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Diz Ya Boi Smooth
I`m a real man with real feelings and about real biz ya digg so if u about it then get at ya boi.....(Only Females create your own visited states map or check out these Google Hacks. A Thug Speakin... Current mood: calm Life its is wut make it~thats wut some say~around my way~things are real~come to earth with me enjoy the fact that u can feel~you can run or you can deal~i choose to deal ~most choose to run~no time for fun in fla sun~i choose not to be dumb~even though my heart feels numb~i think to much sometimes i wanna drink a fifth of rum~life is within my reach but i cant grasp it yet~ im human so I fall~break the law~do all i can do to keep from breakin someones jaw~release release that pressure dont let build~go run into an open field~speak to the man~who will give that feeling that u need to feel in order to heel~fall to ur knees ask him but thank him~dont be modest~open ur heart feel free~dont hold back~ cry cry cry~each tear signifies each lie so u no longer have to hide the feelings that you hold inside~some will understand some will not~read what i have writtin~i know you will feel but this is not the end so its up to you to if you gonna keep it real~so are u gonna deal or ...............to be continued part 2 comming next every week there will be a time where i update and write something new ..... A thuggs speakin entry two...... Current mood:thoughtful You can lie to yourself over and over whether drunk or sober~be truthful~be real~not with the next~but with yourself~you will learn the correct way to deal~expect the worse pray for the better~moments or prayer will bring you back to sanity~loosing control~is momentarily insanity~"remember"~momentairl y its just a sec~but you could loose your life in that second~this is true~I know this~dont be fearful of this just understand this~hold your~last breath~hold that last thought~let it be your hope~never let go~now you realized that you just savored your own life~some claim they wanna die~the plea to God with is i tell you~you scream let me die~let me die lord~crying to the man~sniffle sniffle~please take me~but how can u wanna die~if crying is a feeling~and dying is meaning~ lifeless with no feeling~aparently you wanna live your~feeling like crying~should not be~you wouldn`t cry~you wouldn`t care~crying is caring about how your feeling~if life was meaningless~you would be thuggin it or poppin crisp~hell i don`t care if u give a shyt about this~im just another man, with a mind, a quote, and a pen in his hand~whats life worth is what IM tryin to understand? a thuggs speakin....entry 3....... Current mood: content "this is"~a new begining~im not in search for the ending~my passion~for the signifficant other of mine~we are one at mind~a race in different times~we look foward to each others touch~we miss when we are gone away for minutes~its a kinda craze that`ll have you in a daze~im so amazed im the one she craves~the lust which we urn to turn to love~we build trust becuz we must~while we live here on earths crust~this will not turn to rust cuz i will do what i must~to keep her trust~in my heart is where~she will stay~while im in search of a new man within myself~theres plenty to learn~i am indepthoneswitonesself~looking ito a window that im looking foward to opening~theres alot outside thats deep within~theres alot of sins that runs deepmyfriend~the hurt is where the feelings are struckin down~how can one grow?~"when hurt" is all he knows~from the low blows to streets he knows~he will arise~his faith is what gets him by~no longer does he cry~he strives to get by and work~he`s learning in the process~he`s a work in process~but still, his faith is in her~ima man but in a different realm~the black hole~its deep dark but wherres the end?thats how the mind works now u figure out where your black hole takes you?.................... A Thuggs speakin entry 4...... Current mood: anxious "14 minutes" minutes ticking as my mind is clicking~the clock strikes away at my life~I never think about it though~thats a question that i sometimes ask myself~what if time actually sat still for just a minute in the world would people notice would it feel the same~what about an hour of plain stiffniss~with no use of your arms or leggs~and all you can do is see~would you visualize the future in better means~exercise your options more often~instead of cuttin-n-croppin~why do we always take the short cut when we learn best from the most difficult of situations~is it that we are refusing opportunity to learn or being plain lazy~or could it be that we`re being oblvious to what life has to offer~the more knowledge we soak the less pain we will endure~cuz when u endure pain its becuase of confusion~your mind lacks of knowledge of what you should do during that moment of pain~if it was so that did lack of knowledge then you find the ultimate ways of creating the source of relief for the body mind and soul~do you belive this is true?~the mind of the human is a perfect mind with perfect clarity~but can that human find that clarity within?