------V-MILL------ THE DEFINITION OF MY ALTER EGO-Imagine Denzell
Washington character in Training Day then imagine his character in
John Q and you get two sides, now you can apply that to me. Let me
start off with my intro to tell you about me...I always set myself
apart from the rest so don't try to drop me in a category of any OF
THE BP's regulars or for that fact People in general..My intent on
the BP is to get to know people who is on my level.....As you can
see I'm representing tha D ( DETROIT ) 4 SHO..I'm the best of both
worlds Mature/Hood, I can't forget where I come from but I know
where I'm going. So you mix your learned behavior with your regular
nature and you get me.. My future isn't etched in stone so you can
take that how you want.. The average person whose had a glimpse of
my mind will probably exploid... I'm Driven and Motivated, A cut
above the rest... We ain't gotta lie to kick it shorty which means
keep it real... I have confidence that I can stimuate intriging
minds mentally but don't think too hard.. I'll have you
contemplating with anticipation trying to figure me out.. I'm
always against all odds..It's a fight to the top... If you think
that you are above somebody then keep on floating cause it ain't
enough time in the day.. I can handle rejection cause I really
ain't trying... I don't have nothing to loose so I really don't
care.. Maybe I have something to gain but who knows.. If you kept
it real from jump then everybody can save lots of time..Thats my
policy.. I feel like I can't be broken by nobody because I've
accomplished things people twice as older than me couldn't do and I
ain't even got started..I got shot and still I survived (conquered
Death ), I lost my best friend cause he let the money get to his
head( Don't let the evil of the money trap ya). I survived and made
it out the hood where to keep it real alot of people just gave up
on life. I moved on after loosing a majority of my friends because
of jealousy. Even though I've dealt with some good girls and some
scandelous chicks besides the fact I'm not with them for whatever
reason, I impacted there lives in a good way. I have the ability to
touch people cause I can relate to anybody.The bottom line is I
learned through all my experiences and I'm still growing.
Regardless of how perfect I'm not, JESUS CHRIST has always carried
me through some things and I'm still here. If you ain't scard then
bring it, I'm all ears..
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Okay thats a lil preview so you be the judge..SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO
STEP OUT THE BOX AND TAKE CHANCES THAT ARE SOMETIMES OUT OF YOUR
COMFORT ZONE. SOMETIMES PLAYING IT SAFE AND LIVING IN FEAR WILL
DEPRIVE YOU FROM EVER REACHING YOUR POTENTIAL. I COULD NEVER LIVE A
NORMAL LIFE BECAUSE IT WOULDN'T BE ME. SURVIVING FROM A NEAR DEATH
EXPERIENCE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT GOD ONLY GIVES US 1 LIFE TO LIVE SO
WE MUST TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE OF EVERY GIVEN BREATHE. TO ME IT'S NOT
ABOUT THE HAND I WAS DEALT BECAUSE MY HAND IS FULL OF ACES AND
JOKERS--IN THE WORDS OF JAY Z " I WILL NOT LOOSE":
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-----MY WORLD----- IN THIS WORLD WHO REALLY IS COOL WHEN THEY
TRYING TO USE YOU LIKE A TOOL. IF YOU AREN'T TELLING PEOPLE WHAT
THEY WANNA HEAR THEN THEY RUN AWAY WITH FEAR. ALOT THESE PEOPLE IS
STRIVING FOR FAME TRYING TO GET A NAME BUT DON'T REALLY GET THE
GAME. HOW DO YOU REACH THIS WORLD WHEN EVERYBODY'S LOST AND ARE YOU
PREPARED TO PAY THE COST. CAN YOU RECOGNIZE TALENT WHEN YOU SEE IT
CAUSE I'M PLAINLY TRYING TO BE IT. DO YOU FEAR WHAT YOU DON'T
UNDERSTAND OR HATE THAT YOU RAN INSTEAD OF TRYING TO CONQUER....HIT
MY G-BOOK OR LEAVE A NOTE CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN
TILL YOU STEP OUT ON THE EDGE..
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SORRY, ANYBODY WHOSE TRIED TO SEND ME A NOTE AND COULDN'T MY NOTE
RECIEVER WAS OFF..SO IF I DIDN'T HIT YOU UP MY BAD..
