MyOwnBeatnCA I AM - October 27, 2009 add/view comments (0) |
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The melanin in my skin evokes fear and contempt in some and an unsubstatiated familiarity in others. In either instance I remain unseen. While trying to stay present and never compromising my authenticity, I long for intimate connections--connections with the courageously vulnerable. In general, I think it takes courage to love and in particular it takes a brave Warrioress to love me. I am not for the faint of heart. Queens and Princesses need not apply. I overthrow kingdoms, not serve or or create them. I challenge paradigms and generalizations not perpetuate or conform. You see, I come with no guarantees. My life is fluid, a Spiritual journey and evolution. I make my own decisions, guided by an indwelling of Divine intuition. It would be an exercise in futility to try and figure me out--kind of like trying to nail Jello to a wall. It would be extremely frustrating for you to try and get to know me--completely anyway. Understand, I can't be defined by a professional title, material possessions, national origin, race, sexual preference, height, or weight. Writer, actor, son, brother, professional, friend, lover, booty call, or enemy are all roles I have played and or continue to play but none of those things define me. I am seek the company of someone who is willing to experience me, moment by moment, day by day. This is where magic happens, I dare say this is where love lives. One can't know or define this, but can, with an open mind and heart expereince it, experience me. My love and affection is not for sale or trade. I want you to love me because you are moved and choose to do so, not on the condition that I love you back. Spoil me (whatever that means to you) because it makes YOU feel good, NOT because you want something in return. Does this take courage? Hell Yeah! Love and bliss does not visit the cowardly or the selfish. The type of woman I am describing will have my loyalty and admiration for this lifetime and the next. For you and I romance is a way of life not an event that happens on "special" occasions. Our relationship with people and the planet are more important than material possesions. Our purpose is to live an altruistic life. We are indeed our brother's keeper. We understand that the clothes on our backs, the cars we drive, the places we live, the money in our pockets--all material possesions, belong to the Angel of Death. He/She can take them at any time. We don't fear God! SHE loves us. HE protects us. IT inpires us. Those who try and define the Divine limit themselves, they play in the shallow end of the pool and it is there that they will flounder and drown. You and Me? It's gotta be the deep end. There is redemption in the deep end, ecstacy lives in the deep end, passion is a constant, imagination reigns--fear and judgment are strangers. Your physical beauty draws me in but it's your intelligence, creativity, and your ability to SEE and HEAR me that makes me want to stick around. Sex with you sometimes feels like a spiritual experience and other times it is pure unadultured physical pleasure. We value it all. Many before me were intimidated by your physical beauty and intelligence and some jealous of your creativity. I am your biggest cheerleader and I hang on every word. You and I seek to create a place where we both are encouraged to grow and explore as individuals as well as a couple. You accept me for who I am today and not for who you want me to be or think I have the potential to become. I am waiting for you--though not idly. I have no expectation of how our relationship/friendship will evolve or form it will take. I will know it to be right when I experience it. You are to be commended for reading this profile. If you found it too long--I wish you well. I should mention--while I love the naked female form I don't want to be sent porn links. Spoken and written communication are wonderful but remember--if English is your primary language, you shouldn't fight it or abuse it. English is our friend. If English is not your primary language, you get a pass and have my admiration as I want to learn a second language. Teach me? LIGHT
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