Hello BP, sorry that I havent been online in a while. I had an amazing, wonderful, beautiful, breath taking, stress relieveing experiance thats changing my life and making it better. I have been really stressed about everything, and it had seemed like I was trapped in a small space with no where to move. I always believed in Jesus Christ, but I never took him seriously, because whenever I prayed to him my prayers never got answerd and i never had any proff that he is real. One day,(it was on a monday) I decided to call on him. Im on my knees praying hard( the hardest I ever prayed in my life) every day, several times a day, asking the lord and begging him to please, please, please, come in to my life, telling him that I want him in my life and need him in my life, I cant live without you in my life. I never got an response and I was feeling like he wasnt lisning or paying me any attention(is he just a myth), but becausee I had faith I still believed that he was real. When Sunday came, I was in baptism class listening to the pastor teach us the BIBLE. I was very stressed, so as I listend I had my head down feeling bad( I didnt know what to do, i was getting ready to go crazy). All of a sudden I had a strange tingling feeling like I was high or out of my body (it was the best feeling ever, better than sex,weed, anything), all my stress instantly left me. Next, the feeling got stronger and it felt really, really, really, really good,and beautiful. Then I felt very safe as if I could walk through a war zone with a bullseye on my chest( the target,everyone is shotting at me) and nothing will come close to touching me. Last I felt GOD'S presence and how powerful he is!!!!!!!!!!!!!( wow) We are his children, because I felt like a little kid with his big strong father in a toy store, I felt like anything that i want all I have to do is ask for it and I will get it( not, I will probley get it, I will get it) I felt how much he loves me and WOW, he love me more then anyone loves me including myself. He loves me like I am his only child. He loves me so much it felt like whenever I sin it makes GOD cry( eventhough he is almighty he love us so much that it hurts HIM when we do wrong) it almost made me cry, and I dont even cry at funnerals. The feeling only lasted for about three minutes, but it was the best tree minutes of my life, that was JESUS letting me know that he is real( all my stress instantly came back, but now I know some body got my back). I still had a emptyness in my life that I was feeling that I couldent explain, but when I got Baptised that empty space has been filled up. The next day I was acting in an UNGODLEY manner,and I felt so bad inside. I never felt that bad about anything;that was the LORD showing himself to me again.In the BIBLE it says come near to GOD and he will come near to you( James 4:8) thats what I did, and thats exactly what happend.The BIBLE also says the only way to the father is through the son(I only prayed to JESUS), if you call on JESUS he will come to you and give you his Holey Spirit(Oh, so thats what that was) Since my experiance I have been going through things such as, getting rid of my wicked ways, and habits(ITS SOMETHING THAT I CANT DO BY MYSELF, ITS HARD). Out of no where GODLY people are coming to me, as if they were sent. I feel like im not worthy of the Lord because of my wicked ways, all I want to do is do the LORDS work. A pastor( one of the GODLY people that Ive met)told me that Im like a house being builed, Im under construction, the Lord is working on me. In the BIBLE the book of John it says, you dont do the things that you love and want to do,but you do the things that you hate and do not want to do, its not you doing it, its your body, there is a war going on inside your body. GOD,JESUS,THE BIBLE,satan,demons,are real. Give your life to CHRIST, call on him and be sincer, and watch what happens, he is going to show himself to you in some way. I wish people pay attention to this, I am not lieing.When are people going to understand that Jesus loves you and he want you to believe in him, he died for us. He is real. I did a lot of things in my life, but giving my life to CHRIST JESUS out shines them.... This is a year and some months later. Wow, that feeling was the Holy Spirit.He is manifesting himself inside me. I desir Him.
