brownwonder I'm the Answer, come see me - December 16, 2009 add/view comments (1) |
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That there would be a little soul that would call me daddy. I watched you grow for nine whole months and more, Just waiting to see your face always made me adore. The fact that you was going to be here Bringing two hearts oh so near. And then it happened November twelth, If only you knew the anxiety I felt. All day I waited nearly going insane, To see a beautiful black woman in so much pain. Then it started, I seen some hair You came out; I had to make sure you was all there. Such a beautiful lil` prince, you were my son, I named you Kyran Artaveous, the chosen one. The Lord has a calling on your life, follow it. And if you stumble on the way, swallow it. I looked at your mom, thenyou I started holdin`, I can`t believe that I have a little GOLDEN. I worked so hard to provide for you, Two jobs I was tired but what could I do. I only want the best for you and your sister too, But as for your mother, well that`s a different story boo. But back to you with those bright wide eyes, Everyday with you was one big surprise. I think I must be dreaming that you`re here with me, It seems like heaven and it`s all that I hoped it would be. I long to be around you; you take my breath away, I can`t help but talk about you every night and day. Then you were gone, tell me it isnt so, The pain is unbearable and my heart hangs low. I miss you so much, little baby boy, There`s memories of you in all your little toys. I remember walking with you. I remember talking to you. I remember kissing you, Now I`m missing you. Although Kyran a lot of things have changed, My love for you forever remains the same. I always wonder where you are, My heart tells me that you`re not far. Kyran Artaveous heaven only knows, How I miss you and your little toes. And finally my son I hope that one thing is true, That you remember me, like I remember you. To all you brothers out there being a father to your child, God bless you. 
It`s hard to stay focused when I keep thinking of you, Wondering if you are thinking of me, I only hope that you do. I keep thinking of your beautiful smile that brightens my day, I keep thinking of your beautiful face that lightens my way. I keep thinking To myself, "Damn, tell me this isn`t so, Is this love at first sight or the girl of my dreams in my PC window. I`ve never seen you before, just a picture and Love came to life, So I sit and ponder what life would be like as husband and wife. You look so pure and so perfect as freshly fallen snow, But never to know you freezes my heart as thought its 50 degrees below. I guess I will never get a chance to get to know that beauty from afar, You seem so close but yet so far just like a shining star. I know people just sit and admire your beauty on that page, Wishing that they can release your heart from the screen that acts like a cage. It`s the type of cage that has a vast knowledge but still i have to resent, The fact that I can never know the beauty that was only heaven sent. Maybe one day I will get the chance to Thank You in Advance. Or will that song stay in my heart never getting a moment to chance. The chance I speak of is the moment that we can meet face to face. Instead of sending notes and signing G-books in this lonely place. Whoa there`s a chime, let me see I think that your on line, Late night conversations only prolongs the test of time. To you my sweet and all the ladies on the internet; I guess that I can only dream about the DAY WE MET.  Have you ever loved someone that wasn`t there. Have you kissed someone in the middle of nowhere. How come your heart is made to break so easily, Is love just a fashion that comes and goes seasonally. My heart is so big that it`s a target for pain. The constant hurt and misfortunes drives me insane. It seems as if no one loves this giant heart but me. Is seems as if no one loves me for me that`sall I see. My life is not very fulfilling at all, I think constant depression is my biggest downfall. Outside I`m always smiling, but inside I`m in tears, And to let someone see inside is my biggest fear. If they were to find out who I really am would they care, Would they talk to me and show me that love is there. This giant heart is torn between love and hate; To be lonely forever, is that my fate. My life is like a novel or better yet a drama. From trying to be with my son, to losing my mama. Maybe I shouldn`t care for people as much as I do. Maybe I shouldn`t care for me, but I`ll still care for you. It seems at times I`m on top of the world. And at times it feels like my soul is trapped inside a pearl. There is one person that finally made me see. That without her my life is incomplete. And if there is ever one thing that I know is true, That this giant heart is definately in love with you.  To that special one soon to be my wife. This is the lady for whom I`ve serenated, This poem is for her for whom i`m dedicated. First I`d like to tell you that you are my friend, And to be a student of your love; class i will attend. Without you in my life; my heart woul be so hollow, For a sip of your love, the taste i will always swallow. I will be yours today, tonight, and tomorrow. And if I have to, your love I will always follow. For you there is not a single thing that I wouldn`t do. I just want you to know how much I am in love with you. If your feeling down and your heart begins to cry, I will use my love to wipe the tear from your pretty eye. I will walk to the ends of theEarth for you. And if you`re in pain; sweetheart I will hurt for you. And out of all these things that I have stated. Just remember to you I am foreverand a day DEDICATED.  NO! Please Lord tell me that this isn`t so, Was the love of my life passing by; damn I just don`t know. I couldn`t grasp the moment;it happened so fast. God what I wouldn`t do to make this moment last. It was the most beautiful thing that I never saw. It was perfection in itself; not a single flaw. I seen our whole life together; beautiful it was. I was her King; she was my Queen, damn I`m in love. I seen our first date her face was like a jewel. To come empty handed would have made me a fool. The bond grew strong between us, what was I to do. After two months together, I told her I Love You. Then it happened, it started on my couch. She pressed her beautiful big lips up against my mouth. I pushed her back off me was it to happen this way. "Did I do something wrong" was what I heard her say. I grabbed her firmly and pulled her body towards mine, I had to seduce her body, as well as her mind. I only told her things that she wanted to hear, As I gently brushed my sexy lips up against her ear. Then I seen the water forming in her eye. One tear fell as she started to cry. I started to undress her; she had the body of a Goddess. I wish you could have seen the curves inside her dress. It started heating up our bodies started to sweat. It was no turning back we were both fully erect. I made love to that women as our hearts began to unfold. But most of all I made love to this woman`s soul. I tasted every part of her and the juiceswere truly sweet. I even tasted; well you know, that was the biggest treat. Years have passed,Our love has grown and I`m standing at the alter. I lookedat my Bride and said I do without a slight falter. Then I heard a voice from behind, "excuse me are you next in Line?" I completely lost track of time In the grocery stores checkout line. But asIam driving away; Tell me it isn`t so, Is that the love of me life that I see in my rearview window.  When I woke up this morning, you were not there. Where did you go, I`ve searched everywhere. My heart feels empty now that you`re gone. Why did you leave, where did I go wrong. Now that you`re gone what will I ever do, I guess I will continue to look all over for you. I will never forget the feeling that you gave, And when you return my life will forever be saved. It will be saved with the power that only you posses, That seems to make every single person someday confess. But until we meet again, I will hold my breath, Everyday without you is like I`ve died a thousand deaths. Without you, my life will never be the same, Just dark days, lonely nights, heartache and pain. When will you return, If ever, tell me I need to know, "LOVE" WHERE DID YOU GO .gif) |
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