RellyRel05 I'z married now...:) - Sep 20 add/view comments (1)

The way I see it the situation we're facing is complex

On May 10^th, 2008 I made the biggest decision of my life so far. I became engaged to the most beautiful woman I have ever known, I call her Y'lonna. For three years we went through on again off again turmoil. Long distance relationship purgatory and probably the most hurtful feeling I've ever known. Spending time together, only to have to tell each other bye and go back to spending time apart.

I love you because you know me in ways that I don't want to admit. You are everything that I am not, patient, compromising, composed at all times. Except for in those rare moments when you choose to expose yourself to me, because you believe that I care. And to be honest, I've always wondered why. I haven't always been the best man, definitely not the ideal partner but you care for me without any hesitation or reservation.

You are so different from what I have experienced in my past, you know all about it so there's no need to go into great detail. I do want to stand on top of the highest mountain and scream to the world how much I love you but that's just never really been my style. I have always been a private person, letting people know how I really feel has never come easy. However, if I have to change to put a smile on the face of the woman who virtually lives to keep a smile on mine, I will and proudly.

You are talented, intelligent and beautiful. I love when you wear that green dress with the light blue eye shadow and those cute sandals your style is amazing to me. I Love playing Phase 10 with you at three o'clock in the morning because we just made love and don't want to go to sleep. Sometimes you just want to enjoy the company of the one you love for a little while longer. I love the way you force us to eat dinner together at the table like a family, even though it's just us, because like you said it's a good habit. You're the reason I pray more often. I'm thankful for what I have these days instead of constantly wishing for more because every morning I wake up next to the most beautiful woman I know.

This process, planning a wedding, has been stressful. I don't exactly know what you want me to do. Sometimes I feel like I am just in the way, or not supporting you the way you need me to. For that I'm sorry. I'm just nervous. But I just wanted you to know that I have never for a second doubted what we have or where we're going. I'm proud to call you my fiance and I'll be more proud to call you Mrs. Lawrence. September 5^th, 2009