I hope you enjoy my page and the words I leave you with. Be sure to check out my music page http://music.myspace.com/Modul es/MusicV2/Pages/PopUpPlayer.a spx?songid=&artid=&pro fid=383672573&plid=24630 I produce, write, and direct all of my music.  Check it out and come back here to Bp and leave your feedback!!"

 "IF YOU ARE NOT GONNA READ MY ENTIRE PAGE THATS PERFECTLY FINE WITH ME, but dont begin reading my page and see something that hurts your feelings or offends you and then you skip all the way down to the note box to give me a piece of your mind, you will only make a fool of yourself.  READ THE ENTIRE PAGE from top to bottom before you decide to comment because you might miss some information and start an agument with me that could have been avoided.. so with that said now begins the journey through my abstract mind so make sure you have free time and some patience........"

"Also, please understand that I have the utmost love and respect for ALL WOMEN. I am not nor will I ever degrade a woman or disrespect her in anyway, however that does not mean I have to be NICE when I vent or SPEAK on the things that women do to piss me the F*CK OFF or things I simply disagree with pertainting to women. Ladies/Gents, please do not mistake the words on my page as if I HATE WOMEN or something, I'm just strong minded and not afraid to tell even the most BEAUTIFUL woman how I TRULY FEEL about anything...."

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"I'm single right now and NOT LOOKING TO BE COMMITTED TO ANY WOMAN at this time. No offense, hard feelings or negative thoughts whatsoever toward women, I LOVE WOMEN however, RELATINSHIPS require WORK to stay afloat.  The type of work that is required to maintain a lasting relationship is work that I AM NOT WILLING TO perfome at this point in my life.  Besides, I'm not at all LONELY or desparate for a female companion, I dont YERN for the partnership at this time and when that time comes I will DELETE this paragraph and say something different.  Things are jus so much easier when two people are jus CASUAL DATERS.  Emotions tend to complicate things. I am a person who can LOVE a woman without being her BOYFRIEND but for some reason women can't love a man unless he is "HER" man.  I respect that, its no problem, but I hate being blamed for the EMOTIONS of a woman, therefore a relationshp for ME is not within my calendar so please know this in the event you decide to get involved with a guy like me. Please, I encourage all women to seek that which makes you happy and if a COMMITTMENT is what you wantthere are plenty of men who share that same desire but I'm not one of them.  And I move at my OWN PACE so if you decide to give me a "P*SSY" ultimatum (where as if I wanna continue havin casuall sex wit you I have to decide committment or not.."ALL OR NOTHING" as you women would say) then I will gladly choose NOTHING for the sake of avoiding an argument, no need to give me an ultimatum I understand completely"

