Big_Juisee "Through It All I Remain A Rose" - July 12, 2010 add/view comments (0)

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Now that I have that out of the way...

I'M LEARNING TO PRAY MORE AND ASK MY FATHER IN HEAVEN FOR WHAT I WANT NEED AND DESIRE. I KNOW HE KNOWS ALL THESE THINGS BEFORE I EVEN ASK BUT IT'S MY WAY OF CONNECTING ON A HIGHER LEVEL HAVING A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME... HE HAS WATCHED OVER ME AND BROUGHT ME TO WHERE I AM TODAY I CAN DO NOTHING BUT BE GRATEFUL AND THANK HIM DAILY AS WELL AS ASK THAT HIS BLESSINGS BE BESTOWED UPON OTHERS.

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Life has so many lessons to be learned; do we always learn what we need to is the question of my concern. Thinking about my life and how things often change. I realize that love is the most valuable feeling one can can capture and claim. There is nothing greater than love. No feeling can ever come close it is an overwhelming expression and what we long for the most. Money can't buy it, when you feel it you can't deny it, no matter how you try it's a never ending fight. All these years I thought I had known love until something happened, something unexpected a gift from above. I thank God daily for the many blessings he has offered, I can just add to the list for this experience he has allowed me to borrow. Prayer is a powerful thing and I prayed not knowing what a precious gift He would bring. They say when you pray be specific and I was specific indeed. Now I know what love is and I thank God for He gave that gift to me...

NOW I WILL AWAIT FOR GOD TO SEND ME THE LOVE OF MY LIFE (MY HUSBAND) I'M READY TO SETTLE DOWN AND BECOME MRS. INSTEAD OF MS. IS IT WRONG TO WANT MR. RIGHT  INSTEAD OF MR. RIGHT NOW???  A QUESTION I ASK MYSELF CONSTANTLY. MY ANSWER TO MYSELF IS YES. I DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE THE QUEEN GOD DESIGNED ME TO BE... SO I FIND MYSELF WAITING; SOMETIMES BECOMING IMPATIENT BUT I HAVE LEARNED THAT PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE!!!

Ages 19, 17, 16, 14 & 13 I have work ahead of me... I live for them I breath for them, I press on in this world for them. I am trying to be the best I can but I am not a man and can't offer them the knowledge that a male role model can. People say to me often how I won't be able to make them into men but I'm going to have to disagree. Isn't it morals and values that make a true woman or a real man? At least that's what I believe!!! Love, spirituality, respect, accountability, honor,virtue and responsibility and never to put their hands on a woman no matter how upset they may be are among the things that I can teach them. Aren't these all qualities of a man? I can teach my boys to be loyal and to be true to their word, to always put their best foot forward and to speak intelligently when they want to be heard. Some of the greatest men were raised by women. I'm not saying I have it all right but what parent does. We learn as we go and hope we don't make too many mistakes along the way. As I said before I'll say again...I refuse to put 5 more nothing a$$ no good males into society to leach off of some female waiting on her to take care of him, blame the white man for their faliures and disrespect our race (or me for that matter) I know that they won't be perfect but I'm going to try to win the race.  Suggestions are always welcome, I need a little help it takes a village to raise a child somewhere we as a people lost that value. I want to assist in bringing it back for my own good. Don`t get me wrong not all males are no good it`s just that there are so many it`s overwhelming and can lead a woman to believe there is not one out there worth her time. Females this goes both ways!!! Some of us can be a handful too. Did anyone check my use of words (males and females)?

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