Look at my belly, I'm expecting
My 1st ultrasound of the baby....he/she is so small!
Its Mommy and Daddy!!!
July 12th, 2007 ---- Whew, so much has happened since the last time i blessed you guys with an update...as you can see, Im pregnant now and Ive graduated from High School. Things have gotten so much harder and so much more complicated in such little time. As the summer is finally coming to an end, i am still going through alot of things in my life. Im learning how to live on my own, provide for myself, be a true friend, while also figuring out who my true friends are, and experiencing how hard maintaining a relationship is (which is one of my hardest challenges right now). Even though i am learning all these things slowly but quickly at the same time, i still have got a long way to go. Sometimes i get to the point that i feel as if i am all alone and doing everything without the assistance of anyone...... and feeling like that makes my situation even harder. Im trying to learn to let go of things, stop holding grudges, and convince myself that i should not stress of things i can do nothing about. All f this is hard for me....but im staying persistant and im doing the very best that i can do.
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HeyYOU!!! (If this is to you, you will know it) I know that you are trying your hardest to be right by my side through this all, and i know that i am not making it any easier by naggin' at you and constantly putting up a fight, but you gotta come to understand how i feel and whats going on with me. Instead of always assuming stuff, just sit me down and talk to me. Ask me what you wanna know, tell me whats in your heart and how you feel. I wanna know these things...and i should not have to beg to be included in them either. You should know that you can come to me anytime..... And even though life is taking me through eveyrthing possible right now, i still have the strength to be strong for you too. It might get hard, but i think i can manage sitting aside my problems for a couple of minutes and be there for you. We gotta be strong for each other, not tear each other down constantly.....cause if we continue doing that, then we will never make it. NEVER!!!! You know darn well that i want you apart of my life and i know that you want me apart of yours, but we gotta start letting each other see that. It takes effort.... So lets start over and try this again....meaning everything on the table, nothing is to be held back. No secrets or anything!!!! (<----thats the way it shold have been from the start anyway!!) Maybe that will make us stronger....can you commit to atleast trying?
**Older updates are at the bottom**
Heeeeyyyy. What`s really good? This is ya girl RedboneBu-t(Redbone Beauty) comin` to tell yall a little about me.
Before i get started, let me make it known....IM TAKEN!
Oh, and before i forget...
guys, if you are going to send me a note or whatever, please come at me in a respectful manner. I hate when guys give me the "wussup baby, "hey sexy," and other stupid things like that. Im a young lady and I deserve to be treated like one...ya know? Can a sistah get a "how you doing" or something of that nature? If you follow that rule, you will get a response from me....K? K!
Lets See...
Im a recent highschool graduate (<<<< c/o 07 big ups to yall) whos very fun and outgoing. Im a person who loves people and making others smile. Im very loud, playful, and goofy. I HAVE PERSONALITY FOR DAYS!! But i do know that there is a time to play and a time to be serious. When the time comes to be serious...im all about what needs to be done.
Even though i love to have fun, i have morals and goals that i stay focused on constantly. Like i said, i love people. I guess you could say that i am a person who "never meets strangers" cause unless you piss me off, i will talk to you. I hate seeing people sad or "down in the dumps," so i always do my best to cheer them up. So that means, if im down or sad, but i see someone else the same way, i will put my feelings behind me and do my best to put a smile on their face. Honestly, i believe one of Gods purposes for placing me in this world is so that i can keep others smiling and happy. Its a passion of mine, and i take pride in it.
What else?
In my opinion, im not one who would catagorize myself as a pety female or whatnot, cause thats just not me (even though i do have my moments...)! All that is pointless and wastes time that could be spent doing other things. Females fight and argue over stupid, childish things and I refrain from doing that now(i used to be one of those females). But i do have a slight attitude. Lets not get on my bad side...k?
I dont smoke or drink...to me, all that is uncalled for (but i cant say that i have never done either one though). I know how to have fun without taking part in activities like that.
Im a very emotional person who finds diff.ways to express myself. Writing poetry, singing, and dancing, are all ativities that i engage in constantly. They are "vents"for me and gives others the opportunity to see that there is more to me than a pretty face and an exceptional body. Alot of people anger me...i use my talents to relieve the frustration that i feel.
KIDS!!! <<<< I love them with a passion. A child is one of Gods many gifts to man. They are so sweet....and precious. Thats all i have to say about that
This is my precious little sister. Im closer to her than i am to anybody else.....shes my baby!!!! Shes only 8 but i swear that little girl is so mature for her age.....and shes done alot for me too. I LOVE YOU EBONI!!!
There she is again....yeah, shes a mess!
