heymama99 lonely b-day.. - October 28, 2011 add/view comments (3)

SO an update from October.

Things were decent for sometime and there were not much problems, we were actually happy we were expecting again.. and then it all went down hill again. I am now learning that that Narcissim has a pattern and a mental imbalance may be an problem for him. So I moved out of the area and now I am so far from him (an hr), in the country a bus can not even reach me here. He is lazy and unmotivated so chances he will make it out here are slim to none. This end is difficult... (continue reading)

HAPPY BDAY TO ME... HAPPY 25TH.. IT IS A LOT QUIETER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.. NO PLANS. TOMORROW INSHALLAH I HAVE PLANS , BUT THEN THERE MIGHT BE SNOW? - nice!!!

Let's give an update shall we... for the people who do frequently check in on me...

Most days I drag myself out of bed to a job, I use to love, but now I can not stand. I have taken the meaning out of helping others and am looking for the dollar signs and how much it takes to fill my tank weekly and seeing my bills add up. I am overwhelmed beyond belief and don't know how I am going to do this.. I do not have the answers. I mean seriously I am the bread winner .. you watch my son and do mild... (continue reading)

Today I screamed for Jesus for God whomever could here me... and today... I didnt have to call the police.. my neighbors did...before it was too late..He told me I shouldnt call out to Jesus because I dont believe in him.. (this is not true)..

I am looking for housing, but still no leads, mommy or daddy is not an option nor a shelter...

this is not love.. you dont hurt the one you love or make their lives more complicated because you feel less than as a non-working man.. you dont push... (continue reading)

So at 24, this is not what I had in mind. But, independence with dependents has it's disadvantages.. someone will always be trying to hold you back in one way or another.. the difference is .. if you are looking for the hole in the side walk or are you too busy shootin the breeze to take notice of the crater that opened to swallow you whole.

Blood is thicker then water? My A**... all my family has given me grief and negativity and criticize my life. So now I am really going to give people a... (continue reading)

Moving out... possibly to the Lehigh Valley. this area has given me nothing but heartbreak and abuse... need to find people who are about something...