A Love of My Own Growing tired of chasing all of the many faces of men who has claimed to love me. In all reality, the so-called loves they have, only last for the moment, never eternity. When the test of trials appear, it is so funny how their love would disappear, leaving me in hopes to one day find that true love of my own. Here I stand left with all this love I have stored away in a bottle, awaiting for someone to find it that would cherish its contents. How could something so beautiful like love be so cruel? There is so much of it in me to give. Not trusting the test of time, taking fate in my own hands, patiently I wait, until then a love lost life I live. Holding my pillow close at night, I squeeze the goose down between my thighs, having dreams of the many ways this love I have would be expressed, as I gently squeeze each breast, stuck in a dream state of mind, I find myself caressing each thigh, imagining it is his hand giving me the pleasure, of a love dance as I offer him my most valued treasure. He offers me an outlet to share our worlds together, in turn I give him my soul to keep as his own secret treasure, as we discover we have so much in common, we are friends who become lovers. I picture him in the form of an African warrior, having the strength of a lion. A true king of our generation, his character shows compassion. His eyes are beautiful like a rare crystal, for they are the windows to his soul. It is in the depths of those eyes that holds the key to our world. A vision of pure beauty, he is something to adore. He would offer me security, peace of mind, solid foundation, structure, by being honest and true in every aspect of understanding. Remembering always that home is where his heart lay. My love for him being a constant reminder to help him get through the day. Yet here I lay all alone, in hopes to one-day find a love of my own.

"New World Order" Myth or true? For the past few days, I have been bombarded with some disturbing information that has me confused and bothered. There was a question asked, "Do I know who really runs this country?" Since elementary school, I believed the President of the United States was commander and chief of America. Through History lesson's, I learned even the President of the United States is governed by Congress. As I stated earlier, I feel as though I have been wandering in darkness. As I try to keep an open mind over this newly discovered information on my behalf, concerning our so called Great Nation, I can not help wondering could these facts hold some truth. The innuendos presented, insist that there is a more dark and powerful entity that is really in control of this country. They insist this particular entity consist of individuals of prominent prosperity ranging from big corporations, entertainment, banking institutes, and even members of our government. Some of the information provided by these individuals leaves me wondering, how much do we really know about our Government? How much do we really understand about the history of this so called Great Nation? ("Seek you first the kingdom of Heaven and all things of righteousness shall be added unto you.") I thank God that my faith is solely in him and not man. As I reviewed information presented by these individuals who has been labeled as conspiracy seekers, some of the facts and information presented, has made me want to research behind the scenes myself. From the information provided by this discredit group, some of their information was researched to hold some truth. They insist this so called entity has been the true ruler over this country as far back as the first president of the United States. (George Washington's reign) I am never one who swallow's and digest information without researching myself. The research I have come up with, does not contradict some of their accusations towards the conduct of those who are supposedly in charge of our individual "Pursuit of Happiness." It bothers me that some of these accusations appear real and not far fetched. I am left with the question, "Who really is controlling this country?" ("What is it for a man to gain this world, to loose his soul?") I now question who really was responsible for the deaths of our prominent leaders who sole purpose was to serve the people of the United States. (Abraham Lincoln, John F. Kennedy Jr., Martin Luther King Jr., and Malcolm X) The people who have produced these accusations are constantly considered as conspiracy seekers. As I read through the information they provided, and review the history of important current event's of America, the word Armageddon comes to mind. (The place of the final great struggle between the forces of good and evil) Such events have been revealed throughout the Bible. I am no Bible Scholar, I do believe in studying the word of God to show myself approved, not for the approval of this world. I fear my Lord and Savior. I hold empathy for those who are lost in darkness, which has no relationship with the Most High. ("The Truth, the way, and the light.") As we live in these dark days, we are living in a time where things and events are questionable. I feel Jesus is yet to return. Reviewing the information produced and researched, I feel the information may not be far from the truth. The accusations are pointing strongly towards Free Mason and their practices. Researching the history of Free Mason, there is not much revealed. I can not help wondering if the image presented over the years by this entity, at which the individuals making the accusations described as a cult, is cover up for who and what they truly stand for. You see their signs and symbols all over the world. On our printed currency, the symbols of the Pyramid exist. (In God we trust is being eliminated.) We no longer have the 10 commandments within the court rooms. Children are no longer able to pray in school. If we really pay close attention to the state of the economy and the structure of our legal system, no longer is it about protecting and serving. Are we transitioning into this supposed, "New World Order?" Is the statement in Our Nations Constitution that reads, "For the People by the people," pertaining to the people of the United States, or this accused entity that has been rulers over this country? Do we as US citizens really have a voice? Here is something to ponder; I ask that you keep an open mind. Review and research the information for yourself. Review the medical issue that is being reviewed. I am not here judging anyone. I try looking at all things on a Spiritual aspect. If you have a personal pc, type NOW, or New World Order in your subject line. Read through the information, watch some of the videos presented, and research for yourself. Hit me up and tell me what you think. Revelations Chapter 2:1-15, Chapter 17:5, Chapter 19:20-21

