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You could laugh like i'm lying.. ain't no rain in the this cloud. I got means for your ways.. ain't no need to act loud. ain't no need for a crowd. unless you need help. now you can tell the world...you did it all to yourself. I could be mistaken.. maybe you can save face. maybe you can be forgiven.. can your lawyer beat the case? Last chance have mercy.. either way it's gone hurt me. man the judge slam the gavel like her name was james worthy. Ain't no appeal for what I feel now, so you know it's real now. I'll never take a deal now, I rather pay my bill now... I guess you'll pay later. for bad misbehavior.. didn't check the evidence, and guess who you favored. I'm only use to it.. only happen sometime.. everybody makes mistakes..so I'm entitled to mine.

see i tried to explain, but my time ran out.. and only very few niccaz, know what time be bout.It's not something they give to you.. or something you take back. It don't cost when you spend it, you experience that. time take away from you, and leave you with thoughs.. Took time for me to understand, I feel your teardrops. My heart stops for you sometime.. wish it wasn't true, and I wish it wasn't you, some time.. only you be on my mind, I take the good with the bad some time.. you can't miss what you never had..but it still make me mad some time.

I'm just a mess right now, can't get it off my chest right now. whatever for the best right now.. I just need to get some rest right now. I'm so tired of the stress right now. I'm giving more for the less right now.. lord would you make me feel bless right now. your son's setting in the west right now. I'm feeling high as a kite right now.. thing is, I'm not even on a flight right now. truth hurts, I'm losing focus on my life right now. the way i see it, I'm not talking bout my sight right now. I got feelings and the pain's in my chest right now. I can't tell you, I can't even catch my breath right now..

She use to be sweet, but now she forget.. cause all I ever hear, is a buncha Bullshyt. She bring the same old shyt, into a brand new day ..I'm just playing some tyrese, WHY YOU ACT THAT WAY? What happen, why she change on me? start to acting strange on me.. I ain't stupid, you know I peep the game homie. can't lead from the back.. can't cut ya no slack. disassociate yourself, if that's the way you gone act. All mad cause you stressing.. Tryna get a confession I'm so busy right now, I can't answer your questions.. Leave a message at the tone.. then leave me alone Don't be playing on my phone, girl I'm way too grown.

I can't understand you.. You know I can't stand you. We can't get along as friends, it's so hard to be your man too. Got a plan to, still can't stand you.. have to unhand you, find another man boo.. I CAN'T STAND YOU. let them ties go, can't deal with lies so... don't act surprised though. look me in my eyes though. see through your disguise though. but you fail to realize though. so you slide slow.. and you ride low. CANT STAND YOU.. cause you keep your pride low. Say good-bye though. Pigs can't fly though.. Even if you try though.. I STILL CANT STAND YOU.

I did what I could, cross my heart hope to die. You a bold face lie, if you say I didn't try.. Now I could ask you why, but where would that get me? The man that you want me to be, it don't fit me. Everything that we had, I can make that back.. All the feelings that I had, watch 'em fade to black. Money wasn't enough, when the times was rough.. But I still found my way, when the going got tough. I explained myself.. You on that "she say" shyt.. Its been all said before, how the game don't quit.

Hard times writings letters.. cause it hurts when i speak. I can't hear my own voice, we haven't spoke in 2 weeks. going at it back and forth, now it's only one way.. I wanna holla atcha nicca, Ion know what to say. the situation brings pain, I see your little girls face.. she ask me "have you seen my daddy?" I just tell her "keep faith." You don't always get a second chance.. trading war stories, Through these eyes I done seen more pain than glory. I was born in your image, so please don't ignore me. I need a vessel for the pain, for the prayer of my homie. Who am I to you, we probably more than friends.. I know it's hard to talk about it, so I'm keeping it in. We just had a talk about it, now we talking again. knowing one day that you have to bring my life to an end. Appreciate everything-2010-

I just wanna see you happy, so we ain't gotta fight. Girl your smile so bright, even pretty in the light. I can give her what she like, I'ma dog.. girl i bite! This could be my last night, won't you catch a fast flight? I can see through the haze.. and you seem so amazed.. You don't have to be afraid, you the star.. I'm the stage.... I know ya nicca don't like me, and your girls just pretend. you hearing things in the wind.. like we should just "be friends." You gotta make your own way, and your own decisions. they just keep talkin bout me, cause they think you gone listen. In the mood, in the kitchen.. got a brand new position. You can be my bad girl.. putcha az restriction. ------------------------------ ----------------------------- How could you look me in the eye, and lie in my face.. would it be the same case, if me and you exchange place? me and you exchanged numbers, and we exchanged names. And i know you not forreal, real niccaz don't change. Where it start? I forget.. wasn't my first mistake. I should have seen the first signs, when I came home late.. I was heavy on the grind, you was heavy on the hate.. up twenty two inches, when i came through the gate. You persist to point fingers.. I'll excuse your emotions.. had to laugh when i said it, so you know that i'm joking.

