BrandNuMe69 About To Have A Full Over Haul On My Life. I Have Been Going One Way For Five Years And I Feel It Is Time For A New Dir - September 01, 2009 add/view comments (0) |
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  ***************************** PAGE UPDATED ON JULY 19, 2007************************** ****************** WELL HELLO TO ALL THE COOL PEOPLE ONLINE AND SUCH. WELL I AM ON HERE AGAIN FULLY TO CHAT AND YOU KNOW GET TO KNOW A COOL PERSON AND MAYBE MORE YA KNOW. IN THE LAST YEAR I HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALOT AND I MEAN I HAVE DONE WRONG AND BEEN WRONGED. I AM BRANDNU JUST LIKE MY NAME, SO WHAT IS UP YA KNOW. i WAS STAYIN ON THE NORTHSIDE, I AM A NORTHSIDER TO MY CORE, UPTOWN FOREVER, NOW I AM ION THE SOUTHSIDE IN THE HUNDREDS. IT IS ALL GOOD WHERE I GO, I HAVE MY OWN HOUSE SO I AM LIVING AND JUST ENJOYING LIFE NOW SO WHAT IS UP IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE AND WHAT YOU READ OR READING I WOUL LOVE TO HEAR BACK.
THESE ARE SOME POEMS I JUST WROTE, I AM STILL GETTING THE HANG OF IT, SO BEAR WITH ME. What Is Love Love Is Seeing Them How No One Else Does. Love Is When U Know Their Not Perfect But You See Them Perfectly. Love Is Thinking About Them Day And Night. Love Is When They Mean The World To You. Love Is When No One Else Knows How You Feel. Love Is The Best Feeling U Can Feel. All Of Me BY L.E.JR My Days Where Bright Now Dim With Shadows. Now They Are Roaring Waves Not Peaceful Meadows. In The Beginning For The World It Was Darkness Then Came Light. Giving A Woman All O f Me Must WasnA?t The Thing To Do Right. But Sometimes I Begged To Differ Because I Was Lookin Through The Cloudy Eyes Of The Heart. I Gave This Woman All Of Me From The Very Beginning, The Very Start. Not In Bits And Pieces, It Was Me All The Way. Now I Am Alone Like A Rose In The Dessert No Water Waiting To Decay. This Is What Happens When I give All Of Me, She Hurt Me, Desert Me, and No one To Take The Fall But Me. I Must Got It Bad Like Usher, Cause I Am The One Steady Calling B. %#&@$! That I Be Damned If Again I Give A WOMAN All Of Me JUST ME BY L.E.JR I can in to this world basically just me Just me unexpectedly with mom and daddy. Daddy was there so there was no excuse for failures. Failures that I made, God telling me those are yours. Yours, because no one else is to blame. Blaming other, cause so far my life has been full of shame. Shame that I could have avoided if I knew how to play the game. Game that I was thought from the cradle to now. Now I am lost in an endless void and oh failure and I donA?t know how. How to get back on the left or right track. Tracks that have made and never thought of looking back. Back to where I know is the very beginning. Beginning to understand I could have been good without all the sinning. Sinning, now that is truly so crazy to me. Me not fully excepting most views of God to be. Be seen by that of the majority and minority. Minority, make some major right and minor wrongs. Wrong majorly, minorly steady tryin to get along. Along in this world or like I said game. Games that were made long before I even had excuses that were lame. Lame because, I truly knew I had real potential. Potential to be something wide and large, I guess only in the mental. Mentally putting barriers in my way man I wish it could be simple. Simple is me knowing that could never be dag. Dag if on top is where I should strive to place my flag. Flag I pledge allegiance to I thought I had it in the bag. Bag is where I place my life as I travel from place to place. placing my faith in others, when I look in my face. Faced with something I feared the true reality. Reality is that you are brought in alone and so that way you die see. Seeing that all I have to depend on is JUST ME GOODMORNING BY L.E.JR Dis mourning, I hate this morning, Cause for once I was happy, Now I am just mourning, Mourning for reasons I thought I was done, I done a lot of mourning, But in dire need of one, Just one