im quite hard to figure out. all my life ive been wandering around trying to fulfill or find my exact purpose for living and at times i thought that i've found it, but in the end i turn out to be really really disappointed or come to realize that whatever it was, it just wasn't for me. so i haven't found "whatever it is" to fill that empty void that i have. i hope to find it one day.i just hope it will magically appear to me one day in a cute little blue package with a Lycoris and Irises bouquet. That would be splended.
i have a tendency to push people away when i become too close to them, or if i have taken a liking (haha--who uses that term?) to them. is it fear? huh- who knows.
i'm shy and quiet around people i don't know. i don't talk, sorry. i don't do well in big crowds. im polite, somewhat friendly to strangers. i do better in intimate one-on-one conversations. i'm mistaken as a snob, most of the time. if you want to talk to me, you'll have to approach me first, cuz i just won't have the guts to talk to you.. hollllllllllllla.. haha.
i grew up in MD and was Born in DC.I guess I'm a native whether I like it or not. i have no idea where i want to stay next. my plans are to go to college and become a teacher. although my dream is to live in a big city like nyc, . so who knows?? I might transform and become a world renouned supermodel, eh it could happen
i have this OBSESSION over cute, yet sad things. i like strawberries especially with sugar. Oh or wipped cream.My best friend calls me a piggy...i know I am..so sue me. I'm gonna be on a serious diet in 07, so let me talk about food all I want.
im weird and pretty random to people that know me really well. i make strange noises at odd times. in my world, inanimate objects around me actually have a personality and talk. strange, strange, very strange....I'm not crazy (isnt that a crazy thing to say?) I just have abstract thoughts.
i love art. i like being creative. i like messing around with photoshop making collages and manipulating photos. I only had the free trial, and I'm too broke to have the whole thing so now I'm sad ;[
i believe that saying, "if it's too good to be true, then it probably is.." i've learned so much this year. let's just say that i've put my heart on guard. everytime i think that i'm letting my guard down, i just tend to avoid the situation entirely. maybe it's cowardly, but i don't know any other way. maybe its mean because it seems like im inconsiderate and don't care about other people's feelings, but really -- im just too scared. "im sick and tired of being sick and tired".
Gosh....I wouldnt have a blackplanet page unless I had this section right? I'm somewhat a hypocrite when it comes to this, I mean, I'll tell someone how stupid a mistake is but I'll most likely make the same mistake. But That's what love is. People say that "oh that's not love" but unless there is a REAL definition for it, we cannot say what's what. It's all up to the person. The saying "beauty is in the eyes of the beholder", love is in the heart of the lover.
moving on from that to a more personal feel. yes gentleman (sry ladies, not me) i'm single.But by choice. I really ont like going with someone just for the hell of it. nor do I look for hubbys. I just really like seeing myself with a boy that I can imagine having something more then a summer romance. That's cute and all, FOR THE SUMMER....but not all year round. Sorry no roller here.
I dont fall in love easily. It's a process. it's like a cake (food analogy!!!) there are steps for a reason.
For some odd reasons, i'm really attracted to those somewhat opposite of me, but enough like me to set a common ground. I like dorky guys, I dont have a type, but if I did, that would be it, cute on the outside, dorky on the inside.LOL I have issues.....