anything goes.. keep it moving real slow.. Decatur on the low, cause you dealing with a pro. four-five. FO-FO.. if a nicca wanna know. keep some bread in the toaster, and it ain't for show. man my girl had my back.. so i kept my girl strapped.. niccaz aiming at my back.. so i do like that. Say love I had to hit you.. but it wasn't like that. You can always blame me, but i want you right back. Time couldn't forget you, and i miss you that much, and you know i come through, especially in the clutch. you give a damn about swag, and i think you high class.. so you know I wouldn't brag, and let the kitty out the bag. I can see if you mad, cause you think i gave up.. My covergirl model, wearing Mac make up..

access denied.. so nicca hold up! I'm like some loose change, so I don't fold up! You can see me in the streets, if you ever show up. and niccaz wouldn't check you.. If you just grow up. Hit the block, change cars... Came back in something new. Real niccaz, do real thangs..it couldn't be you. and if it was, then wasn't true.. and it's a code blue! we need doctor and a coroner too. Niccaz talkin cash shyt.. money getcho az kicked.. so if your paper low, then I hope you gotcha plastic.. ------------------------------ -------------------------

well.. I'll be got dayum, ain't a dayum thang changed. vicious thoughts cross my brain. It's just hard to maintain. It's just hard to get past the fact, some niccaz act shady. Don't be checking up on me, you should be checking on yo lady. everything ain't all gravy, if you owe me.. You gone pay me. If you look into my eyes... You gone say that boy crazy. Man I must be crazy.. Or missing a couple screws.. How you niccaz talkin shid, You ain't paid no dues. And you need to get some clues, all I have is bad news.You was barely reaching twenty, when we had twenty-two's. CO-SIGNED on a check, that yo az can't cash.. Your niccaz can't bail you out. So I hope you heal fast. cut yo az, sharp as glass.. if you strapped, I'ma blast. A nicca have to think fast, or a nicca won't last. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------------ -------------------

sometimes I'm looking at life.. so sometimes I reflect.. Respect that's taken for granted.. is showing less than respect. neglect left unchecked, can deprive your success. some niccaz is still hoping.. so I hope they succeed. Feed your needs, before your wants.. and water your seeds. Some niccaz breathe greed.. crafty niccaz indeed, but I don't follow I lead.. so you out of my league. I'm reaching for a goal you can never achieve. chose to believe in it.. you just choose to pretend it.. hold up wait a minute.. I'm the CAPTAIN lieutenant!!! you making this seem funny, cause you talk like a dummie.. dummy is dummy do.. so the dummy is you. oh boy, I'm talking to who??.. No Boy I'm Talking To You. your disguise is see through.. the skies is so blue.. the roses are so red.. she told me the other day, i forget what she said. Her looks look stunning.. I wasn't frontin' but the thought cross my mind... she could owe me something. or show me something.. keep it real clean, cause that's my routine. and now your lady like... that thing that thing.

I gave you what i could.. sacrificed what i shouldn't have..true..some of my thought revolve around you. I appreciate your time, and the things that you did. we should have spent more time.. before we had kids. I figured I'd grow on you.. You accepted me then, i just wish that it could work, and have those feelings again. I needed to lean on you.. You was part of the team.. suppose to be fifty fifty.. You know what i mean? couldn't find words to reach you.. I was talking to self. I always did feel like the last one left.. I wasn't right I admit it.. I'll say it again.. with my voice, with a pen.. should have been better friends. shouldn't of tried to pretend.. the end.

I couldn't find the right words, when I was talking to you.. Can't say what a man will, or man won't do. I had a feeing in my heart, I should make things right.. But if I listen to my heart, I would leave tonight. I wouldn't miss that flight.. Cause you could be my destiny. But I don't know what I would say, to the rest of me. You got the recipe.. To get the best of me.. and after the best, there's only bad things left. I had to get it off my chest, man my heart so heavy.. the convo was heartfelt, will you ever forget me? I don't wanna slow you down, when I see you busy.. If I touched you the wrong way, would you please forgive me? I should keep you on the speed dial, keep hitting re-dial.. You make me smile.. and it's been a long while. Since.. hence, I'm talking pre-tense. Only some time, until.. all my time spent! It's deeper and deeper, until you hear me through the speaker.. I know it's only been a week, the time is making me weaker.. The only option is the first.. So I'm sure your not B. see.. what I'm saying.. it's plain to see. and you ain't simple to me.. I need wings to reach you, with the means to teach you.. I mean... show you what I'm going through.. knowing you, could be holding on to something too.. someone who, might make you feel better. I appreciate your time, with my thoughts and letters.. It's funny how love, can make a nicca hate you.. we all smiles. Miss you my nicca.

I can't find myself.. I'm mad at that. but I'm so bad with that.. Raider hat... nicca falling out the Cadillac. these niccaz passing, but I ain't gone pass it back. some niccaz jacking, some niccaz getting plastic wrapped. and it's a fact.. niccaz dying over battle raps. So I stay pushing, while these cops still looking. take him to the station, book him.. and then the judge cook him. He married twenty-five.. but he was only nineteen. you moving too fast, what mama his use to scream.. you gotta pay attention, to the players on your team. found out his girl was pregnant, should have seen his head lean.. I promise I aint lying.. but it shine so clean. a young man, with bad dreams.. tryna have nice things.

