I am back after a million years, and have never canceled my account for this site is my connection to 'my people' and its better than my peeps- for being cool and down is not my town
I am in a relationsip, and we have 2 children- one who is 13 and another who is 20. I am also not interested in getting with anyone else, have to make this clear for those who insist on talking to me anyway or for some reason ignorant enuf to believe i want more,
As the Qur'an says, "One is enuf! If u only but knew!" (spelling is mine, and so is jist)
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Something happened 2 the picture of my sexual animal. For it is not currently showing on my page (7-29) To let everyone know it is a GAZELLE.
In other words catch me if u can.
And for some that part is easy. The real challenge is keeping me!!!!
There are a few here who will attest 2 that!!!
Ladylove019
Singularly
pedophiles and molesters
will not go easily
i hate those who do not care
who cannot help themselves from CHILDREN
so stand up
distinguish yourself
do u believe?
or will u go on hiding in fear?
like these
like those who are not willing to die
for what they believe in
i am willing to die
i am willing to be judged
just i am gonna make it real clear who i am
before u kill me
by LadyLove019 Jan 4th, 2010
Posted Jan 4th, 2010
i am tired
of the wrongful distinction
there is a difference between
a pedofile
and me
remember when he accused u of rape?
still does?
threatened by your presence
he ASSUMED u wanted his woman?
that u would be a beast?
and take her by force?
just your impure presence
vilified, tainted those around u?
these things u assume of me
could it not also be otherwise?
i watch everyone around children
for molesters, pedophiles seem like regular people
ones u least suspect
they hide among others
like we once did
for some of us-its not obvious
for some of us were afraid
i say, yeah
if u like to have sex with children
stand up
show urself
fight
for i will fight
against u
go away- stay the %#&@$! away for u will not take my child
i have no sexual interest in a child
for me
most 25 year olds i would not involve myself with
because i do not need innocence
i need one who has been thru the fire many times
kind of cynical
knows without doubt who they are
someone who isn't still searchin
or recently found
one who has all that- like my wife, a full grown adult
y would i want a child, for sex?
Oh Allah
those who do
i too desire to kill
to think
i use to murder me
i asked
i probed
because many pedophiles
molesters
seem to not see it that way
i have much of that in my family
i read about one treated that way
sprouts into one too
so i asked
i probed
i beat myself
i screamed
i persecuted me
i withheld
in fear
that it would spring out of me
then silence
as i assumed this position
is it any wonder
that i hate u?
and those like yourself?
for i started to wonder if anyone else takes the time
the pain
to question themselves?like this?
past confidence?
past belief?
with such fear?
i realized, i imagine
some do
continue to
and are crazy
so when was no gonna be good enuf when i ask MYSELF?!
Aarrrgh!
i then realized
i had been tricked
who?
why?
did i believe i was so bad?
who?
where did this come from?
me?
it was
where did it begin?
led me on a journey here
for i will not do that again so help me god
i have the right to be
and you can try to kill me
i will no longer do it for u
by LadyLove019 Jan 4th, 2010
Posted Jan 4th, 2010
i mean really
call to arms
will it matter
that i like your charms?
when someone is trying to kill u?
kill us?
and yet you fight me
when there is a much greater enemy
even i
am not your enemy
just my path
is different
and yet
Allah is still my father
and HE supports me
yet u call urself close to HIM
i was once that way 2
so before u die
waaay before
for i am tired of cryptic last statements
like the Hon. Elijah Muhammad
that is y we need more
this time around
for u need us
and we want you
but it will happen w/out u
Allah is my witness
and may HE help us and protect us
for there is a difference
in mass rape and suicide
i challenge u and others
to ask HIM
AGAIN
NOW
upon hearing these words
wether or not i am with HIM and HE with me
anything else?
still a loophole for u to carry against us?
for ye judge me
as thou has been judged before
misguided
ignorant
dumb
less than
insignificant
because of the color of your skin
who do i hurt?
with my way of life?
me?
do u really believe that?
and do i somehow hurt you my brother?
threaten u, who are so free
no fear of me?
then y?
y?
is there a
NEED to prosecute us?
nothing u do or say against it, helps us- not
and yet u cry when one of us dies?
kills himself? herself?
he or she just wasn't strong enuf?
how many more must die, before u fight for OUR lives?
huh?
Allah?
how many more will die- before we
in our pain
strike back?
can u blame us?
i'd rather do that
then quitely
or even loudly
kill myself for u
for u leave me no recourse
and Allah does
believe me
for my life is HIS
i am still here
i am living proof
instantaneously
on time
perfect time
perfect tense
for in my heart it makes sense
in my heart-soul-body-and mind
there is life!
u could not suffice
i call my brothers and sisters to arms
for we are at war
with u and others like yourselves
until
until
u stop killing us
with your words and inactions
till OUR lives are liveable
around you and others like yourselves
let us be
let me gather land away from u
become our own nation
let me fight to upbring
MY people
since u always make the distinction
that i am something other
i will use it for my benefit
Allah U Akbar
by LadyLove019 Jan 4th, 2010
Posted Jan 4th, 2010
write journalize
take up my time
spell like hell
rhyme my %#&@$! off
and then cast it off
i was thinkin
not good enuf for treason
not good enuf for them for u to placate us
TO US!
say it to the world
say it regularly
do not just say i want you to be happy!
fight for me
and then i will believe
vote for me
and then i will believe
trust me
and then i will believe
when u do for me
what u do for u
and others like yourself
then
then
i will believe
u want me to be free
then i will believe u give a %#&@$!
then
then i will believe
that u believe
i am a person
a person
a human
deserving of the same things
the same rights
as u
for then u will have done the same for me
as for u
and others like u
and there will no longer be this distinction
this separation
this parasitical
relationship
for i already am u
so y not fight for me?
like i fight for u?
by LadyLove019 Jan 4th, 2010
Posted Jan 4th, 2010
By the way I AM NOT A MEMBER OF THE NOI!! No Lesbians allowed remember? Anyone with a blue clue would know this.
Going thru a battle with Clinical Depression and Anxiety (diagnosed), those who believe one doesn't need ANY medication- has NOT been thru this- Alternatives are better than Pharmaceuticals- Just income is not at its best when one has a difficult time cooking/shopping/feeding/bathi ng- oneself- Undiagnosed- CFS aka Chronic Fatigue Syndrome- and now Bi-Polar/Rapid Cycle
(doing better now cause lots of the fatigue was caused by High Blood Pressure- finally found a ARNP who understood that my pressure being High meant i needed help (plus- after years of it being high, but not high enuf- it finally went over that line!)
Been around some Bi-Polars aka Manic/Depressives before- but now since i am actually showing no doubt signs... i definitely understand it more, Allah U Akbar
Thru this process- i became more aware of how this is not discussed/warranted in the Black Community- that if i knew back in the day what i know now- good chance i would not be in the state i am in now- which is very bad- management, understanding- would have helped me not to push as hard as i have- but that is part of the undiagnoses too.
So i have a new cause to champion- inshallah- Mental Health Awareness- among everyone.
UNITY NOT UNIFORMITY
I am a firm believer in a person finding their own way 2 happiness. And i bear witness i`ve done it- it works!
