R.I.P. William Henry "My Father" 6/2006 - Hope you find the peace in heaven that you NEVER had on Earth" Retard!
I will not make the same mistakes that you did... I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery , I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard...i've learned the hard way to never let it get that far .... Becasue of you, I never stray to far from the sidewalk... because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt... because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me because of you I'm not afraid....
I lose my way and it's not to long before you point it out ... I cannot cry because I know that weakness in your eyes, I'm forced to fake a smile, a lie everyday of my life ... my heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with! Becasue of you, I never stray to far from the sidewalk... because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt... because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me because of you I'm not afraid...
I watched you die , I heard you cry every night in your sleep... I was too young, you should have known better then to lean on me... you never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain, and now I cry in the middle of the night doing the SANE DANM THING! Because of you...Becasue of you, I never stray to far from the sidewalk... because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt... because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything ... because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in, becease of you I'm afraid of my life because it's empty... because of you I am afraid ... because of you....
My time wasn't enough(wanted tro spend it all with you), my heart was't enough (I would have givin it to you), my money wasn't enough (would have givin you all of that), my house wasn't enough (let you live in that) and now you wanna leave... What? I wish I never told you, you should leave, and wish that you never had my seed... know I neeed to stop it, thats a lie, cause girl you were the apple of my eye... It took a little time for me to see that girl I need you right here next to me... I could let you walk away, but I'm not going oout that way No! not that way ... cause I can't live without you, can't breath without you... I'm beggin you to stay... please stay cause I love you, even though I said that you could leave me, I want another chance just to adore you ... I still believe in you and me .. I love you, so girl just take some time, the time so you see cause I don't want to live my life in misery... I wasn't ready for you to set me free, don't give our love away! Words can't describe how I feel about you, only Heaven knows how much I do, girl I put my own life on the line, I'll cherish and protect you with my life, all that %#&@$! I said girl I didn't mean, I'll die without your love baby here with me, I can't just let you walk away cause baby I'm not going out that way... All my life I'd sacrafice for you, into the rising sun of another day begun, I won't live without you, won't breath without you I'm beggin you to stay " can'tyou understand?, I just don't want to be with you!" Please stay ... I was just Bull%#&@$!en.. I was just %#&@$!en around ... you might as well just kill me? I LOVE YOU
"Your gonna want me back" the last words she said to me, now I'm wishing she was still here with me... "Your gonna need me one day" and now that day's here and your man gotta shed tears
You never miss a good thing till it leaves you, Finally I realize that I need you... I want you back... baby girl I need you back ... gotta have you back babe... heart broken when you left my world... "DANM" I wish I woulda kept my girl cause I Love you ... I don't know what I'm gone do without my baby... It's driving me crazy, cause I'm missing my baby... I'm going out of my mind and I'm running out of time, I just wish I could find you girl! I'm about to go crazy cause I've been needing you lately... I'm going out of my head and all the things that I said I wish that I never said them now...
If I could rewind the time to get inside your mind, I would take back all my words, I didn't see it, I couldn't see what I was doin babe...see baby girl I was blind and I wish I could try to be the man that you deserve... give one chance to make it work...!!! wish I could trow it back, I want it the way it used to be... give me one chane to make it work. the love of my life but I ain't been lovin you right baby!
Used to wait up for you till like 5 in the morning, so bored watching re-runs and yawnin... wasn't calling, you didn't care, you knew I'd alwasys be there... I fooled my self thinking you would change, finding #'s in the glove of the range... But I didn't complain, I loved you the same BUT I got a suprise for you today baby because ... someones been sleepin in your bed, someones been kissing my OOuuwww... cause you'd rather go out instead... someone's been rockin my back, someone's been askin " you like that?" just like you did when we first met.
Now baby... I used to introduce you to the finer things, the passion that we shared was straight off the chains... thought I would never feel that way again... convinced my self I was the blame, do you touch me like you used to do...and she loves me like you used to do, baby she wants to replace you and I got to do what I got to do, I'm sorry.
Someone was home alone at night, someone was out all the time was the last thing on your mind but I found someone so it's alright .... Time to K.I.M. Ya'll
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we riden right here with you dog.
be strong man keep pushun forward.
your my brotha.
and I love ya.
and I wrote this for ya.
If I could change anything it`s want that dope did to ya.
comin up I looked forward to bieng just like you.
same crees in my kakies.
tried to dress like you.
you gettin swole.
liftin weights stoking caps with waves.
I`m trien to see the world through your eyes wearin your shades.
you and your pops never really got along.
who`s right or wrong.
15 years old kicked out all alone in this cold world.
and I could only imagine what you were going through cause I was a baby when in happend.
mamma cried like a baby that day.
she never blamed you.
it was painful cause she knew the streets was waitin to claim you.
over time we could see the hardness in yourface.
wanted to helpbut could`nt find the words to say.
I guess I went into denial hoping fot the very best.
stop believing in there God cause what god would allow this.
not in my wildest nightmares.
nothing compares to see my pops be a crackfiend for all these years.
tired to send you inspration when you was locked in the pin.
soon as you came out.
you right back on that %#&@$! again.
and momma say she don`t feel safe with you home.
she got to hide money and lock her room door when she gone.
we still love you.
but until you find strenght in your self.
and the will power to open up and except our help.
what can we do.
I can`t let you terrorize mom dukes.
we feelin like we just gone have to turn you lose.
they say in war there`s no victory without casualties.
but when it hits your family is when you really see.
like a window to my soul.
you could see the pain in my life.
got to make a change in my life.
and it`s not impossible.
to make a change in our lives.
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I aint scared to die and I aint scared to kill.
I`m a rightous black gorilla from the hill of so ave and 11th street.
to all my comrads in the pin waitin for me I sware to God Ima set you free.
even if i gotta put it down in the dirt.
if I`m lien i`m dien.
if I`m dien least I died putin in work.
and if thers a hell below.
we all gone go.
death cant hurt unless you die slow.
sometimes I look up in the mirror staring deep into my onwn eyes lookin for the strength to carry on.
wondeing if I die a physical death will my
people remember me when I`m gone.
the ghetto in a war zone.
7- 200 is my head code.
when the funk is on I pop the clip into ma chrome millameter.
im the grim repper. keep the heater in my shoulder holster.
jump in my broome.
squad out out to meet my soulders at the hide out.
rightous black gorillas fin to dide out.
to put the smach down.
run up in the bank sayin we want the cash now.
to finance our revolutionary struggles all around.
lay it down on the ground.
and I hear the soundof the siren.
I won`t hesitate to get to firen on every body in the building.
killin ima villan because i`m black.
reach your hands up to the ceilin keep on fillin up the sacks.
I aint scared to die.
I aint got %#&@$! to lose.
plus I aint happy here livin on a planet full of fools.