I've been waiting for the signs.. kept my complex patiently, thinking of you sexing me, laying next to me, getting the best of me. I'm one hundred percent not perfect, but still worth it. It's your feelings I care for, so I feel you deserve it. You can have it, if you want it.. Everything in due time. I just wanna spend some time, I just wanna get to know ya.. Read the thoughts in your mind. Let me know "what you feel," I ain't really asking much.. Made you blush, when we touched as our minds wrapped up. I can't describe feelings, the way I feel is so real.. Keep the mind over matter, so the glass stay filled. Bad days come and go, happy days follow rain.. Love is happiness, so it always maintains. I've been waiting for the signs, girl you never play games. say my name, say my name.. do you love me the same? Brand new brand names, just a bunch of different thangs. canary yellow chains, is the one you should blame. I can't help it.. I can't help myself, and if I had a down fall would you be there for help? Would you stay through the trouble, when champagne don't bubble? Stay down through the hard times, I'm giving you double. Twice as much money, twice as much time. I feel I need glasses.. I feel you love blind. Now I see the signs.. and they ain't hard to find. Girl you running through my head, like your a part of my mind. So your a part of my mind.. Or it's just these love signs.

I've never wanted nothing in life, like the way I want you. Got the ride outside, girl what you wanna do? Wanna be my one and only, and make things exclusive? Or run like a track star, and just be elusive?... I can't lie, see I try 2 walk a straight line. Keep trying to be perfect, and fail every time. Your man don't give a hundred, and you deserve more.. So I don't understand, what you fcuking with him 4!! You could use a good man, but you settle for less.. Plus that man is just a mess, I'm just saying... GOD BLESS. I'd like to do some things, but don't get it all twisted.. It's a private conversation, some things stay unlisted.--------------------- ----------

You remind me of a star, as I admire from afar.. I'm nervous to push up on you, I don't know who you are. Perfect strangers how it started, from me to you.. I can only take so much of resisting you. Pictures in my mind of me kissing you. But the reality is this, I'm just missing you. Couldn't imagine one man, having so many feelings. I should have learned from the past, cause I've had bad dealings. I've learned life experience, is better than game. Wouldn't feel like pleasure, if you never felt pain. I couldn't be proud, if I never felt shame. I either learn from mistakes, or I take the blame. Entertaining thoughts of just taking a chance.. Bad boys finish first, I just want the last dance. Am I qualified lady, is everything gravy? Would you like to chill, have you thought of me lately? ------------------------------ ---------Do you right.. Like the summer rain, it feels so good. Looking so sophisticated, upper class seem hood. Don't know if I should, be your man if I could.. Just a minute if you would, say "yes, it's all good." You looking sexy love, I'm thinking sex me love.. You got my head up in the clouds, like you blessed me love. I know about your preference, how you like nice things, and your marital status, cause I ain't seen no rings. In my arms where you should be, just make it your safe haven. So, when you need comfort, know it's in my arms waiting. There's a sparkle in your eye, and it tells me who you are. Says.. "If I need a good woman, wouldn't have to look far." Lady slide in the Escalade, take you on a escapade.. Lay you in the shade, and love what the lord made. I'm pinching myself, just to see if it's real.. You see this smile on my face, that's exactly how I feel. Yea.. You running through my head and my private thoughts.. You got me so wide open, with your schemes and plots. Couldn't take you for granted, like I said, "Got Damn it!" She got superstar status.. The baddest on blackplanet. ------------------------------ -- Can't hear what people telling me, they plotting it's jealousy.. Steady losing composure, and this ain't bringing us closer. Friends will stab you in the back, so I look over my shoulder. Taken for granted, this ain't the way that I planned it.. and it's rare when you care, I just put it in the air. When I need you by my side, I take a look your never there. When I'm up, your down.. When I smile, you frown. and there's no quality time, cause your never around. Late night walks on the beach, in my mind with you. I only see it in my dreams, could my dreams come true? Don't want to stress you with my problems, so I swallow my pain. It's like "I'm nothing, I lose!" Cause you still acting the same. Everything is everything, if that's how you feel. Now you all in my grill, tryna keep the boy chill.. But I'm pushing on still, for a love that's real. We can deal or not, we can love or let go.. You could either say Yes, or you could choose to say No. Maybe we should be friends, cause we can't be lovers.. we keep trying to work it out, but we keep fighting like brothers. You cast a big shadow, but don't share the light. I know I'm suppose to take off, I just missed that flight. I'm a man stand behind you, but not tonight. You either 10 percent wrong, or 10 percent right.--

 

 

