lilbutt31 IS BACK IN CALI AND LOVIN IT - March 01, 2010 add/view comments (0)

3 years one month and 26 days. Now he's gone. for the past 6 days i have purged more tears than i could have imagined. My eyes are swollen from emptiness I feel inside. He says i'll be back in one minute, but hes not I can feel it in the core. For 3 years 1 month and 26days I have loved selflessly I have given you all of me more than what I even posess of me And what have I gotten from you? PAIN! This pain that i cant control RAGE that is burning so deep that I can feel it in my feet.You say... (continue reading)

It took me almost 32 years of being with the wrong men to decide what I really want. Ive always read in books and seen on television what a true gentleman was. Then a couple of weeks ago I had the pleasure of experiencing a true Southern Gentleman. You see grew up in Cali not to say that there isn't any gentleman here cuz there are I know two, but unfortunatly those friendships havent developed into more. Anyways,really what im saying is I want to feel respected and protected. Im so tired... (continue reading)

Thats how I feel right now like I'm going thru the motions.
My heart doesnt beat faster when I see his face. I don't get the butterflies when he's comes in my space.
What I once thought was love is no longer here. so I wonder why do I keep going thru the motions.
You can only fake so much...........And then there is his the one who is so sweet the only one who has truly knock me off my feet. Do I let him get it or keep him afar and not let another tamper with my heart? These are questions I need... (continue reading)