reason for da night to come, Alone trying to %#&@$!, By myself, alone, solitude, It is a tomb for my soul, I thought I was done but here comes themorning, da sun comes out, And out comes my sons, Clouds white and fluffy, Sky bright and blue, No clue soon would be, Be da end of my fun, Cause here the morning comes, Are those tears on my face, Or am I a tree, And the wetness is mornings due, What should I do, Or do I do what I should do, Life is dodo, That and this, You do dat, and dis, Others cause I am morning mourning, DAMN GOOD MORNING HURT BY L.E.JR People speak of HURT And other emotions that are alike I guess I could deal with the physical, and just get into a fight Staring up at the moon but not even paying attention to the light The HURT I feel is blinding, the sight is just too bright Alright, well let me get back to the basics and the foundation My past is the HURT that I guess will HURT my future relation I mean in my eyes I can see the change, I have changed and gave up on temptation I have never been convicted but a nigga feels like he is on probation All the smarts and common sense I have obtained with out the help of education Just paying attention to my surroundings I guess I am in constant meditation I mean this is my dedication, but more or a way to clear my heart I was doomed at the beginning of the race damn I couldnA?t even get a fair start My whole life is rigged to get close to love but then it will fall apart Damn homies canA?t a nigga get a fair start; I have paid attention to the chart Something smells strange, but it isnA?t a! Yeah you know the deal and the HURT is in constant reminder That maybe I am not meant for love, my life is in a binder Me standing behind her, tryin to understand the motion With all the silence why I keep hearing the commotion My thoughts are getting cluttered I need a open space like the ocean Cause where I am now Hurts TRU 2 HEART LUV BY L.E.JR TRU 2 HEART LUV Well let me start with how I feel Most of the time, I am down for real tryin to move on standing still It must be cold I can feel the chill TRU 2 HEART LUV Well I have 2 make a sacrifice Me never thinkin I had 2 because I was nice Despite all the wrong I did, time 2 be 1 of da men not da mice I want to be part of the pie not a slice TRU 2 HEART LUV Baby I want 2 change and be a new me knowing dat you are my heart and my destiny your are r my real life fantasy Not a dream or nightmare but my reality TRU 2 HEART LUV Things r crazy at time and I am scared of u Cause of my past, and karma I am scared of what you may do No more playing games baby this is love not Clue I want to build with you and have a tattoo with your name on my chest boo MY TRU 2 HEART LUV I LOVE YOU NOT ME BY L.E.JR I be steady thinking, mind be tweeking, steady seekin, scared 2 close my eyes but steady blinkin, or am I winkin, I think I am falling in love or is it sinkin I am pouring my heart she is only leakin NOT ME IT CAN`T BE I be in my mind alone at a time, seeking tru luv but it must not be mine, all these hurdles I jump and mountains I climb, I can hear my heart beating as clear as a chime, I have my soul in a bind, But I be hurt and I am sour like a Lime, I heard it thru the grape vine, about nine times, it is hard to stay kind NOT ME IT CAN`T BE ME I am in a zone, my heart is all alone, I swear my life is so gone, listening to another sad slow song, where did I go wrong, I been acting good, but I get treated like a outcast like king kong, someone hit the bong, it has been so long, or so it feels, my love is like aids full blown, I am tryin to catch up but I canA?t fly where you have flown NOT ME IT CAN"T BE ME PLEASE I have that tru 2 heart luv for u, but it seems no matter what I do, someone give me a clue, this is %#&@$! or should I say doo doo, why my boo, canA?t be true to you know who, you have all the vibrant colors all I get is blue, who wouldA?ve knew I could feel like this not 1 time but 2 NOT ME, NOT ME, AND NOT YOU WHY BY L.E.JR Why and this is not