I'm having trouble with pressure.. You gotta show me the the way. I don't know the decision.. Should I go, should I stay? I'm tryna make things better, and I'm young and black.. Ain't no drama in my business, I don't deal with that. I'm saying I been real, you can trust my word. You can fly like a bird.. I'm just tryna be heard. Just thinking bout your hips I'm in pressure world.. Lord god bless your son, and bless ya girl. Undress you girl, don't wanna stress you girl.. Hell nah, I ain't messy. You can test me girl. You can follow my lead, while I plead my case. I just wanna see you happy.. With a smile on your face. I'm all out my body, face to face with the facts.. That tomorrow ain't promised, and I live for that. I'm just tryna give back.. and remove the strain, and remove the pain until you breathe again. I know you think I'm talking out my %#&@$!, or maybe fast talking. Hope you'd pick my %#&@$! up, if you seen my %#&@$! walking. We could ride and tell jokes, with no where to go, let your mind run free, girl you'll always have hope. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------------ -------- You can touch the sky, just believe in yourself it's what you have on the inside not your looks or your wealth. Mental stimulation, is your man bringing that? If he can't put it on your mind, tell that ##$* fall back. Will he walk with you, talk with you, make you feel good. Cause if your man can't, then another man could. A smile that won't quit.. She read books and stay home. and I heard her heart broke, she's so sexy and grown. I'm saying.. I know her story, I hear it all the time just reach for the sky, everything will be fine. You can dine and sip wine, rewind and stop time. If your heart's not better, baby you can have mine. I believe what I'm saying, like you read what I'm saying.. I'ma make it real for you, while these #$&% keep playing. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------------ --- Sometimes you gotta roll with the punches, and take it in stride. Feelings be complex, you gotta keep 'em inside. Sometimes you share things that bring nothing but pain, and you feel like somethings missing, like a charm without a chain. Looking for a positive vibe, in a negative world. You can't find a good man, he can't find a good girl. Tryna hold on to something, cause it's hard to let go. A long term relationship with nothing to show.. You say, "How can I do this, when it kills me inside?" When you need to hold your head, you just swallow your pride. Let me talk for a minute, is this that real? Did you lose your damn mind?.. Tell me, how do you feel? I'm just a shoulder you can cry on, somebody to rely on, build you back up get your mind right and ride on. You don't think that you can do it, but I'm saying you can. I'm a humble MF, but I ain't your man.. He's a stupid MF, and I don't understand.. It's time to stand up, and make new plans... Sometimes you gotta believe that change makes sense. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------- You keep saying you'll change, so I don't hold my breathe. The only thing promised in this life is death.. You sorry, and didn't mean it.. Yea I already know. Our problems are problems are too big, they leave no room to grow. I rather see you happy, if ain't with me.. Us trying to be together is something that can't be. Love, I put my all in it. I had to fall in it.. Pretend that nothing happened and just talk for a minute? The same thing you saying, you been saying for years. Every word out your mouth, is falling on deaf ears. I was everything for you from a man to a friend, now my heart torn to pieces and it just won't mend. Good times, we had some. Bad times we had plenty, all the times we couldn't compromise was so many. I bend but don't break, I don't mean to be rude. "What's wrong?" Girl I'm saying it's your attitude. We like water and oil, and the two don't mix. Situations with me and you.. me and you can't fix. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------ Young gifted and black, I'm somewhat sophisticated. Hold my head, on my lonely.. Still you find a way to hate it. So many young blacks in prison, steady fighting a case. My own race can't stand to see me, face to face. I know knowledge is wisdom, and wisdom is the key. Why we living in the ghetto and we still ain't free? Close your eye's, use my words to paint this picture.. Remember they use to say it, now you calling me nigga? How you feel, being told how to live your life. Would you fold, if they rolled over fcuked your wife? Told your children they were nothing, is it all in your head? Controversy with the police, government, and the feds. You can fantasize, why I talk about some shyt like this.. Why I aim for the sky, knowing I might miss? Feel my anger when I say.. IT'S UP TO YOU AND ME, be a positive role model for the community. (Bless us) The women and men of today will influence the minds of the women and men of tomorrow. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------Is it hard to understand? Are you feeling the flow? You need a man in your life, tell you how things go? Maintain under pressure, grab my keys off the dresser. Kiss your head, Lord bless ya. Read this four page letter. You wanna get in my mind, you like a curious cat.. I call it a "done deal," cause you got it like that. When it comes to class, I'm all by myself.. A little hood, but it's good. I don't need no help. You keep me off balance, when you smile I'm weak.. and you shining so bright, you make it hard to speak. I'm trippin over words, and I'm nervous as hell. Compliment your perfume, it's such a beautiful smell. You such a beautiful woman, in a beautiful place. Everything seems so right, with your beautiful face. The finer things in life, always come with due time. First I let you get yours, and then I get mine. Amazing comes to mind, when I'm thinking of you. From the things that you say, to the things that you do. From the way that you act, to the