Activities Hood.Rat Chic A Diamond In The Rough A Celebration of Love A Day of Honoring The Most High Author Toni Michelle invites you to join her in celebrating her labor of love. When: June 22, 2008 Sunday Beginning: 5:00 pm Special Guest and performers will be there to help give God the glory for allowing my dream to manifest. This is not just a book singing. It is a celebration. You are invited. Where: Golden Lady Hair Salon/2530 East South Blvd. (next to We Finance Auto sale I am asking all who are interested in purchasing a book, to at this time go to the web site of my publishers, www.PublishAmerica.com to order your copy at discounted price in amount of 16.95.. Official release date in book Stores is will not be until late July, early August.. You must have a copy of the book or an invitation to gain access I am looking for all of my family and friends to be there showing love It will be an event you will not want to miss. So dress to impress. We will be having a glorious time giving God the glory

Life can sometimes deal you a mean deck to deal

with.. Traveling the road to try to cross over from the

path I once traveled has not been an easy one.. I must

say, through the trying times, my faith has been

strengthened... I am learning that it is through this

period of my life, my Character is being reconstructed..

Do you sometimes wonder why certain event's in your

life seem to occur, at that point when it appears you

have it all together? I have come to a conclussion that

it is then when the devil want's to prevent you from

reaching that point of break through, when God is

getting ready to bless you abundantly.. I have learned it

is then, when the enemie will pull all tricks of his trade

to take you off focus, so that in turn you will miss your

mark.. This is a test God will allow to see if you are

really ready for what He has in store for you.. I have

grown tired of not being promoted.. I choose to now

stay determined.. so that when the enemie come in like

a flood, My Father In heaven will raise up a standard

against him. I WILL NOT LOOSE..... Be encouraged,

and be blessed.. just a few words to encourage you to

continue to follow your dreams, to stay true to your

heart, depending on what is in it...

I sit in my secured sanctuary, with thoughts of those incarcerated, wondering does their punishment really mesure up to their crime.

I analyze my personal history, to become discouraged with the truth behind my seeds demise.

I held no true value to self worth in my youth, feeling as though no one really cared. It was until I became a mother, when I was enlightened with the ability to decompose those fears.

I see African American males who remind me of my seeds, who are being denied the love of a father and mother that was once denied me. With no true community togetherness, their souls are being lost. Caught up in a system that was designed to destroy them, from the womb to that date of birth.

My soul is screaming for change. Yet I wonder how do I begin, where do I start, how can I make a difference?

Constantly we loose them to senceless crime and unmeasurable amounts of death, as the young bodies continue to pile up, there is still no true help.

I heard someone say "to love is an ultimate gift you could show another. Makeing it genuine at what ever cost is priceless."

Why is there no love being shown in the inner cities? Still my soul is crying out in pain.

Our justice system has failed them, as some of us have in our communtities. We are too quick to write them off as being nothing, showing no true concern to what they could truely be.

To educate a mind. to feed a starving soul, to reach out to another, to just show love in a place it has never been known, to stand and make a difference, to go out of your way to make change where others have been wronged, to open eyes to truth in all its clarity, to tell the world it is wrong. We focus so much on self, we take no time out to think of those to follow. What about our youth, is what my soul continues to holler.