I’m so confused, my thoughts unclear,
So many things are fighting here.
My mind and heart keep bickering,
Neither one is giving in.
In the river of life, which one should row?
Which tells the other where to go?
I fear my mind, without compassion,
I fear my heart, I fear its action.
To take advantage of feelings no,
To be cold I hope its never so.
One path is from necessity, with blindfolds off its how I see,
The other path Is how I feel, how I want to be.
I will be judged by others either way,
So who do I want to be today?
I can’t show my self, I need that wall,
So should I be cold, forget them all?
They lead to places I don’t want to go,
Heart and soul or mind and being practical?
If I only knew who I was, things would be ok,
I could make the decision, either way.
It would be so easy for me to say,
But doubt and fear keep me at bay.
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Life isn`t about keeping score.
It`s not about how many friends you have.
Or how accepted you are.
Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you`re alone.
It isn`t about who you`re dating, who you used to date,
how many people you`ve dated or if you haven`t been with anyone at all.
It isn`t about who you have kissed.
It`s not about sex.
It isn`t about who your family is or how much money they have.
Or what kind of car you drive.
Or where you go to school.
It`s not about how beautiful or ugly you are.
Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, or what kind of music you listen to.
It`s not about if your hair is blond, red, black or brown.
Or if your skin is too light or too dark.
Not about what grades you get, how smart you are,
how smart everyone else thinks you are
Or how smart standardised tests say you are.
It`s not about what clubs you`re in
Or how good you are at a sport.
It`s not about representing your whole being and see who will accept the written you.
LIFE JUST ISN`T
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It`s about who you make happy or unhappy purposefully.
It`s about keeping or betraying trust.
Its about friendship, used as a sanctity or a weapon.
It`s about what you say and what you mean, maybe hurtful, maybe heartening.
About starting rumours and contributing to petty gossip.
It`s about what judgements you pass and why.
And who your judgements are passed to.
It`s about who you`ve ignored with full control and intention.
It`s about fear, jealousy, ignorance, and revenge.
It`s about carrying inner love and hate, letting it grow and spreading it.
But most of all,
It`s about using your life to touch or poison other people`s lives
in such a way that could never have occurred alone.
Only you choose the way those hearts are affected,
and those choices are what life`s all about.