"What is it with women these days? HUH? What do I mean? Well please alow me to further state my issue.  A guy clicks on your page, or you click on his, but either way he makes his way to your page and your page is full of raunchy images of you. Raunchy, may not necessarily mean NAKED, but Raunchy nonetheless. You send him an IM or NOTE or he sends you one...either way, his approachs iS SEX related.  YOU GET PISSED, you LOOSE interest, he's a PIG, a Dog, disrespectful, blahblah yakety f*ckin SMAKETI...., okay ladies I'll HUMOR for just one second..for HUMOROUS REASONS ONLY....no you are not a HO, SL*T or whatever just because you lke taking raunchy pix of yourself and putting them ONLINE for the world to see.."NO NO LADIES THIS DOES NOT MAKE YOU A HO for showing the entire world your half naked BODY FOR FREE ONLINE without being paid for it" HOWEVER, you are INDEED SHOWING THE WHOL WORLD your raunchy images by placing them ONLINE to attract attention from people who like lookin at those images, so how if the F*CK in a SOUND MIND can you possibly get UPSET when these people send you message pertaining to sex? HOW? What are you pissed about exactly? I mean I could see if you just have pix of yoru face and a GUY sends you IMs and messages about how he would F*CK YOU THIS WAY or THAT WAY. You would have a valid argument then. But its similar to a STRIPPER who gets pisseed when guys offer to take them home after the club. What are you mad at ladies? Look at the CONFUSING MESSAGE you are sending to these people. You have to take SOME blame for this because you initiate these approaches whether you wanna admit it or not. And even still, if a guy wants some P*SSY from you and you are SINGLE, why are you makin it difficult? Whats so special abotu your P*SSY that he needs to jump threw HOOPS to get it? You women keep your P*SSY under lock and KEY as if you are a PRIZE, GET THIS THREW YOUR HEADS LADIES....the same amount of glory you place within your P*SSY you need to place that same glory for a D*CK. But nah nah, you women know that NO MAN is gonna play HARD TO GET THE D*CK RIGHT, and if he does, you can just move on to the next looser whose ready and willing. Whats wrong ladies, can't stand the heat of your own kitchens? Are ou ladies too good to chase D*CKS? Jump threw hopps to get some D*CK? NOOO< NOT YOU UPIDTY STUCK UP B*TCHS nawwwww, cause thats just BENEATH YOU. "OH I JUST REFUSE TO RUN BEHIND A NIGGA<, I'm too much of a lady for that."  But yall have no problem giving ULTIMATMUMS for P*SSY makin men RUN BEHIND YOU.  SO who has the bigges EGO men or women? WOMEN!!Because you all can dish it out but can't take it.  PLAY HARD TO GET but dont want a guy thas HARD TO GET. Why? "Cause I can get d*ck anywhere why should i waiste time playin games with this fool when I got men kickin my door down to get at me" Hmmm......so what if men jus started beating their D*CKS for a while and stopped "RUNNIN BEHIND" you females, thus playING HARD TO GET......I wonder what women woud do after a dose of their OWN MEDICINE....that would be a site for SORE EYES....therefore I ask  "WHAT IS IT WITH YOU FEMALES"

"Most women are so tired of the BULLSH*T with guys that they just resort to saying "I WISH MEN WOULD JUST KEEP IT REAL"........in reality, women don't really want a man to be TRUTHFUL to her, women want a fairytale. They want a "KNIGHT AND SHINING ARMOR" to say all the right things and sweep them off their feet. Yet contradict themselves (later in the relationship) saying I WISH GUYS would keep it real, I wish MEN WOULD JUST BE HONEST and UP FRONT with me and NOT WAIST MY TIME. Then, when a guy is ACTUALLY and FACTUALLY HONEST with her<~~~~~~~~~~SHE THEN hypocritically labels him as "IGNORANT, CHILDISH, IMMATURE, YOUNG MINDED, NOT A REAL MAN, LEARN HOW TO APPROACH WOMEN"......yada yada yada..........I can go on but you get the idea............
This is an "EXAMPLE" of my VENOM towards women who REALLY CAN"T handle the truth. I feel that I should not be a "KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR" in the beginning (because..... well, I'm not here to CATER TO YOU and your BULLSH*T) and then you find out later that I'm a D*CK!!!<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I dont think its fair for men to waist women's time with bullsh*t pick-up lines, LIES, GAMES, and colorful words just because they fear you will label their APPROACH as ignorant for speaking your mind (i.e. how you really and truly feel and what your ?TRUE? intentions are for her) to her upon approaching her in public. Then, have you be the "GOOD WOMAN? who bends over backwards and falls head over heels in love with him or whatever kind of DOWN @SS WOMAN you are to him, then you find out how much of a DUMB@SS he is (or in my case a COMPLETE D*CK) and you feel as though you've wasted your time. I feel that EVERYONE should be BRUTALLY HONEST because we have a FREEDOM of SPEECH amendment and yet we do not exercise it due to politically CORRECTNESS or what OTHERS WILL THINK OF US......."