( Heaven ain't hard to find ) Simply because you nervous, let me
start off with my conversation- Hoping my information, eleviates
the hesitation- I can see it clearly now catch you smiling through
your frown- I'm askin' Baby Boo are you down ? Although I know
you've heard about my reputation across the nation "Mr. I get
around"- My temptation got me dripping wet perspiration- I'm
activated by the moves your making- Baby why you faking? strip
naked get the love making- See its all in your mind, so every time
I sip a glass of wine I fantasize till that Azz is mine- Never
gettin' but wanting, never touching but wishing- A straight thug on
a mission until I get what I'm missing- Stop with the Celly, baby
Listen, I know you're grown, but pay attention- Let me hypnotize
with my tongue kissin'- This is a message to bomb bodies and all
dimes ( Heaven ain't hard to find ) In fact you can have it just
have faith- Just like a little kid, still believing in magic- It
takes a lot of sacrifice with all the lonely nights at work- I need
somebody I can trust in my life- Let me apply the brakes baby
you're moving to fast- My conversations are getting deeper, but
first let me ask Are you afraid of a thug ? and have you ever made
love with candles and bubbles sipping in your tub- Touch me and let
me activate your blood pressure- This Thug Passion help the average
man love better- Picture me naked and glistening beneath the
moonlight mist- Take a shot of that alazhay come give me a kiss-
And maybe we can be better friends perhaps we'll be closer- I'll be
the thug in your life baby and you'll be my soulja- And I know it
takes some time- And you got a lot of questions on your mind- But
relax, in due time ( Heaven Ain't Hard to Find ) You think we all
dogs, thats why you cautious when I approached you- Been talking
since you arrived, but not a word is spoken- Through my eye
contact, I wink and you respond back- Look at me whats all that ?
Huh- its like the closer you get, Baby the quicker I'm speaking- I
got a flight out Chicago, lets kick it this weekend- I'm sipping
Heneesee and coke- Although I'm a crazy loc- I'm fiendin' for your
body even mo'- Oh god help me identify me truest thoughts- your
hidden motives full of passion who would of thought- Come hollar at
me baby, love me for my thug nature Far from a playa hater, label
me a money maker Straight heart breaker- Baby we can be friends I
can soup you in my 300 we'll ride I'll let you floss it for your
friends- Once we begin until the end, it gets better with time- I'm
makin' love to your mind baby ( Heaven ain't hard to find )
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Verse of the day--My version of 50 cent song...... If you watch how
I move you'll mistake me for a playa or pimp Been hit wit a few
shells but now I walk wit a limp In the hood then the ladies saying
"ALTER EGO you hot" They like me, I want them to love me like they
love 'Pac
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The reason why I respect Pac is because he kept it real. He found a
way to relate to and reach the people. I'm not obsessed with Pac
but I like his style. We both have a story to tell and one day I
will tell mine..So if your with me then play your cards right..
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A FEW OF MY HOBBIES-- I like to write poetry and I write lyrics and
rap. If you wanna hear one of my songs then go to my music player
and go to the third song VMILL " How V get down " I know you didn't
think I would put my very best music on there so people can steal
my lyrics. Okay poetry..
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DRIFTING-- I sometimes find I'm drifting Through this life without
effect; I often wonder if I'm truly Worth what I've been blessed. I
search through days that have been hard, To try to understand, The
many trials that I have known, The life that I have had. You see me
in my daily grind, So confident and strong; Yet when I am alone, I
question Just where I belong. I often try too hard I find, To
analyze and guess, To scrutinize,investigate My life I will
confess. For somewhere deeper, there must be Some meaning to this
life, Some way to make a difference, Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning? Some agenda to be found? A greater
purpose waiting If I care to hang around? It teases and it taunts
me, Always slightly out of sight; A hazy vision out of reach, Where
darkness hides the light. I struggle to bring clarity To what
awaits me there, And yet this weak illusion Always fades before my
stare. It seems the harder that I try, To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions, Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard, To understand it all, For can we
ever truly know Just what we have in store? Each incident, each
moment passed, Just adds upon the next, But in the end, will I find
truth ... Or will I be perplexed? Perhaps I make it harder Than it
has to be sometimes, But will my searching bring to me My meaning
over time? Or will it leave me broken, And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude, To this, my wrinkled brow.
