I know it`s been a while since i put somthing new up and since i have the time here`s some new things.
Endless
I wish I knew the first time I heard you speak
That your voice would cost my heart to bleed.
The calm of the chaos is too much for me to bear
It is too much for me to face even with my eyes closed
The echoes of loneliness are too loud for me to stand.
I'm lost in this open field of my emotions
I cry oceans flooding the most bearing places
I'm going crazy within my mind
Waiting for the answer of why
You had me in the palm of you hand
Holding me
Molding me
Taking pieces of who I am.
I wish I could have saw what was coming
An Endless Haunting
An Endless Hurting
Please Understand
Take this as my last confession
Something my heart had refused to say
The words were caught somewhere in limbo
I had to seek them out
And give them meaning
I'm sorry if this makes no sense
Or strays from the point but I have to explain
The chaos of my mind
What once was that is now gone
Something that was so violently beautiful
Is now a memory lost
Something that made my heart sing songs long forgotten
Only now makes me cry
You ask me why
I can only say that I needed it to be this way
Please Understand
Masks
Don`t be fooled by me, Don`t be fooled by my face I ware for I ware a thousand masks,
masks that I`m afraid to take off, and none of them are me......
My surface may seem smooth, but my surface is a mask.
Beneath this lies no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, in aloneness.
But I hide this...I don`t want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear of being exposed.
That`s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind.
A nonchalant, sophisticated facade to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance
that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation, my only salvation and I know it....
But I don`t tell you this...I don`t dare....I`m afraid to...
I`m afraid you`ll think less of me, that you`ll laugh at me, and that your laugh would
kill me.
I`m afraid that deep down I`m nothing, that I`m no good, and that you will see this and
reject me.
So I play my game, my desperate game, and so begins my parade of masks...and my
life becomes a front.
I idly chatter to you in the suave tones of surface talk.
I tell you everything that is really nothing, and nothing of what is everything....of
what is crying within me.
So when I go through my routine, do not be fooled by what I`m saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I`m not saying....what I`d like to be able to
say.....what for survival I need to say...but what I can`t say....
Author unknown
"What you can`t see"
I walk a path that has no trail. I run the race that has noset pace I speak the words that only I know the meaning to. I sing the song that has no melody.
I am the person lost in a crowd trying to be found.
I am the voice raging against the silence.
I am the only one standing while others walk away.
I am the dream you refuse to have.
I`m what you can`t see.
An indivisual in a world full of copies.
"Love"
Love is a word over used by those who don`t know the meaning. How can you know the scent of a rose when you can`t smell anything? How can you feel pain when your numb? What is love? A question that can`t be answered by anyone. If there is a such thing as love then why is there hate? If love is true why doesn`t it last. If love conquers all then why are we still fighting?
Love A word know by many but what does it really mean?
I hope ever like the two new poems I wrote more are on the way till I hear from ya`ll much peace
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