This is EXTREMELY SAD................because we all live in a mental prison within ourselves affraid of what others will think of us based on how we "REALLY FEEL" anyway. How can another person tell you what you are suppose to feel? Those are "YOUR" feelings that you naturally feel in different situations, yet by expressing those IDEAS and feelings you IMMEDIATELY get judged by someone who is JUST AS or MORE IMPERFECT than you are<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Be less judgemental and more HUMBLE PEOPLE.....

Ladies, if you request for THIS or THAT from guys..............GOT DAMMIT you better DAYUM WELL be able to handle it, because one day "YOU WILL GET WHAT YOU ASK FOR" and in most cases YOU a LIE and FULL OF SHARK SH*T when you request certain things from MEN!! I've come to the conclusion that women are just merely venting when they say "KEEP IT REAL", because they are recovering from a DUMB@SS who they later found out was a DUMB@SS, however, like MOTHS to a FLAME you will end up dating the SAME DUMB@SSES that you're VENTING ABOUT simply because you cannot HANDLE what it is you are VENTING for (I.E. a good man/woman who keeps it real and keeps it 100% with you in the beginning)..........<~~~~~~ ~~AND VICE VERSA............men need to apply this same concept to themselves.............THIS IS FOR MEN and WOMEN!!!

This is strictly for the ladies of BP:
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
Ladies of BP, why do you all have so many rules and regulations on your personal page for us guys to follow just get a response from your STUCK UP ASSES?? Some of you females are so STUCK ON YOURSELVES that you all make me sick to my stomach sometimes. And some of you FELLAS follow their rules cause you think they're going to give YOU THE A$$. NEW FLASH GUYS, these "BORED, NO LIFE HAVING A$$ FEMALES" are not going to have sex with you just because you meet criteria that they have set for GUYS on their page. They are sitting back in their chairs laughing at you for even trying to meet all the "WHAT I LIKE IN A GUY" features that they have posted on their personal page. Females, this is the internet, so my question to you ladies is, HOW THE HELL DO YO KNOW if these guys fit the description of your requirements in REAL LIFE? You don't see these guys in person, you dont know these guys, they are LYING JUST TO GET PU$$Y. AND, why do you females think that you are SOOOOO FINE that you can even make up RULES for guys to follow? Are you ladies willing to follow the RULES that a guy has posted on HIS PAGE? NO so who the hell are you to MAKE RULES if you're not willing to follow them yourselves???????

Some ladies have this for example:
"What I like in a guy"
Tall
GOD FEARING (<~~~This one cracks me up because these chicks have BOOTY all over their page)
HAVE A GOOD JOB (<~~~What does his job have to do with anything, what are you a gold digger?)
NO KIDS (<~~But yet you have kids of your own and pix of them on your page)
Not looking for just sex (half of you females just want the D*CK anyway so I never will understand this one)
Has a car (<~~It figures if you're the one whose catching the BUS)
Respectful Thugs (<~~This one just freaking makes me LAUGH, I HAVE NO COMMENT)

These are just examples, I've seen much worse. It really bugs me because you females think that you can make rules and you just WILL NOT RESPOND to a guy if he doesn't follow the rules you have on your page, however I"ve yet to meet a girl on BP that follows the rules of a GUY. Instead most of you females will criticise a man if he has rules on his page for FEMALES. WOMEN, this is the internet, if you're going to meet a guy on the internet, evaluate him when you meet him. You don't know if he's lying or not so why set rules and regulations for guys to follow, it shows how immature and shallow you are. Exchange numbers or meet somewhere and THEN set your rules and regulations. PEOPLE THIS IS THE INTERNET NOT THE CLUB!!!!!!


"I just have a question for those who visit my page, WHY DO MALES AND FEMALES LIE TO EACH OTHER ABOUT DUMB SHlT? Guys say things like "I`m not like other guys," just to convince some DUMB CHICK to give up the A$$, and FEMALES LIE about NOT WANTING TO GIVE UP THE A$$ and NOT WANTING FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS or Casual Sex and all that BULLSHlT to make them not look like a HOE when in reality they want the same thing, GUYS AND GIRLS ARE THE SAME the only differnce is our sex organs. So tell me world of BP, why do WE LIE TO EACH OTHER ABOUT MEANINGLESS BULLSH*T???