way that you look. From your sexy %#&@$! hips, to the way that you cook. To the way you rub my back, when you holding me tight. To the way you kiss my lips, when I tell you goodnight... say love ------------------------------ ------------------------ I think of you.. I wouldn't say it, if this wasn't true. I'm not measured by my words, but the things that I do. Honest man, what you seek, you can find in me. I keep it 1, while the rest, just pretend to be. I'm not playing no games, and you ain't dealing with lames.. I ain't saying no names, all men ain't the same. What you wanna do with it, say you wanna, make a move with it? Make a change for the better, and do something new with it? Romance by the moonlight, and maybe candles? Rose pedals, by your bedside, if you can handle. Love you down, from your shoulders, all the way to your toes. Moving slow, I feel you tremble, taking off your clothes. I'm caught up in the moment, I can tell where it's going. I can feel your hesitation, cause you still ain't knowing. Things you've done in the past, how this is moving so fast.. But you ain't gotta rush, if you wanna make it last. You can touch and tease, make a ^!&&@ say please.. Got us burning like a fire, it's 200 degrees. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ---------- my cousin sent this to me, and I wanted to share it.>>>>>>> ;(Happy New Year! I wanted to take time out of my busy Mommie schedule and send a heartfelt message, or mantra if you will. The regular old forwards just will not do for 2008. This year take no more S-H-I-T! No more Sorry relationships! - If its not making you happy, get out! - If you're putting in more than 50%, get out! - If you lay awake at night asking yourself why, get out! - Intimate relationships are supposed to be intimate. If you have to share with anything or anyone, get out! - Re-Focus on your relationship with God. He'll never break your heart. No more Horrible jobs! - Its time for a career! Jobs are what you get during Summer vacation from school. - And if your career is not satisfying, try a new one. Its never to late to grow! No more Idolatry! - Stop worshipping money, cars, clothes, etc. All it does is put you in debt where you spend the whole year trying to climb out and find that's your "New Year's Resolution" in 2009. - Let's worship God. He will provide all your heart's desires. Peace, Love, Joy, and true Happiness. No more Talk! - Talk is cheap! The actions of man/woman provide the best indicators of what his/her intentions are. - Promises unfulfilled are just wind blowing in your ear! 2008 is our chance to do it right. Visualize your goals. Speak life into all your circumstances. Stop crying over spilled milk, most of us are lactose intolerant anyway!).... Made all the sense in the world to me. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ --------- Grown on your own, You a classy lady. All the questions that you have, you can ask me lady. Where you at? Where I'm going? Where you tryna be? Looking deep into your eye's, cause I'm tryna see! Basic instinct is telling me, you one of the best! Lord knows, that I need to get this off my chest. So, before you say "NO.". Take the time to listen.. I'm tryna cater to your needs, let me feed your ambition. If I was your man, would you want me to stay? when every word that I'm saying, seems to get in the way. Would you ask me to leave, so you could figure things out? These situations we encounter, is what life's about. It would make things better, if we work together. Be each other's sunshine in the stormy weather. BE EACH OTHER'S SUNSHINE IN THE STORMY WEATHER!! ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ---- So many ways for me say it.. I'm a young black man! I have goals, and a future, and a positive plan. To the children in the projects, keep your head above water.. Every day a new struggle, so you figure, "why bother?" Why did Martin Luther King, have a dream? And through his words, I realized, I was seeing the same thing. I pretend that the world is good to my people, just think, we had to stand and fight, so we could be equal. Sin and forgive, forgive and forget. Take away their education, and they can't say SHYT!! Murdered every man with the wisdom to speak, It should be "black history month," every day of the week! If you wanna be about it, come out and see about it! Will I take my freedom for granted, you can bet, I don't doubt it. Give my life, give my soul.. Just like MLK. From his dream in the past, to my dream today!! (reach one to teach one) ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------ Yesterday we was cool.. but today we don't talk. It's a dead conversation, outlined in chalk! You ain't trying to see, what I'm trying to see. Plus the places that I'm at, you usually don't be. We don't have a lot in common, and I'm keeping it real. If I was chillin with my ^!&&@$.. Tell me, "How would you feel?" I don't move with the crowd, I don't follow, I lead! Let me get a chance to show you, I'll be all that you need. But you furious now, and bi-curious now.. To the point, where it's hard to take you serious now. Good girl gone bad, now it ain't all good.. I can't seem to move your project mind, up out of the hood. So you trick for drinks, when he smile, you wink.. He just want to get up in you, Would Your @$$ Just Think!?!. He three drinks in you.. now knee deep in you. He was served everything, that you had on the menu.... That was it, Now it's over.. 15 minutes of fame!! Now you 6 weeks pregnant, and forgot his last name. Bad news and bubble gum, you act so dumb. Now your @$$ got a baby.. YOU DON'T KNOW WHO IT'S FROM!! A single mom with issues, didn't use protection.. You got a new born baby, and some sort of infection. Your baby showing signs of HIV.. You was moving so fast, You thinking, this can't be! The baby didn't make it, mama's dying from stress.. and she got 6 months left, cause she failed her test. _______________________ sit down.. let me tell you about the other side.