Now...one of my favorite subjects ~~~~~~ BoYs!
Ive been in many relationships and also in what i thought was love. Throughtout these things, ive learned alot. I used to take part in relationships based on looks....HA! Not anymore. Nothing should be based on someones looks. Niggas who look good, can be shallow and evil as heck. Thats why now, i could care less if you look good when im considering starting a relationship with you. Its all aboutwhats inside <<<<(i know this sounds like it should be in a book or something,but thats really how i feel). And just F.Y.I, I am not a materialistic person. Yes, something new from the mall is always nice and apprecciated, but if you really want to melt my heart: something that is handmade or requires alot of thought will be cherished more by m
ME ME ME
I love this subject toO (yeah, i know this whole page is about me...i just wanted to dedicate a whole nother section to myself!). Let me make this short and sweet: Im not self-centered, stuck up, or anything like that...but i do love myself. Im very happy with the way God made me. I wouldnt change anything physically...
I love the camera and being seen cause in my opinion, im a very beautiful young lady.
Understand?
Other random things about me include: Im very "experimental" and open-minded. I dont like quiet people...they irritate me considering that i am completely opposite of that. I have really big feet for a female (atleast i think they are big...i wear a 10 1/2). I have a very queezy stomach when it comes to blood or open wounds...it all looks nasty to me. Imma a very smart girl! Ambitious and goal-oriented too.
Im tired of typing, so if you want to know something more, just ask.
Dont be scared, i dont bite...i
occasionally nibbles though.
Dang...i almost forgot!!! I gotta leave a little somthing on here about my Mommy!
She and i have been through so much. But through it all, shes always been there. Even though sometimes we "fall out," she will always be someone that i hold very dear to my heart. But not for the normal reasons like beause she is my mother, or because im supposed to love her, or anything like that....but for the IMPORTANT and meaningful reasons. For a 8 years, it was just me and my momma. No man, no family, nobody. Just she and i......
My momma was my mother, father, aunt, uncle, cousin, granny, pa pa, neice, and nephew....but most of all, she was my best friend. When i did wrong, heck yeah she disciplined me, and sometime i hated her for it....even though im afraid to admit it to her and i prolly never will, i understand why she did what she did now and i thank her and appreciate it. Our relationship has grown and is still growing....i ant wait to see what the future hold for us...
I love you mommy! ::Kisses::
Keep checking back, cause im sure i will add something to this "profile" or whatever you want to call it.
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Hey you I just wanted to let you know that I loved your page. It is beautiful only beause it has you in it. You are growing up so fast. I remember when we were SO LITTLE. Man time flies and now you are a beautiful butterfly. I love you so much Kresia!!
Tootie
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UPDATE: April 21st, 2007
I went to prom last night.....DATELESS! Remember how i was telling yall about my date (in the last update), well....he didnt get to escort me due to some unfortunate events. So basically, the whole night was a disaster. It was definately nowhere near what i had planned on it being! But its ok though ause the people i went with kept a smile on my face constantly! Thanks Gabby, B, and Josh! I really appreciate yall! It will still be a night to remember.....Plus, my baby did come see me afterwards cause we all went to IHOP to eat and we were able to spend the rest of the night together. So in the end, it wasnt that bad.....
But now onto a serious note....
I really got some stuff that i need to get off my chest, so i figured i could get on here and vent a little bit....
Temptation is so very hard to resist!!! Especially when its right there in front of you 24/7...constantly.
But when youre with someone that you really and truely love and care about....even though it may be hard to say no, its worth it in the end.
Ive been with a very special person for a while now.....of course, just like any other relationship, weve had out good days and our bad ones too, but thats my heart and i really love him. He means the world to me forreal and i wouldnt even dream of doing anything to hurt him on pupose and hopefully, that feeling is mutual.
But see, heres where the problem is:
I have to admit, i have been a cheater in the past when it came to some of my other relationships. But theres something so diff. about Justin that just stops thoughts of being with another person in any type of way....
I tell him day in and day out that he is the only one for me right now. I dont wanna be with anyone else in any type of way whatsoever! We have a very open relationship.....its to the point that we come to eah other with the smallest things just cause it doesnt feel right keeping things from each other....even stuff that the other probably wont care about. I guess its just the princple of it all. Tonight, after being with him for a couple of hours, he reveals to me that something has been on his chest for awhile. He thinks i cheated on him!! I mean i guess i cant blame him for wondering if i have or not since he does know about all the things i have done in my past.....but still! Not on Justin....i wouldnt! I just couldnt! How am i supposed to react to something like that...what am i supposed to say???? I just dont know what to do....and the sad thing is, regardless of if he trusts me or not.......he flat out said that he does believe what someone told him about me %#&@$!ing another nigga while i was with him! It wasnt no "baby, i need to hear an answer from you or i will take your word for it," or anything like that. I mean, he asked me about it, but obviously what i said didnt have any impact on him whatsoever cause regardless of what he says, i know that in his heart he believes that i %#&@$!ed somebody else....oh wait, not only that i did something with him, but also that we were in a relationship! Get real!!!!!