~its there~seek your clarity and find your love and search for that moment of your clear window............. A Thuggs Speakin........entry5 Current mood: determined 7 Days of the mind wondering is enough to drive any man crazy~alone time~i wonder is it the best time? formyself to gather my thoughts~or should i keep busy to pass time and amuse my spirits~god will carry my heart soul to safety~i strongly believe so~who am i?i ask that man of knowledge~help me find where i belong~i live day to to day~in a struggle attempting to find my way~no place to stay~restless are my spirit~but i keep going~sometimes without eating~my thoughts carry me away~take me to places where theres no such things as hate and black sheep~no kidnapping or unheard voices out in the streets~sleep sleep i tell me body but my mind keeps wondering~please lord my let my mind rest tired has me at its best~is this your test of my faith please i plea to you (tears fall from thy eyes)i choose not to hide but deep inside~i wanna rise ~above the ocasion~live life to the fullest no half steppin~i wanna walk in the streets with no weapons~no worries~no regrets~having full self respect~and just plain out enjoying life for what it really is~please lord stop the pain im calling out to i pushed you away for years now im begging from the bottom of my heart let me rest my eyes close for 8 and awake with my energy at its peak~heartless is wut i begin to feel~dont make me do the worst in my heart~let me live in the light not the dark i promise to never run from you again~this goes to show no matter how hard you are or what you have how gangsta you think you are you will eventually break down and call upon him and begg for his forgiveness let him in let him im still tellin myself deep within~pain is my source of pleasure which shouldnt be right but i dont why i live like this let my soul be free.............like an eagle i soar im a lion strong and mighty but a dove at heart dont let that ugly bastard with horns take over your heart...... A Thuggs Speakin Six...... Current mood: cold This is a timeless begining~but why does everyones put a time limit on everything?including myself~why is it that we do these these things to each other it just causes more frustration, car wrecks, murders, kidknappings, miss understandings and last but not least foul judgement~in my eyes i see this as a heart beating in timeless matters~my mind is like shattered glass~21 years and im tryin to ta put the pieces together~seems impossible but can be done~heart aches and pains cause my brain to strain~a rebel in life lookin for a change~a hard workin soul i consider myself as~tryin not to look back on what i didnt never have~but be thankful for what i do have~lookin deep in my soul doing everything in my power to foregive my father for not fathering his child~for not hugging me when i needed it~not having the sit down father n son one one~lord please foregive me for dispizing one of your sons~("my heart beats my blood rushes feelings are completely unstable") im tryin so hard~so so hard~but keep on failingthis woman~I know keeps my dreams and my hope alive~she is the source of my drive~I blame it all on the unteachings of my father~but im a grown man now but why dwelle?why hurt its time to move on?I know right from wrong~but not having him there to scold me as i grew with my time i knew that one day i would just have to lay my grudge to rest wether i liked or not~if u can feel wut im sayin or relate to my expressions of my feelings u`ll know that its like a human with lack of nutrition~a man built with no support or discipline is like a lion born in poverty who will never see a kingdom of his own~his emotions are about as stable as the twin towers while they began to fall~but his love runs deeper then the furthest point in space known to mankind but just know he will get it right in due time in due time richness will become of his heart and mind........ Monday, February 20, 2006 A Thuggs Speakin........From my heart to yours.... Current mood: content First off id like to say thank you to the lord for helping me in my time of need he`s always on time he may not come when i want him to but he does come and right in the nic of time~now for people that i know who stuck around me while i went through them things i went through these past four months i wanna say thanx for even atempting to come into my life even though my mind was`nt right~and to the woman who came into my life taugh me so many things i am ever so grateful u were my drive~the reason for me knowing the things i know being able to drive learning to deal focusing on the things that really count you taught me so much i dont ever know how to thank you in enough words~i know i put you through hell it was an expierence worth a lifetime~my scriptures are my words and my word is my bond i will always stay the same david but with a different mind frame,open and willing to change for the better no what weather~i have a vision of a home out in the heart of the carribean down by a beach it might just be vision now but i promise i`ll make it happen to my mother i love you so very much with all my heart and soul i`ll always let u live through me~one thing thats kinda wierd to me is that alot of people tell me i breath really heavy like a real big person kinda like a dragon ya know well i think i finally know why i have always said since the my mother passed on i said id always let her soul live through me and i think i breath for her and me like 2 breathing and beating hearts within my soul~I feel people need to enjoy life let them selves go and let jesus handle thier problems they work out believe me keeps ur hope and dreams alive keep it hold all u can and dont bugde thank you thank you thank you my prayer to you lord and my thankfulness within my heart and i foregive all who were ever wrong about me and judged me enjoy yourselves and have a good day people smile for once i had to learn......... 12:42 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove if u like it and u feeling this one either hit me up or leave me a msg....... if u wanna be updated on my writing if u happen to like my material then feel free to stop by my myspace acct |
