abandonment. Ultimately, the argument on his side was incompatibility, and the inability to provide me with want I needed and deserved. But whatever the reasoning may be, it cannot negate the fact that he chose to abandon meas oppose to supporting and being there for me. Someone that I leaned on for support turned his back on me, despite the fact that he knew I was going through a lot, and to turn his back on me would ultimately devastate me. So there I was, alone, hurt, anger, confused, you name it I felt and still feel it. But I had to find strength from deep down within andmove on. Everyday seems brighter, and I am continuously attempting to better my spirit. At the end of the day, I recognize that while I continuously find myself loving and caring for others, I often times neglect one very important person in my life, ME! So I am motivating. I am reading to feed my spirit and fill it with love. I write out self-affirmations to remind myself that I am not alone, because I have God and myself. I am attempting to ease up on my attitude (chip on my shoulder) because I know that I am not a negative person. Anything and everything I am doing to love myself more and more, so that I cannot be immune to the negative minutia of everyday life. It s not easy and sometimes I find myself falling short of what I am worth by acting out irrationally and passionately. But day-by-day, ya know. To end, in order to successfully heal, I have to forgive him for abandoning me like he did, for the absence of forgiveness will keep me mired in shame, and thus by practicing forgiveness, I am letting go of shame. So although a part of me wished ill will on all his future relationship (you know that boomerang is lethal), I AM CHOOSING to accept his decision, forgive him, and move on to loving myself, more and more. So join me in celebrating some of my newfound affirmations: Today I am a new person I do not dwell in the past I forgive myself and other s who have hurt me I am a loving person I am loved Love is love PEACE A little shout out to all the fly pisces out there! Yeah we are the bomb!  Traditional Pisces Traits Imaginative and sensitive Compassionate and kind Selfless and unworldly Intuitive and sympathetic On the dark side....cause I gotta let ya know about bothsides.... Escapist and idealistic Secretive and vague Weak-willed and easily led Anyone who meets me will think that I am crazy!! I have an uncanny way of getting people to laugh just by making a face. I`ve also been told that I am charismatic which is one of the best compliments that I`ve ever gotten...ohh and I`ve been told that I have a nice smile :) Things I hate: *ostentatious people. . .calm down you are not the bomb! *guys who think that they are ballars. . .go get your edumacation, thanks! *girls who grit on you inthe club. . .I aint got nothing but love sistah why you hatin, DAMN! *HATERS,SISTER THAT TALK ABOUT OTHER SISTERS, and CHEATERS...they need to be exterminated! The music that I am feeling now: Mos Def  Erykah Badu  Talib Kweli  others: Kelly Price,Donnell Jones, The Roots, Yolanda Adams, Micheal Jackson Donny Hathaway, D`Angelo, Dr. Dre, Common, Jill Scott, Sade, Bob Marley, Marvin Gaye, Angie Stone, Santana, Maxwell Prince, Kevon Edmonds, Mary J. Blige, John Coltrane, Miles Davis, Stevie Wonder, Anita Baker, Brian McKnight and any sultry and soft jazz or R&B artists/songs. A book I`d recommend: all about love by bell hooks.  Here, at her most provacative and intensely personal, the renowned scholar, cultural critic, and feminist skewers our view of love as romance. In its place she offers a proactive new ethic for a people and a society bereft with lovelessness. As bell hooks uses her incisive mind and razor-sharp pen to explode the question "What is love?" her answers strike at both the mind and heart. hooks examines her own search for emotional connection and society`s failure to provide a model for learning to love. Raising the cultural paradigm that the ideal love is infused with sex and desire, she provides a new path to love that is sacred, redemptive, and healing for the individuals and for a nation. Simple put.....DA BOOK IS THE BOMB, and like love, this book is worth the commitment. LOVE IS LOVE Quotes I like are: Time Heals All Wounds. . . and Give gifts to those who should know love (Ntozake Shange). Those who do know me, know that I am an advocate for black on black love. There is nothing more aesthetically soothing then the image of a black man and a black woman together and most importantly together AND in love. . .  Fav Movies: Waiting to Exhale, Best Man, Love& Basketball, Color Purple, Poetic Justice, Set It Off, Beloved, Meeting the Parents....and LOVE JONES! Some of my heroes: Toni Morrison, Anglea Davis, WEB DuBois, Merle Hodge, Audre Lorde,Bob Marley, Malcolm X, Foundersof DST,. . . A recent accomplishment I am Proud of: Picking myself up and dusting myself off, and recognizing that life moves on, and I can`t sit around and watch it go by! An embarrassing moment I`d rather forget: Oh lets just say that when I consume to much alcohol, you are sure to see hiliarity at it`s finest! One reason my friends like me: empathetic,compassionate, considerate, dedicated, honest, and genuine. I would like to take this opportunityto give a shout out to my sorors of Delta Sigma Theta Sorority,INCORPORATED! And also a shout out to my bruhs of Omega Psi Phi Fraternity, INCORPORATED! Leave all oo-oop`s and roo`s in the guest bookplease. peace I GOT to show love to my chapter Lambda Iota, Providence City-wide.......LOVE Y`ALL.....I would also like to give a special shout out to my line sister,my ace, my eyes...E-ditty, her bp screen name is VELOCITY99. . .check her out she is tight. . .love ya baby!  Feel these words. . . it is impossible to love someoneelse if you don`t love yourself... love can be insecure....seek divine truth from within...how do you love, and how do you express it...you can learn alot from a friend...talk is cheap....actions speak louder than words....your smile could heal the world...you compliment me...sometimes loveis right around thecorner, literally.....you are my angel...dont rush love and ruin the possibility of a lifetime...your friends can be your worse enemies, and your enemies can actually be your friends, believe dat! Favorite DST artwork:  last updated 11/04/04 A tribute to the one and only...Bob Marley...he is a prophet! I would have been a Bob Marley groupie...lol 
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