Puff_Puff_Pass_1 Chicago Police arrested my childs murderer then released him due to lack of evidence, his blood was found 10ft away - July 08, 2010 add/view comments (2)

I used to be afraid of death,
Until I lost my first born child.
Nothing in life could ever prepare you
For murder that's heinous and vile.
I cringe and shutter even now,
As these thoughts are flooding my head.
I think it's natural for me wanting
The responsible party to be dead.
Most days I wear a mask,
And people don't know how I feel.
The smile that's plastered on my face,
Hides pain and grief that's real.
I now sometimes picture my... (continue reading)

Mmm....See, I love to smell his skin,
I can feel him deep within...
I didn't mean that sexually,
I meant that quite literally.
He brings me peace within.
I love his eyes and to see him grin.
NO other has touched my soul,
He makes me feel complete and whole.
I had given up on the idea of love,
Til God sent his angel from above.
To think that all of this time,
God had created him with me in mind.

LITA
12*04*2009

It was a year ago today
That I last saw your face
Last heard your voice
Last heard your laughter.....

We were making plans
For Christmas already
It was the baby's first
We were so excited....

You had just got your first apartment
We made plans for the family
To come over and see your place
It was the last time I saw your face...

I can see you with your Roca wear jacket on
Your back sack swung over your shoulder,
Your hat on... (continue reading)

You're trippin
Sex drippin
Ooozing out your every pore

You've got....
My body hot
About to get hard core

Don't need no love makin'
I want ground shakin'
Make me scream out your name

If you've got to
Ask me Boo
Ask me if I even came?

You've wasted my time
And your lines
'Bout to take care of this

Don't need NO BOYS,
Got MY toys
Cumm!n with a lil twist (*wink*)

Long as I got batteries
Yo... (continue reading)

I laid in bed
And cried all night.
Try not to be bitter,
With all my might.
But no matter
How much I try
I lie in bed and
All night I cry.
Aliyah's song of
I miss you...
Resignates in my head
For I TRULY do!!
Not an hour passes
Without a thought of my son.
Grief stricken and almost paralyzed
Since this shyt begun.
This saga or nightmare
Whichever you prefer
Has destroyed me inside
My life deterred.

R.I.P.... (continue reading)

No more tomorrows
And bright future.
Heart cut so deeply,
Needs to be sutured.
The lack of concern
By the police...
Would it be different
If it were a kid off their street?
My baby was bright
And headed for great things.
His life cut short,
Felt like a sting.
From a scorpion,
Cobra or something venomous.
The crime doesn't made sense,
Just simply heinous.
I call the detectives
And check every week,
Today they can't... (continue reading)