---- I wish I had my ^!&&@, time passes and I miss you. The things we use to do, I remember when we was kids too. I was all stressed out, everything was bout money.. I didn't need a damn thang, then the lord took you from me. All the blessings in my life, it was all took for granted. It's getting hard to manage, and I still can't understand it. I tried to use church to relieve my pain, but you stained to my brain.. I got your blood in my veins. Shedding tears, all the years, man I can't hold back. When they told me you was gone, I tried to find where you was at. Eye's closed, head down, tryna picture your face. It's just hard to accept, your in a better place. Part of being a friend, means you'll always be there. The good die young, I don't think the Shyt's fair. Fake friends cross the line, Real ^!&&@Z stay REAL! Keep shyt on the 1, like we made a damn deal. Can't tell your momma, that it's okay.. I won't lie to her face. Plus these feelings that I'm catching, say I just need space. Your in a better place, I'm trying to keep the faith. Destiny knocked at the door, Fate answered.. I miss you!--------- You can't hurt me with words, I see you easily confused. Bubble gum, and bad news.. Until you haters pay dues. You can talk a good game, I seen others do the same. That's just the way it is, I guess some things'll never change. Feel the pain in my chest.. against the grain, in the 3rd lane. You don't understand me, because you a bird brain. See where you got me? That's exactly were I'm at.. Now you looking stupid, like "huh.. what's all that?" Do it moving, who you fooling with those selfish %#&@$! games? The way you move STRANGE, so my attitude change. I'm not just talking %#&@$!, I don't write you, to spite you.. and if I had the chance, I wouldn't even 1 night you. No love, you don't know me.. and you ain't the wife type. Stay Real keep it hundred, cause that's what my life like .----------------------------- --------------- So got damn lonely.. You should chill with me!! you can have what you want, leave the bill with me!! anybody gotta problem.. They can deal with me. beat your eyes down, till your %#&@$! can't see.. when you hit me, just right.. wanna stay all night, and won't get outta bed, about to miss my flight. 7 days in a week, you got my heart on lock.. you say it, your own way.. is this a secret, or not? You be the 1st person, jump to have my back. I'd be a damn fool, turn my back on that. on the low, in your shades, with your gangsta hat. it's just me and you, I don't need the strap. Ain't no salary cap, so you can ball with that. I'll be up the block ma, you know, my car in the trap. gotta whisper when I talk, these haters busy at work. around the corner from the church, about to get they %#&@$! hurt. You sweet like sugar, I gotta sweet tooth. long distance phone call. liquor store phone booth. AT&T.. cause I never use sprint! Your more than a DIME, I call you money well spent. ------------------------------ ---------------------- You won't tell me what your thinking, I can't read your mind. I get lost in your eye's, then I fall behind. I can't get you out my head, you got a place in my heart... and I don't know where to start, it's like I'm falling apart. I can't concentrate on business, when I'm thinking of you. Candy lips, caramel hips.. Girl you know what it do. Your thighs need caressing, can we start to undressing? crush your mind with a line, girl I'm all about affection. Wanna crush you in the rain, wanna hear you say my name.. Is it pleasure, is it pain? Speak your mind, with no shame. I listen while you converse, and you always come first. Wearing nothing but a T-shirt, it's bout to get worse. Blown away, by the moments that I spend with you.. I'm mentally caught up, and physically too. ------------------------------ ----------- First off, I'm not a gangsta.. I still be G! I'm use to doing thangs, that your eye's can't see. 180 on the dash, cause I'm tryna move fast, man you gotta get the cash, cause this life won't last. Two tears inna bucket, I just say F it. My lord and my mama come first, cause she's worth it. Just a piece of my life, that I put on a page.. I'm in the REAL WORLD homie, I don't play on a stage. You can see it in my eye, all my pain bleed through.. Got scars on my body, show what been through. Sometimes I feel.. like things never change. Looking for some comfort in life, I feel strange. The devil's on my heels, the lord got my back.. Tryna raise my two boys, having problems with that. Is there a heaven for a ^!&&@, cause I'm living in hell.. You on the outside looking in, it's like.. this world is my cell!! I can't hide in plain view, for your eye's to see. I know you tryna do you, and I'm tryna do me. ------------------------------ -- I think my mind's playing tricks, turned my back on the world. I could have sworn, by the sword, that you had my back girl. In the cold how you left me.. Maybe it was for the better. Maybe it was bout the cheddar, but I tried to be together. The man in the mirror, wears a frown, cause he's down.. and when you come around, I feel the tears of a clown. I can't blame you, when I had my own issue. Wear my feelings on my sleeve, I think it's better I miss you. Let you go out in the world, so you can see for yourself. But when you leave, it's the last time.. you can ask me for help. Gave you love, the only way that I knew how to give it.. I can't react, and re-live it, you don't want me to visit. I'm torn by your decision, so you up and go. Where you went, I don't know.. I just miss my son though. Incomplete as man, here I stand and wonder..? Was it a woman, or a man, or the hood took me under? You can never make a person, who you want them to be.. You either love me for me, or you just set your love free. ----------------------------- I need a woman by my side.. will you ride with me? starship and rocket through the sky with me? If the truth hurts, would you lie to me? If my feelings got twisted, would you cry with me? Grow old in my arms, and then die with me? If you feeling, how I'm feeling.. Then you high with me. Cause I'm the only person, that I'm trying to be. I can't see me unhappy, If I see me with you. GOAPELE.. I'm higher and higher, it's all true. Hold your hand, as we stand.. We got places to go. Some we already been, and places we don't know. I'm just a good ^!