Im crying now, but that aint helping. I guess it hurts so much cause i know that i didnt do it. I mean, he has everything i need..........i have 0 complaints. Yeah we went through our little problem stage, but doesnt that happen with most relationships?
PROM PICTURES!!!!
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UPDATE : April 17th, 2007
I graduate in 1 month exactly!!! I cant believe it is finally here! So many things are taking place right now that it aint even funny. Its so overwhelming. Everthing from my mother saying she hates me to me preparing to move into my own apartment in the 22nd of May is happeneing to me. It is way too much to deal with right now....but i am getting through it slowly but surely.
Prom is Friday!! Im definately excited about that.....I will be wearing a lavender dress and escorted by accompanied by a sexy %#&@$! nigga in a white tux accented with a lavender tie and vest by the name of J. Wade!! <----is you a mac J. Wade? LOL. Friday night will hopefully be perfect and turn out just the way i planned it....PERFECT. Guess we will see though. I will definaely post pictures so that yall can see how things turned out too.
Before i go....for those of you out there that have my number and have been tryin to contact me, i want you to know that my phone hot broken but will be replaced soon (hopfully today). I will definaely give all of you a call and let you know whats going on. Love you guys!
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UPDATE : Feb. 17th, 2007
Things in my life are kinda complicated right now, but i am slowly overoming the obstacles that are thrown my way. Im somewhat on an emotional rollercoaster right now...1 minute im stressed, then happy, then depressed. This is just a stage though. Things will fix themselves evenutally. All these random emotions have caused me to start writing again....ive always loved writing poetry, but i kinda felll off for awhile. Ive been writing alot lately. Writing acts as a "release" for me...i can express myself alot better through poetry rather than words.
Can You Restore
I'm a seed of a good relationship gone bad,
cheated and robbed of all that i once had,
stripped of the happiness that once filled my soul,
leaving me stranded and out in the cold.
Can You Restore this broken mold?
Treated as if I'm nothing special,
thrown around and pushed to the side as if I'm some raggedy doll,
and convined to believe that i deserve nothing,
not even a simple call.
Lost and confused on which way to go,
Too scared of being hurt again and put through so much pain,
never once being relieved of this tremendous strain.
Accustomed to this powerful shove.
Can You Restore my ability to love?
Now attempting to be open-minded.
hoping that the "blindfold" will now be removed and i shall no longer be blinded.
Only time will tell,
if i was right for coming out of my shell.
I hope and pray that i will not fail in this attepmt to rekindle a fire.
Can You Restore and lift me higher?
I am happy to say that i do have a boyfriend now. Hes been a great great help by constantly keeping a smile on my face day in and day out...even though he is the cause of my sadness sometimes. LOL. Thats still my baby though. He knows who he is...naming him is uncalled for. Thank you baby.
"seniorITIS" has finnaly hit me....i find myself skipping class alot lately. But isnt that normal for a senior? I mean, i gradute in May!!! (May 17th to be exact)....I am looking forward to so many things right now. Senior week...prom...GRADUATION...spr ing break....senior skip day....senior trip....
Plus ive been extra busy lately involving myself with numerous school activities. The most recent ones include a prom fashion show, Ms. RHS Beauty Pagent, and preparing to compete for BPA (Business Professionals of America). My job takes upo alot of time too....Im constantly working! It seems as if i barely have time for myself, my family, or friends. The little time i do have is usually spent with my man or my 2 best friends...
But its ok though. Im guess you ould say i am content with things for the time being. I can handle it....
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It's time for an update------December 16th, 2007
Hey everybody. I just wanted to give you guys a little recent information about me.
I just turned 18 in November....IM FINALLY LEGAL! So far, things are going pretty good with me. My graduation is right around the corner, so i am still in the process of preparing for college trying to get in essays for scholarships, grants, etc. I am no longer single, so guys please dont ask. Im still a very busy and ambitious female trying to get where i want to go in life. Just taking things one day at a time though. Im starting to see and experience the better things in life....and no, im not talking about materialistic things either....
I guess thats all for now.
If there is anything else that anyone wants to know, just send me a note and ask.
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