My name is Jennifer.
I get questions regarding my "ethnicity" all the time. Now that I live in Skokie, that seems to be very important to the locals. My father's parents were Belgian (grandmother) and German (grandfather). On my mother's side of the family, my heritage is all mixed up. The most prominent of features my mother gave me was my Brittish appearence. I have also been taken for French or Polish. I am not Polish, but I am French. Again, on my mother's side. If I look like I am from England, I would not be able to confirm that statement for myself. The only country I have been to is Canada.
I put up with the busy attitude of this website because I am interested in meeting people. I think I am a very smart woman who empathizes way too much with people. In the past I have been walked over and taken advantage of as a result. It seems to go this way when it comes to my female friends too. You can fine me other places on the internet, as I don't believe people should have to pay to meet other people. I call that prostitution. Please find me on plentyoffish . com or on myspace.
I am trying to have a better attitude. I am not trying to come across as jaded. I'm trying to stop making the same mistakes over and over. I'm putting my foot down when it's necessary; instead of just constantly walking around with a chip on my shoulder when it comes to friendships, or relationships. It's about equal respect. I am starting to figure out what it means to give and take all over again. I am trading the potentially self-destructive attitude of always treating people with copious amounts of skepticism, for learning when to stop giving so much; and how to start taking for the first time.
It's called "possessing character." Perhaps you've heard of it. Not many people have. I recently went through this episode where I was immersed in fear of where I was at, where I was going, and the fact that this physical body won't last forever. I felt like I was chasing my tail for two weeks straight. I may not totally be out of that whirlwind of consciousness, but I have separated out all of the issues, and have committed tackle each one when I can.
My journey is spiritual, physical, and career oriented. Life is about stability, not over excess. It would be nice to have financial bounty, but as long as I am able to put a roof over my head, food on the table, clothes on my back, and take care of my health, then I'm doing OK. I expect to keep the company of others with the same attitude.
By now, you can probably tell that I am somewhat of a writer. I don't appreciate slang. If you send me mail, I'd like to know that you have somewhat of an education, and that you strive for putting a sentence together. If you keep your home clean (warning: I can be messy), then you know how nasty it is to walk into someone's house that doesn't keep things organized. My ex used to tell me that, when it comes to cars, having a clean windshield has everything to do with your attitude and outlook. I thought he was funny, but he had a good point. It still makes me smile.
I could probably write forever, but you're lucky I'm getting tired; and I don't know where else to take this. If there is one thing I could wish for everyone: You may feel like things around you are out of control, but the one thing you can rely on is yourself, but don't let that get to your head.
Little Brother (Feat. Joe Scudda): Lovin' It
