hiazfuc1 What's up? - April 23, 2009 add/view comments (0) |
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THE WORLD IS A LITTLE LESS HAPPIER,SMILES HAVE TURNED TO FROWNS.THE WORLD IS A LITTLE LESS POSITIVE,THE UPS ARE OUTWEIGHED BY THE DOWNS.THE WORLD IS A LITTLE LESS CARING, CAUSE NO ONE HAD A HEART LIKE HER.THE WORLD IS A LOT LESS APPEALING TO ME,SINCE I LOST U MOTHER. WHY DID GOD HAV TO TAKE U,U BARELY EVEN GOT TO SHINE.HAD A STRUGGLING LIFE,TAUGHT WRONG AND RIGHT AND CRACKHEADS ARE STILL ALIVE.U DIDNT HAV TO KNOW HER TO BE LOVED BY HER.HER HEART HAD PLENTY TO GIV.PUT HERSELF LAST TO FEED HER FAMILY FIRST AND ALL THE WORLDS CHILDREN WERE HER KIDS. I RACK MY BRAIN HARD TRYING TO REMEMBER ALL OF YOUR WORDS,ALL OF YOUR ACTIONS,ALL OF YOUR VERBS.ALL THE ADVICE THAT I THOUGHT WAS ABSURD.BUT IM GLAD THAT YOU'RE FLYING WITH WINGS OF A BIRD.AN ANGEL ISNT AN ORNAMENT U PUT ON A TREE.YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN AN ANGEL MOMMY,U FIT THE MOLD PERFECTLY.I'LL NEVER GET OVER THIS,I'M NUMB TO THE FACT.I WANT U BACK, INTACT,FLAPPING THE WINGS ON YOUR BACK. I AM SO LUCKY TO HAVE BEEN LOVED,HUGGED,KISSED,TAUGHT,WHI PPED,ADVISED,CONSOLED,SUPPORTE D,FED,WASHED,HOUSED,RAISED BY YOU.YOU ARE THE TRUE DEFINITION OF MOTHER,AND I THANK U FOR BEING U.
   MY MOMMA'S GOT CANCER.SO MANY TIMES I LOOK UP IN THE SKY AND ASK 4 GODDAMN ANSWERS.I DONT MEAN TO PUT IT OUT THERE ON A BANNER.JUS WANNA TELL GOD,'I DONT UN DERSTAND U.MOMMA'S A GOOD WOMAN,PUT EVERYBODY ELSE FIRST.Y DID GOD GIVE HER A CASE OF THE WORST.PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH I THINK IM GONNA BURST.I FREAKING FEAR THE DAY IM FOLLOWING A HEARSE.SHE GAVE A LIFETIME OF SERVICE TO THE CHURCH.IM CERTAIN ITS HER PURPOSE TO PRAISE GOD UNTIL THE DIRT.BUT WHAT IS GODS PURPOSE TO PUT MOMMA IN THE EARTH.IM NERVOUS SO I DRINK STRAIGHT BOURBON CAUSE IT HURTS.WHAT KIND OF VERMIN WOULD STRIKE A WOMAN WHO WOULD GIVE U THE SHIRT OFF HER BACK.THIS IS THE SECOND CANCER ATTACK.ITS A VERY BIG PILL,REAL HARD TO SWALLOW THIS.MIND THINKING THE CRAZIEST THOUGHTS,I NEED A PSYCHOLOGIST.I DONT FEAR THE GRIM REAPER BUT I FEAR THE ONCOLOGIST.MAKES ME WANNA HOLLA LIKE NATHAN MCCALL THE NOVELIST.I KNOW ITS SAD BUT TRUTH.MY MOMMA DID EVERYTHING A MOTHER SUPPOSED 2 DO,PLUS SHE WAS MY DAD 2. I HATE THIS BAD NEWS.SO I SIT BACK STRESSIN,SMOKE MY MEDICINE.TRY TO REMEMBER ALL HER LESSONS.GET TIGHTER WITH MY SISTERS AND BRETHREN.AND PRAY THAT IF MY MOMMA HAS TO END HER JOURNEY THE DESTINATION IS HEAVEN. I LUV U MOMMY |
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