For the ladies:
"Why is that yall get alll upset and bent out of shape when a guy stands up to you? WHY, why is that when a guy tells your PRETTY @SSES.........."NO" Your whole day is F*CKED UP?? Are you use to guys BOWING DOWN TO YOU and worshiping your every command just to be rewarded with your PRECIOUS P*SSY (which aint the FRESHEST and probably needs to be washed three/four times before getting out the shower) or some MEANINGLESS CONVERSATION WITH YOU that will lead to NOTHING??? Is your P*SSY REALLY THAT F*CKING PRECIOUS?? Is being in your presence that F*CKING SPECTACULAR that you have an obsticle course for a guy to COMPLETE JUST TO BE AROUND YOUR SELFISH @SSES?? WHAT, are sparks going to shoot out your P*SSY when you finally decide to go on a date with a guy? Are stars going ot shoot across the sky; are fireworks going to ignite and flowers going to BLOOM when you finally give up your STANKIN @SS P*SSIES?? Is having sex with you, or being associated with you "THAT GOT DAYUM REWARDING??? What is the difference between the nut he will BUST with you that he hasn't already BUSTED WITH ANOTHER B*TCH that you have so much F*CKING CRITERIA FOR A GUY TO MEET?? Are you F*cking kidding me?? Seriously ladies, ask yourselves...........is this guy really DISRESPECTING ME or is it that he aint taking no SH*T FROM ME JUST BECAUSE I"M PRETTY and all the other guys are usually sweating me? Ask yourself............SELF, is this guy really an @SSHOLE, A BITTER MAN, or a DOG FOR KEEPING IT REAL WITH ME or am I just a spoiled LIL B*TCH WHOSE BEN GETTING ALL THAT I WANT from punk @SS NIGGAS whom in MY OWN DEFINITION ARE REAL MEN (because if a man meets my criteria he is considered a REAL MAN to me) and this particular guy refuses to meet all my DEMANDS? See if you can answer that question for yourselves ladies.............I challenge ladies of ALL WALKS OF LIFE ON THIS ONE. Is it the GUY who has the problem, is the GUY who's CHILDISH and NEEDS TO GROW UP BEFORE APPROACHING WOMEN........or is it my ONE TRACK MIND THAT IS keeping me in prison within myself and I cant see that this guy is just NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH MY BULLSH*T?? Now, ladies, if you all still get pissed and upset with me for asking you these questions then by all means CUSS AWAY.........CUSS AT ME until your throats get dry.......I"M ONLY GOING TO LAUGH AT YOU and guess what........I"M STILL NOT GOING TO BREAK MY NECK and try to meet the criteria that you DEMAND for a man to have........I'm still going to tell your CUTE @SS ""HELL F*CK NO I AINT DOING THAT SH*T""" whatever it may be............."

You've been enlightend ladies...........dont get mad......just RE-EVALUATE YOURSELF before you get all pissed and BENT OUT OF SHAPE when a guy tells your CUTE @SS """NO"&quo t;"

  "Mottos"

"No man or woman knows the type of man or woman they want.  It is true that everyone believes they do, but why is it that nem and women cheat? Simple, we do not know what it is we desire.  This is a deep statement because we humans seek instant gratification, thus, convincing ourselves that we know what it is we want, however, the truth is we only know what we DONT WANT through past experiences that have left us heartbroken and/or scorned.  Remain yet steadfast in your search for that lifetime companion and keep an open mind to new things and every man/woman will find their soul mate"

Nobody will ever be perfect, and besides, who among us can really maintain that perfect tenure forever?  Therefore, prefection is like chasing a ghost .  Only hard work and doing our best is the BEST we can offer to anyone in this world.  All of our INSECURITIES, FEARS, and DOUBTS are what shields us from our own imperfections.  So we find fault in others to bandaid our own short commings; which helps us cover up the fact that we ourselves will never attain perfection.  So we get angry at others who are not perfect and scold them for there mistakes when we oursleves should look in the mirror and count the mistakes that merely cover our faces let alone mistakes we've made in life.  The HYPOCRACY OF MAN.....sigh!