&&@, tyna make it worldwide. and I know that you're a diamond, I can see it in your eye. I'm tryna make you mine, hoping we don't break up. don't wanna see your face in tears, messing up your make up. I rather be ya ^!&&@, so we have that understanding.. when the minds come together, then we have a chance for planning. Baby put your goals first, and rehearse success.. If you fail to succeed, you didn't try your best. ------------------------------ ------------ Believe half of what you see, and none of what you hear.. I'm not promised tomorrow, but today I'm still here. My vision is still clear, tryna see a new year. Move ahead of my peers, face my troubles with no fears. No tears, I understand.. Situations are complex.. Keep my focus under pressure, knowing I could go next.. Take advantage of my chances, if I'm given a choice. I never take my life for granted, I was given a voice. You can listen if you wanna, gotta make your own decisions. If you ain't gotta purpose in life, you ain't living. Gotta mash for your dreams.. Just give 'em the red beam.. Haters doing new things, they got plots and schemes. I'm just living my life, some day.. Things will get better, but if they don't, that's just the price I gotta pay... I gotta pray, I don't lose it. My kindness you abuse it, Try not to confuse it.. thinking it's just music. A chip on my shoulder, but I'm humble as hell. You need to watch your girl.. I'm thinking, you can't tell. she can see through your lies, cuz that shyt won't sell.. You gotta plan for success. or you plan to fail.. Bout to get your azz popped, behind enemy lines. When all you had to do, was just use your mind. Eye's blind, wide open.. oh well nevermind. I can't teach somebody, cause I preach to somebody.. Just hope I reach somebody, atleast somebody. ----------- Same thing make you laugh, can make you cry.. It's all so confusing, I don't even care why. New friends come and go, and some pretend. And some are only there, when you have money to spend. Friends before lovers, in relationships.. Take your time and pay attention, and watch for fake shyt. People be two face, smile and screw face. Intentions are unknown, I don't know your true face. I was one step away, from having a downfall.. Don't put the 2 on the 10, is what I'm tryna tell ya'll.... ------------------------- You making me feel something, never felt before.. I thought I had it all, then you showed me more. I wake up in the morning, just so I can see you.. Tryna get a sneak peek, wearing clothes I see through. Your company's a blessing, this game got me stressing.. but you don't keep me guessing, girl, I gave my confession. Imagine us in a world, where problems don't exist. Jewelry in your box.. Then I light up your wrist. Hold you by your hand, locking Shh down. I won't front on you shorty, when my N's come around. What I need in a woman, I found in you.. a playful personality and grounded too. ------------------- He played games with your heart.. and you hate him for that. Thought you would fall in love, but you fell in a trap.. you can't set yourself free, your blind you can't see. and just to complicate the matter.. Blame his problems on me. I tried to motivate your mind, to make wise decisions. You was always hard headed, and you never did listen. So, what's my position in your world of stress? Would I help you make it better, or just make it a mess? I can tell by your expression, and the way you respond.. That weak ^!&&@ made you strong, and your ready to move on. But your left with a feeling, all men the same. Yea.. we got a few out there, but some men change. Some try to re-arrange, and get away from the game. Some don't know they kids name, and they drowning in shame. You gotta see a man, from the outside in.. He can't be a good man, if he's not a good friend. You wanna have relations, now you know where to start.. You got the mindset, and you got a good heart. If you know how to listen, I'll tell you how I feel.. But you have to pay attention, you know the damn deal. If your down, I'll pick you up.. That's what I'm here for!! Plus, I always got some extra.. Incase you need more. Five days, plus two.. I wanna spend with you. Tomorrow's not promised, so what you wanna do? Just some feedback, I need that.. I wanna squeeze that! In my arms, where you should be.. Babygirl believe that. -------- Ain't no way for me to say it, cause it's complicated.. and when you been, what I been through, you contemplate it. I made mistakes in the past, and I've been misunderstood. I've been in bad situations, that I had to make good. You wanna find a perfect man, in a perfect world.. Well take a look in the mirror, cause you ain't perfect girl. You tryna add up my flaws, when you got problems yourself. And what you call a good man, is all mearsured by wealth. Guess the chrome turned ya head, or something that he said.. Cause how this the first night, and you all in his bed? What happen to the first part, Of "You a good lady." Cause how you lose the daddy, and proceed to have babies? Maybe I'm just crazy.. and I shouldn't blame you? Maybe it's just something, that your man was going through. I can't call it, cause I never walked a day in your shoes. Could there be a hidden message?.. All I hear, is bad news. Gold Diggin in your blood.. Turn everything to mud.. They can find you in the club, cause you quite the social bug.. Left your kids, home alone.. and you know they need they mama. I should call the CPA, but I won't put 'em through the trama. You need to wake your game up.. I'm about to flame up. So, if you love your kids.. Then you need to make a change up.