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Now, a little bit about me. My name is Angeler Fils. I don't know what my first name means, but Fils means "son" in French. I'm Haitian by the way. I Love my people. I love all people. At the moment I'm 21. If you seen me in person right now, you'd probably think I was in my mid to late twenties going on thirty. My demeanor is that of an elder. I like being around grown folks. They have so much wisdom. I'm saved and living a righteous life. I still do wrong. I am a sinner, but I thank God for the gift of repentance and forgiveness. I'm not going to preach, yet. I gave my life to Jesus Christ on February 26, 2006 in Afghanistan around or between 4 pm to 7 pm. It's been the best decision I ever made. I slip and fall from time-to-time on this narrow path, but in Jesus name, like the song says, "We fall down, but we get up." I will not tell you what to do, but I will suggest that if you want to be saved, all you have to do is confess or say with your mouth that Jesus is the Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead. You may or may not believe that. That's where FAITH comes in. If you don't have FAITH, you can get it by HEARING, if you don't have HEARING, you can get that by the WORD of God. The Bible that is. If you don't have one, you can go to http://www.biblegateway.com. The Word is there. Read it. If you don't understand, ask questions. YOU WILL GET ANSWERS. Why am I telling you this? Because God loves you and I do too. I don't know you or met you and don't need to, but I still love you. I'll stop here. If you have any questions or would like to read my testimony, write me. Remember, God loves you and I do too. God Bless you

A little more about me, I'm a God fearing 21-year-old Haitian brother in the army based in fort drum, New York, and also a musician. At the moment I'm single. Yes I am searching and haven't found, but I'm keeping the faith that she is out there. I may have seen her before or never seen her before or I may even know her, but she's out there. I broke a few hearts. And I do mean a few. I don't have to use both of my hands to count how many they are. Ladies I apologize. If I knew what I know now, I would've got my heart broken instead of breaking 4 hearts. I'm grateful though. All of the women that I use to be with are doing better without me. Some married, others started families, and so on. In the end, God works all things out for the good of those who love the Lord. I'm a better person now and I don't do what I use to, the way I use to. This may sound weird, but I'm actually in a relationship right now. I'm in a relationship with me. We been together forever but I'm just now getting to know me. We're going on 21 years. It's been a roller coaster ride, but we still together. It sounds weird I know but its true. I'm not selfish, conceited or anything of the like by saying I'm in a relationship with myself. If I can't or don't or won't treat me right, how can I ever treat a woman right? If I cheat me, I will more than likely cheat on you. I encourage people who just got out of a relationship' especially a big one or long one; or those who are single, taking it slow, or even in a relationship, to do the same. I'm not an expert like Hitch, but I found that in all the relationships I been in, there is a pattern. I'm still looking for The One. I won't say that I'm not. I will be a friend though. I'm beginning to understand that not every woman is your mate. I use to think the opposite. Then I realized that these women are just nice, sweet, and soft hearted, and to a weak hearted person, it might seem as if they are interested. They may or may not be, but it doesn't always mean they want to be with you. Having female friends is a great thing. I don't mean sex friends, but someone you can say hello to. Ask how she's doing when you see her. And if she's is very comfortable with you, someone she can dance with in the club when she don't want other guys, or certain guys dancing with her. Stuff like tat. I won't tell you "I don't catch feelings", I do. I just control them because 99.9% of the time, the feelings that I'm feeling when I'm interacting with a woman, is not love. Not knowing what they are or how to identify them can and do mess with my head and when I pursue them, they are nowhere to be found because they were never there. I'm not cold hearted. I'm just beginning to understand that it wasn't love I was feeling all these years. It was something else. I didn't know what it was then, so I called it love. I have abused the name of Love a few times. I won't do it again.

Basically, what all of this comes down to is this: I'm on BP for this: To meet new people. After meeting new people, hopefully we become acquaintances. Acquaintances become friends. Friends remain friends, but if the Lord is wiling, one friend can become a girl friend. If it doesn't work out, that's cool. We were friends before and will always be friends. But someday, Lord willing, whether through the Internet, or everyday life, ONE WOMAN WILL BECOME ALL OF THOSE TO ME, AND ME TO HER, AND WILL BE MY WIFE AND I HER HUSBAND, LORD WILLING.

Lastly, I'm also a musician. God has also blessed me with my own music entertainment company called Artist First Entertainment. We have a mix tape coming out soon, Lord willing. You can hear some of the material on my page. I'm originally from a small town in Florida called Avon Park and been enlisted in the army for two years. I talk a lot sometimes, but not all the times. Only and mainly when the subject is right. Silence and or not saying anything are good ways to converse with someone, SOMETIMES, mentally and spiritually speaking. I really didn't want to write so much, but I did. I was feeling a little long winded so I wrote a lot. It still needs a little work. Anything you want or need to know, ask me, and I ill tell you or answer you with some type of response. Take care and have a great day. And don't ever forget, God loves You. He never stopped Loving You. Don't count on me, I'll let you down, but God will never let you down. All right Black Planet. I'll talk to ya'll later. Faith, Hope, and Love.