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This is my story.. Hello my lovely creatures, my name is Alex Mondesir. I was born in manhattan on July 30 1985. After 9 months my mother decided that she could not take care of me on her own and decided to put me in foster care.From 9 months to 7 years old I had already been in 8 homes, from this experience alone I was always a bit more mature than my age group. I would see my mom every other Monday at Sheltering Arms Agency in Manhattan from 9am to 12pm. During our time together she taught me how to draw flowers and I would draw flowers all of the time. Drawing became my escape from reality. I may have only been 4 but I knew that reality was not a happy place so i became quiet and in my spare time I would draw and read. I got out all anger and sadness that therapy couldnt give me. My favorite color changed from pink to black, and then finally at seven years old I was allowed to go live with my mom. I wasnt really happy because to me it was like going to another home. The one time, I decided to confide in my therapist and tell her that i did not want to live with my mother, she goes and tells my mom what I said, so then I have this grown woman crying to me asking me if I loved her. Well me trying to please her told her that my therapist lied and I moved in with my mother. Well that only lasted about three weeks and my last day with her made a dramatic impact on my life. The last night I was there she told my little brother that I was not apart of the family anymore and that I did not want to be, which really wasnt true. I did not even know why they were taking me away until about seven years later( she had slapped me and threatened to kill me if I didnt stop crying in public and someone over heard and so on) but at that time I really did not know this. So then she makes me strip down and puts me in front of a mirror and repeat after her and I did. so I stood there at only seven years old telling myself that I was ugly stupid dumb and no one was ever going to want or love me, the worst part was that this was coming from my birth mom and if she thought that then why wouldnt anyone else think so? Needless to say I was insecure, and honestly I still do have major insecurities about my attitude face body intelligence etc. I then moved in with the jones family. I stayed with them from seven years old to 14. It was doomed from the start but what could I say. For seven years I dealt with brutal beatings( sometimes just for the hell of it they did it) and unnecessary verbal abuse. they adopted me at age 9 and changed me from Alexandra Nicole Aliya Berry to Alex Nicole Alicia Jones. One of my most crucial memories was when I was 8 years old and I was sleeping, I woke up in the middle of the night and I saw the Devil. I dont know how I know that was the Devil but I know, I could describe him to you in full detail if you asked, but as a child I was terrified and telling my adopted parents was not the smartest idea.. They got heavy into Christianity and swore i was the devil's Spawn, I would wake up to them speaking in tongues in the middle of the night over me with olive oil rubbing crosses on my forehead. During all of this I got excellent grades. In 8th grade I went into still life art and my art teacher helped me out alot drawing figures and different poses, I still keep in contact to this day. so at 14 i started running away and eventually i went into a group home and 2 years later at 16 i left there to be with my fiance and his family who i am still with this day. We actually got married March 3rd 2005. and this is the short version of my story. this is all relevant to who i am and what i do. i love designing clothes , the human body is just so inspirational but my creativity comes from my anger that no one ever sees and the horrible memories that i endure. so today at 20 years old im standing as tall as i possibly can after going through all of that and i am ready to move forward, I want revenge.. STATUS Status: Married Orientation: Bi Hometown: Brooklyn, NYC Body type: 5' 4" / Some extra baggage Ethnicity: Haitian/Dominican ( black,Spanish) Zodiac Sign: Leo Smoke / Drink: Yes / Yes Children: none Occupation: fashion designer T.V. sex and the city, the sopranos, best week ever, live from the red carpet- fashion police i love the 80's, Law & Order, Law & Order SVU BOOKS The alex cross mysteries, v.c. andrews books ( before she died) Haunted, the catcher and the rye, point of origin, John grisham,Patricia cornwell, Anne Rice Music: *My chemical romance *Evanessence *The Used *Seether *Disturbed *Blink 182 *SOAD * New Found Glory *Tonic * Aerosmith * Slipknot *Jason Mraz *3 doors down *Incubus *Marilyn Manson *story of the year *Simple Plan *All American Rejects *Relient K *Fall out Boy *Hawthorn Heights *Green Day * Maroon 5 *Linkin Park VIDEO GAMES: DOA3/4 Soul Calibur The SIMS TATS: 1 on my back PEIRCINGS: 3 holes in each ear 1 hole in my tongue 1 hole in my lip Both breast

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