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This was a random bit of thoughts through my head after reading many ladies pages on BP. A summary if you will. Enjoy

Started 9:50am 08/20/2006

The light...... by Steven M

Here I sit dark and brooding wondering where my silence is, where my peace... I mean piece of mind is.
Listing to thoughts of days gone by lies told heroes fallen tears dried up upon deserted passion.
Looking for light smelling the stench of pain from a love torn from my mind, beaten from my soul.
And yet I smile, I smile for the passion the pleasure and yes the pain.
Not a moment a clock ticks does my heart pitters then patter at the thought of your smell your smile you lips your eyes
Alas those days gone by the moment washed away have been filled with darkness
I felt light with you I felt warm with you I felt passion with you I felt safe with you
Now without you I feel lost, angry, hurt, selfish, misunderstood and underappreciated.
I open my eyes to colors of red, magenta, cyan, yellow, orange, brown, green, but every time I close them all I see is darkness.
I burned for you like a supernova, melting away the cosmos caressing the planets all while scorching the surface.
I yearned for you like milk from a mother?s breast and I was suckling at your teat with every drop a moment in ecstasy
Now here I sit with 4 walls to guide me and no direction. Now here I sit wishing wondering hoping that your smell will fill my nose, that your lips will taste me again, and that your walk will send a tingle down my spine.....
.... wait I don?t wonder I know that I want those things and more. I want to bask in the sun of the Islands while caressing your feet with liquid diamonds so blue so clear.
I want ..... I NEED to be understood, to be unselfish to have direction, to be happy, to be self accepting and appreciating, and then it comes to me......
...... its not you that made me whole it was me all along and I lost myself in you. Now I am not mad for that because you taught me a love unordinary, more so ex... I mean XXXtrodinary.
All the while it was my love for me though that I needed to feel, to smell to touch to taste to caress.
I love you for who you are and who you showed me you were, but at this moment its time I get back to seeing who I am and just love me for ME!

Finished: 10:08 am 08/20/2006
copyright 2006 Grey Ghost productions


MY WORDZ MY WORLD
Personal quote:
If we are to understand the weakness in our present we need to respect the strength of our past. (You cant fix a broken link unless you go back to see what made it strong)

UPDATE!! 08/06/07

1. Got a new job doing what I love and growing with the company at a reasonable pace. Change can be a scary thing for a lot of people that dont understand the ambition and direction.. expecially of a black man!br />
2. About to have a Nephew (the air to the name) sometime this month, The same month as his father Bday (cant wait to see you Jayden Elijah).
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3. Still trying to figure out why a lot of women still put up with BS men and havent learned the right way to say.... You not healthly for my growth or my future. COme on people if you aint got ya act together then you seriuously need to step up and say hmm maybe i need to look at myself.



4.Went to the Bahamas for 07 and planning a few more trips in 08. Why the hell it take them 2 months to get me my passport and I did express service DAYUMM you GOVERMENT!! (it was in my mail when i got BACK fronm the BAHAMAS not FUNNY)

5. Be more active in the community and do some volunteering. Even though I don¿t have kids I can still help raise the future. WE ALL CAN!

A SOILDERS PRAYER &PROMISE!

I have seen myself go through a lot in my past and I know deep down I have not been the best to people throughout them. Even in thinking that I have grown its nice to see that others are there to show you that you still have work to do. I would like to make amends to show that I know I have a ways to go and that I am truly blessed that I havemade it thus far. I know my life is not about how much money I have or what car I drive nor what clothes I wear, but yet it is about the measure of the true man that I need to be and that I am becoming. I will not let those whom have tried to stop me hold me back and I will not allow myself to be held back by my own prior convictions and situations. I can only grow when I open up and truly let in the love of others and let go of the hatred that I have had for those in my past.

Piece/ Peace of my Soul 2007

People know this you only have 1 (count it One) life on this place called earth and from the time you were born you started losing time on what your true direction in life is, so right now here and forever more go out and be bold, color outside the lines! Go out and go rock climbing, go mountain biking in Stone Mountain, hell go white water rafting in the North Ga Mountains.

I ask that in 2007 that we look at ourselves not only as individuals but as a community and see what image we are sending to our not only ourselves but also to the kids of our community. If we show them that life is more about growing strong healthy and working towards a respectful life, rather than trying to get more diamonds and a new SUV and some rims but yet we have no college fund for our kids or we can barely make ends meet, then maybe wecan have something more real to pass down to our future other than DEBT.

To the brothers out there that have kids that they are not taking care of just realizes that the sins of the father come back to haunt the son (daughter). Do you think the child you help make deserves to pay for your mistakes cause you weren¿t a man? To the men that ARE handling business with their kids, on the real much respect to you. I look forward to joining your ranks someday

This has been a Dangerboy presentation. All materials are copyrighted 2006 under Grey Ghost Productions any unauthorized reproduction of this material is prohibited.

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