"Life is precious, don't take it for granted that you breathe"

"Look in the mirror before you point your finger to judge someone, then ask yourself AM I PERFECT"

"Confidence aid's me in my prominence to do anything I set out to do"

"If it ain't broke don't fix it"

"People who place high standards on others are usually people with low self esteem and/or self indulgent people who usually end up with someone who don't meet those high standards"

"Money is just a tool, therefore it can be replaced. In other words do not LEND your tools to people, instead GIVE them your tools and purchase new ones"

"If someone steals from you, do not seek to get it back. Let them have whatever it is they took and make yourself unavailable when they really need you."

"Karma is a b*tch on her period with no midol"

"Remember, GOD is always in control. Even satan has to ask his permission before making a person's life a living hell. Take heed as to who it is that is REALLY making life hard for you"

"Worship GOD, not your PASTOR. Note: just because your pastor is preaching a sermon and quoting scriptures for examples does not necesarily mean that he and GOD agreed on the lesson plan"

"Ladies you all wish for and demand a man with lots of money ("I want a man that makes six figures or more or I aint interested......etc, etc, etc so and so forth") Ladies asks yourselves "AM I FOR SALE?" How much money does it really take to win you over? The answer is: NOT ENOUGH. As there will never be enough because you are queens and no amount of money can buy you. It is okay to seek stability in a man, but to set a price in the amount of money required to earn your interest is another form of selling yourself. We (men) would like to think of you all as a reliable companion not a material object for purchase. Ladies realize your worth."

"If you have children, do not underestimate them. They are more intelligent than you give them credit for and they WILL mimic your actions during your absence. Hide yourself carefully until they are old enough to distinguish between your decisions and their own"

"Single parents: your children shoud not come in contact with your significant OTHERS. Be sure that you and that person are already committed and even engaged before introducing them to your children. We must protect our kids at all times, sometimes EVEN FROM OURSELVES"

"Children are like court reporters, they take in all that they see and hear. Therefore it is up to us as parents to decipher and translate this information. Making sure to block out the negativity until they are strong enough to handle the negative information."

"Ladies: Understand that you all are queens, however realize that ultimatums push men away. Don't think of yourself as a REWARD to him in the event that he wins you over. You are merely another human being with many imperfections so what is a REWARD that has blemishes? Instead be more humble as an example to him so that he too can see his own imperfections"

"Meeting someone online is no different than meeting someone in person for the first time.Crazy people are everywhere in all shapes, sizes and backgounds.So keep your eyes peeled at all times and don't make the mistake of thinking that the person you met face to face is okay to be around and the person you met online is a psychopath, because it could very well be VICE VERSA!"

"Death is guranteed, life is but a breeze. What are you living for? How many people have you helped? The amount doesn't matter its whats in your .Don't waiste your life away doing nothing, reach out and touch the life of another pointing them in a positive direction. Make peace with those that have hurt you or wronged you(forgiving them 100%) release yourself from your grudges, and right the wrongs in your life while you yet live. Die knowing that you've fullfilled positive goals and helped to make a difference in the lives of others. Before you know it, you may wake up realizing you're out of time.....that is....IF YOU WAKE UP!

This motto was written and dedicated to my sister CHERISE UPSHAW (R.I.P.)......I will love and cherish you forever.........

POETRY!!!