--------------------------- ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------- we all know the game.. What you want from me? I'm serious B.. They got me furious G.. I curiously seek, the answers to all my questions. Accept the lords blessing, but you know I'm still stressing. On the inside my pride, it's all that I got. You got to look into my eye's, whether you like or not. I have to hold my head high, even on a bad day. Plus the words, " I Love You." Ain't no easy shiit to say. If you keep playing games, then you bound to get caught... but it's too late to reflect, don't know the way, you got lost. The price was heavy, bury your head in your hands. Cause now you understand, how he changed your plans. Now you lose focus, and you don't have faith. Face to face you out of place, in a confused mind state. I just call it how I see it.. Your friend, I couldn't be it. The pain was too much, Your Love.. had to free it. All the things that I've seen, I could keep writing books. But you'll never find a good man, you searching for good looks.. So, I have to ask.. what you want from me? My days be so cloudy sometimes I can't see. You already know, Evil that men do. Even your family members, that includes your friends too. Didn't listen to intuition, your trying to find help.. and I can't imagine, how you feel to yourself... what you want from me? ______________________________ __ Emotional ties bind me to these descriptions of realism, It's only inside what I'm feeling, and I'm feeling like a million, and I'm about to touch the ceiling. Raise the roof, I'm in the booth.. and I came in the coupe. I rehearse it, like it's perfect.. Reverse then swoop. Can I buy you a drink.. what you drinking grey goose? Watch you smile for a while, girl we need to break loose. We could talk about some things, and when the bell rings, we could wake up in the morning.. Looking good.. while you yawning. Girl my heart keeps yearning.. 32 I'm still learning, experiencing life. I figued you conceited, and I figured you right. I accept you with your flaws, and I have flaws too. Don't make me handcuff you girl, cause love has laws too. Give you room to spread your wings, cause you need to breathe.. baby. Love don't forget about your man.. Have you thought of me.. lately?_______________________ __________ A creative mind frame.. keep my distance, from the game. Yea, I'm walking in the rain, just to hide my pain. I'm not ashamed of my emotions, but they stay low.. Does that mean I'm showing feelings?.. Well, I say no! Take my kindness for a weakness.. Girl, you know you wrong. One day you here for me, the next day you gone. Don't know what I mean to you.. So, what's the damn deal? I can't get an honest answer, cause your %#&@$! ain't real!.. I can't take you serious, your actions say, "FAKER." We don't share a common bond, and that's the deal breaker. I can't ignore the issues, that won't relieve stress.. But I got it on my chest, I'm talking under my breath. Can you feel me, the real me? Accept me for me.. I don't care who she be, God my eye's want to see. Your spirit is heavenly, before I say grace.. I know you sacrifice, to keep me in a safe space. I know you know me better, than I know myself. It seems I only turn to you, when I need your help. Forgive me ------------------------------ -------------- So many things need addressing. It's kinda my confession, I'm in my early 30's.. and I'm still learning lessons. I connect with the South West.. and even in the hood. I don't be-friend Haters, they'd kill me if they could. I can smell the jealousy, and a plot in the air.. I give them the middle finger, like.. You think I care? All I have, is all I need.. I'm just stating the facts. If it's Mind over matter, all dummies fall back. Now how you love that, and how it make you feel? You gotta get in, to fit in.. And you a 3rd wheel. Takes more energy to hate, than to be my friend.. and if you still don't like me, then F you again. You can miss me with the quickness.. I don't need you in my bizness, and I don't owe you shiit!! so I don't need your forgive-ness. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ----------------------- You can't make your mind up.. and I've been patient with time. Reserved myself exclusively, with thoughts of making you mine. You've got your doubts about my past, and I've changed all that.. but your emotionally attached, fearing I might relapse.. I can't promise you the world, or diamonds and pearls. But when I look into your eye's, I see a beautiful girl.. Everything is everything, and nothing comes free.. I'm just trying to be your man, and not your PLAN B. I got sincere intentions, my desire to learn.. Good guys finish last, so I'll wait my turn. ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------------ ------------------------- You can hate me, embrace me.. but it's your call. I got my balls and my word.. And if tears should fall. You know some thugs gone cry, and when the dove's fly.. If I'm the one to die, I'll make my home in the sky. The game don't stop.. You know life goes on. Time to be strong, You gotta move on. You can't call me on the phone.. but you still not alone. Use to hit me on the hip, with them 1..4..3's You use to hide my keys, and say, "Please don't leave." Babygirl hold ya head, and know I wasn't scared.. I was ready and prepared.. The game ain't fair. But I left you standing there, all on your own. I couldn't find the light.. Now, I can't come home. I know it's hard to replace me, but you can't face me.. and sometimes, that's just what the case be.. Holding back tears, reminisce those years.. But you can't think right, if your mind ain't clear. You can't plan for the future, if you stuck in the past.. Can't be with you in the present, with my dumb black %#&@$!. Forever my lucky charm, it could never be over.. Remember when you cry, I'm looking over your shoulder.

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