BRZBCH804 Missed fuzzy sensdays but i did hit up da S.P.O.T last night....Just as live i swear!!! - April 24, 2009 add/view comments (0)

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How are all of you lovely people out there in bp world.I'm Fred and you are.....I am hear looking for friends maybe more but eveything starts somewhere.I'm not going to get into things about me.I am a very nice guy and I don't really take things personally so you can ask me what ever you want.But you'll have to ask.I promise I'll answer truthfully.All that I will say is that I am a true person as oppose to a "real" person.Ask me what the difference is, I'd love to tell you*************Til then enjoy some of my work,this is what i do

I had everything set-

Today is the day i tell her-

I'm done-

This time I'm more than ready and well within my right to take a stand-

I'm tired of expressing feelings that get over looked until they turn into demands-

Being that one that grants everyone a second chance is over-

And with the coldness in my heart enhanced I firmly plant my feet in the soil and stand my ground-

And decide that these circumstances have forced me to finally wash my hands-

Of you-

And then...-

An unexpected factor interrupts my plans-

Brings to a halt the whole jolt of confidence i had readied for myself-

The coldness I had obtained would steadily melt away-

From the fact that every decision has a price to pay and this one would surely bring hell to my heart-

And with that considered this frigid bitter cold I had acquired was doomed from the start-

She cried y'all-

She cried openly and uncontrollably-

Expressed how she can't deal with the fact over never again holding me-

And the thought of someone else isn't something she can live with-

And someone else with me is just making her want to kill %#&@$!-

And she cried-

She cried angry and passionate-

And asked where was the love, faith, honor, and passion at-

She said she know she has made mistakes you tell me who hasn't that-

And I ain't made half as bad that for you to make me feel as bad as this-

And she cried-

She cried hopeful and destroyed-

And now I'm somewhat annoyed-

This is what i was trying to avoid-

Lord knows I can't afford to see this-

The one that makes her cry Lord knows I can't be this-

And she's crying-

Tears streaming down her dark face gives the resemblance of oil leaking from out of the earth-

But you couldn't put a price on what those tears are worth-

I'm wishing she would not let them fall so easily-

That rain over the window to your souls pane should be kept safe-

Hidden somewhere for your future to appreciate-

Like when your daughter is old enough to understand and you show her your tears and let her know that you've cried enough for the both of you-

Those tears should only be accessible for joyous occasions-

Like your son not becoming a statistic and your daughter not becoming a victim-

Like you not becoming either-

Those tears should be worth crying-

Moments in life that assure you, you won't ever have to cry again because they are so special that will only happen once-

But those beautiful genuine tears should not be shed for me- For doing so defeats my whole purpose-

I'm only doing this now so your later cries won't worsen-

I'm not perfect-

I'm not a once in a lifetime chance at love-

And I know I try hard but I don't even know if deserve it-

Not like i know you do-

And those tears-

No baby I'm not worth them-

So don't cry baby-

Hit me-

Hate me-

Loathe and detest me-

Forget and regret me-

And because I'm walking away-

Let me- But stop crying-

Stop wasting tears on something that won't be worth them tomorrow-

Because you'll need them- (

But you won't need me-)

And to much crying over things that aren't worth your tears could result in the inability to use them when they're necessary-

Now which one of those thoughts seem scariest to you-

Which one of those is more frightening to lose-

Even if you had a choice-

I wouldn't let you choose-

It ain't that bad- Y

ou are not dying-

Don't cry baby-

Baby stop crying////