jadakiss, but there is something a misted, I must insist, dat this is something I will miss, regret, I guess me and you werenA?t meant for eternal bliss, instead you dis, my past I canA?t seem to u canA?t forget Why canA?t we just be happy, and love me like I love you, what do I constantly do that I can never be happy but blue, I have been truthful, not a lie from these lips but I still lose you, we well I mean u want us to be apart, I guess I donA?t have the right glue, well I guess I miss my flight cause the coup you have flew Why things have to be this way, you are and were my destiny another chance at happiness for me and you for eternity, I was sorry like Ruben Studdard, even when I was right, I guess I just wanted you to be happy, now I am lonely WHY CAN SOMEONE TELL ME, WHY CRYING BY L.E.JR Damn here I go again, on a low note and full of pain Listening to sad love songs, just wishing it would rain So it can cover my tears, but I canA?t fool myself So I know I can not disguise the tears, why there is no one else But me, JUST ME again, giving ALL OF ME, feeling HURT, another GOODMORNING I thought I had my TRU2HEARTLUV man who was I fooling IA?M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED BY L.E.JR WELL HERE I GO AGAIN WITH MAD THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD ONLY WANTING SACRIFICE AND WILLING TO GIVE BUT GUESS WHAT I GET INSTEAD BACKWARD PROMISES, AND EMPTY WORD SAID AFTER A HOT SESSION IN BED I GUESS THAT IT IS MEANT TO BE BLUE, AND NOW I AM SEEING RED IA?M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED MY MIND IS SO TWISTED MY HEART FEELS WIRED LONELY HEART IS WHAT I FEEL EVEN THOUGH I AM NOT ALONE SIT BACK AND WONDER, DAMN WHY CANA?T I BE A CLONE ISSUE ARE ALWAYS SMALL WHEN I ADDRESS THEM, BUT OTHER WISE THEY ARE FULL BLOWN IA?M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED MY MIND IS ALL TWISTED MY HEART STILL FEELS WIRED THERE ARE EXPLOSIONS IN MY SOUL, ONLY I CAN FEEL AND SEE DETONATIONS SMOKE FEELS MY EYES NOWONDER MY SOUL CANA?T SEE WHY CANA?T I BE SPECIAL, LIKE OTHERS BEFORE ME I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED MY MIND IS %#&@$!INA? TWISTED MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BE WIRED THEN WHY AM I HERE, IS MY HEART FULL OF STUPIDITY OR MAYBE I AM BEING PUNISHED FOR MY PAST IDENTITY DAMN I AM SICK AND %#&@$!ING TIRED OF BE SICK AND TIRED IGNORNACE BY L.E.JR THIS IS NOT JUST A STORY BUT A AUTOBIOGRAPY SCENES AND EPISODES OF MY LIFE TURN TO DEVASATION AND TRAVISTY ALL THIS CATASTROPHY, IN THIS MAD MANA?S SYMPHONY EVERY TONE AND NOTE IS OUT OF WACK NO WONDER THERE IS NO HARMONY PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS STILL A VERY BIG PART OF ME THAT BELIEVES THAT I AM THE MAN THAT I AM SUPPOSE TO BE BUT I GUESS I AM PETTY BUT IS IT MY SENSITIVITY, THAT GIVES MY CREATIVITY THE SIMPLICITY TO FOLLOW MY DESTINY IS TO LOSE MY SANITY ARE YOU TESTING AND SEEING HOW FAR I WILL GO ALL ALONE BY L.E.JR I sit here, eyes facing the sky; the clouds are so divine I guess that is why they fly Well for me I guess I am jealous, because of what they do, damn I wish I could do what the clouds do, Just sit above all, no one would have a clue. Well that I am even paying attention , no one would be the wiser, I will go unnoticed like a flyer, let me get in a zone and let my brain fly so I can get my thoughts out before I cry. If I could fly, o god I would soar, forget all the pain I would hurt no more, No more disappointment, I would not be a prisoner to the floor. Whenever I feel any pain I would soar, get away from if all, be at peace, cause it would be the ones you love who always want a piece, a piece of me or a piece of all, they would even want a piece of my wing so then I would fall, There is no trust amongst no one not even blood, cause they the first to make you bleed so that is why I need to take heed, And focus on me, cause it wonA?t hurt as much when, I hurt, Being All Alone I for me
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