"Poetic Thoughts"

I'm looking for a women who's unconditional, not a copy cat women but a woman who's original,

Lifts me up when I'm down, turns my frown upside down, laughs at me when I clown, rescues men if I drowned,

She reconizes my manhood never gets in my way, and if I make a mistake, she sticks around never stray,

She's not a backbone but more like a spinal cord, she don't use bandaids she just GETS RID OF MY SORES,

She's not a ho or a trick, not too quick to get hitched, she don't ask me for sh*t, cause she's my down @ss b*tch,

Hmmph who am I kidding she's just a fantasy girl, cause they don't make em like this anywhere in this world,

So should I settle for less, than something other than best, wake up and realize that this world is a mess,

Or does she really exist, somewhere other than this, is she lost in the midst, from all the negative bliss,

Searching for a guy like me, to kiss and rub on her feet, fix her something to eat, then massage her to sleep,

Where is that woman, that loving wonderful woman, that makes something from nothing, turns a half dozen to dozen,

Hmmm....maybe she's just a fantasy that will never exist....

CRYING OUT TO YOU LORD!!

Heavenly father it is you that wakes me up every day,

I pledge my allegiance to God as I put my head down and pray,

Just like my best homie you laid down ya life for me,

And all you ask in return is to remain sin free,

Well Lord listen cause I'm speakin from the depth of my heart,

I'm havin so many problems don't even know where to start,

I wanna give up sometimes but I know that ain't smart,

And I can't make it work on time my car won't sart,

I wanna kiss my son and tell em how much daddy loves em,

But he so far away so far I can't even hug em,

And I wonder if...

This life of mine was to be this way,

The only way to find out was when you told me to pray,

The stress is gettin to me and its taken over my soul,

You never turned ya back on me because thats not how you roll,

But at times Lord...

I feel like you ain't even here,

And I'm so stubborn I won't even shed any tears,

But you shed blood and I really feel so guilty for that,

All of them lustful thoughts and ungodly acts,

Yo its a war goin on between heaven and sin,

And bottom line Lord I just want heaven to win,

Because in the end...

We all must be living in peace,

Grace...Harmony...thats what I"m anxious to see,

And I'm made to believe you died for every one of my sins,

So God will forgive me over and over again,

When will it ever end...

All the stupid stuff that we do,

Satisfying ourselves instead of glorifying you,

Well I take you Lord...

Right here and now as my saviour,

Please forgive all my sins and ungodly behavior,

I just wanna be right,

My whole life been in strife,

Lord I'ma need you through this entire spiritual fight,

We must not lust we must not cuss,

Jesus saved us we must raise up,

I'm not gone sit up here and say I don't do none of that stuff,

Cause every now and then I give in and sometime I give up,

Just tryin to let you know you gotta keep ya faith up,

Keepin my spiritual balance don't wanna mess my covenant up,

And we all should do this every single day of the month,

Just to remember ya presence Lord in God we trust...

"Nothing Is Always What it Seems"

When you see a smile on a person's face,
Look closer,
There's usually a TEAR hidden some place,
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

When you see 2 people whispering
Just relax and Breathe,
Its usually the LOUD and OBNOXIOUS ones that are plotting schemes,
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

You can learn very little from someone who loves to talk, thinking they know it all,
However, you stand to learn a lot from someone who rarely talks at all,
WHY?
Because NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

Never ever live life based on 1st impressions,
You will regret it later after learning a very hard lesson
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

Never judge a book by its cover,
The secrets always lie within waiting to be discovered,
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

Always keep an open mind,
Because you can very well be wrong,
Dont just travel on one track BLIND,
Road blocks are only there to make you strong,
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

The beach may be beautiful because you feel that warm sea breeze,
But a tide can come in at any moment, because NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

When you see a person crying, it doesn't always mean they're in pain,
Joy comes in all shapes and forms, even during the rain,
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS,

All money ain't good money, so be careful not to scheme,
What goes around comes around, because NOTHING IS ALWAYS WHAT IT SEEMS.........!!

Thank you for taking the time out to read these mottos. I hope I have helped you in anyway, and if so please refer them to a friend or loved one. It gives me great pleasure and joy knowing that I have reached someone. I will be sure to post more MOTTOS as I go through life and experience positive and negative forces. Until then take the knowledge I have given you and use it to help others in their life's journey....