"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you... (continue reading)

Now all is not totally lost, we're just a rough place right now. And it's actually made be realize that this is really serious.  To put in it's proper perspective; I would joke to friends that I wanted that man I could sing India.Aire songs to! (And was long-suffering enough to let my non-singing butt do so).   And honestly ya'll, I was dumb-struck that I did.  The night I meet him I swear I knew something was different.  I was even acting different, I... (continue reading)

For whatever reason I feel myself at an inexplicable realm of longing obviously something's missing and I'm way too headstrong to admit it to be the same thing I've ran from and ran away. Yea, I suck. And now it's so obvious that I was wrong. Sure I was scared but I've obviously cheated myself and now I'm feeling it. Damn I really do suck . Possibly there are second chances, or maybe I have yet to have my chance because I clearly wasn't ready.
We'll see huh .