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To my true friends...thank you for being there for me and taking a chance in trusting my friendship. To the people that want to be my friend...you just have no idea what you are getting into! I have a big heart :) To the people that have seen me around and THINK you KNOW me or as if i should KNOW who you are...please don't make any assumptions! PLUS. I may see you on my space. but this is a fun networking site you still do not even know my favorite color.. SERENITY IN ME THROUGH AA AND NA-RECOVERY FROM ALCOHOL AND DRUG ADDICTION I have an elated feeling of belonging to a privileged band of people in AA. This sense of belonging is very much important to me, since I didn?t seem to belong anywhere or to anything during the period of life, when I was an active alcoholic. I always lived in a world surrounded by empty bottles, glasses and ash trays full to the brim and with full of despair and fear in me in a hungry, angry, lonely and tired, hostile world of my own making. I always had the temptation to apt for the easier and softer way to get away from this world, through the bottle since I neither had humility nor responsibility. Now when I look back, nothing has just happened like that and events of activities do not happen on there own. It was always the result of my careful and meticulous planning. When questioned, terror and fear would strike me and I would deny. Even though I could not manage my own life, I tried to run others life and that was clearly an end to my self-seeking. I was hoping against hope that I was not a true alcoholic, till I became hopeless and drifted into a tomb of alcohol and despair. I was bent on slow suicide. I was very clever in building a wall between other people, on an emotional level and myself, and I was an expert in that. I had become a psychopathic and pathological liar and strangely I also had a sense of humor to do it. Communication was only one way for me, I was in charge, I told every one what to do and I made the big mistakes. After becoming sane, serene and sober by god through AA, I have found out that communication is an art and a four way process which includes asking, telling, listening and understanding. This by applying in my life, I am able to build bridges of understanding with other people. Irony was in the beginning, I could never live up to my own standards for my self. So alcohol filled the space between what I wanted to be and what I really was. When I walked in to the fellowship of AA in 1982, it appeared to me that it was a short time course and it had worked so well to me, that I had reached a sort of heaven right here on earth, but John Barley Corn had other ideas. It was complacency and in turn I was trying to escape life and not mastering it. I was emotionally avoiding hazardous situations usually involving new people, places, time and things, because I could not cope up with life and I was scared that I would get hurt. I was too afraid of life to become involved in living. I always insisted on getting involved at people instead of with them. I never had the courtesy of allowing others to grow. I was too interfering and argumentative. I did not know those exact me, a sure sign of confusion of self. This is one of the primary reasons, which in no time led me once again in to the urge and hell of uncontrollable drinking. This is a progressive illness and I proved it, and second half of the first step took care of the rest. I was not ready to bring myself to ask for help since I was too sentimental about my hurt pride and insured ego. After repeated relapses I understood there is no possibility of my staying sober, on my own will or strength. Contd:2 [2] During the active and practicing alcoholic days, I did not have the feeling of belonging and the feeling of being accepted. Now I have both in AA.I now believe strongly through the steps, that serenity without growth is stagnation. Through sharing and AA 12th step work I am now able to get involved with a people. I am also ready to take a few calculated risks for the sake of progress. I am able to replace the fear of hurt and failure with faith in god and value serenity, enough to take a chance and to grow. I know that my only job is to see myself clearly and release myself to his care. My present compulsions are in a way always positive which gives me a great deal of joy, acceptance and serenity. During my repeated relapses and binges I was some times able to inhale peace, thus cauterizing what I had come to decide, with no respect for myself, must be a wound of my life. I drank as if I the great river of my blood was carried by alcohol not water. I was, to put in a four-letter word in it ?mess?. When I was on water wagon and in AA, on and off, I wanted to shout from the roof top ?I?ve quit drinking? and convince every one around, but nobody seemed to be bothered about these antics of mine. As time progressed so did my alcoholism. Now after a great struggle and considerable period of sobriety, I have found out the difference between absolute serenity and just serenity. I have clearly understood that people pleasing and opinion seeking is not serenity, since there is no end to it, need to seek through prayer and meditation for strength to fortify my beliefs in my higher power. The disappointments in the past were in reality a blessing in disguise. Life was a mystery, I realized all I need was to look into today and run life and take it as it comes. I need to seek, through prayers and mediations for strength to fortify my beliefs in a higher power. The disappointments in the past were in reality great blessings in disguise. I could not do it alone. Today the AA program and the grace of god have restored my faith and I am sober and serene with the help that I find in the AA fellowship. In trying to practice the principles in all my affairs, has taught and added a new dimension to my life and has given me back a faith in god, which I thought I had lost forever. Initially I was just a Zombie walking around aimlessly with no faith in God or in Life. In the beginning when I came to the program, I had brought with me too many self-centered doubts and fear of what other people in AA and outside world would think about me. I now feel open and honest about myself in AA than in the outside world. I also had the panting desire to change the world to my convenience and had a very muddy and murky ideas about how do it. But now by the Grace of God I am now clear eyed, sober and cheerful. Contd:3 [3] The AA program has now taught me not to want to start again my drinking. I also leant that sanity, sobriety and serenity requires scrupulous, constant surveillance. I am gradually finding a new awareness of life and natures beauties, which I had long forgotten. This awareness is in store for an alcoholic who is recovering and it is a treat, which is quite overwhelming. I now realize the absence of change means the absence of growth. My life through AA is serene and has changed for the better ? One day AA Time? .I had realized that stopping drinking was not the happy ending to all my problems. It is a very good beginning of a new way of life since I found out the only person I can change is myself .Out of this pain I have made joy. In AA sharing everyone teaches me something, if I have an open mind to listen. I also have something to give in this beautiful way of life. My policy has matured into a give and take policy which has restored mutual respect since I am willing to believe in ?Live and Let Live? policy. My road to emotional sobriety has begun with this. I have now an opportunity to prove my sincerity by continuous action, to do the only thing in which I can reasonably hope to succeed is to improve myself towards realities of life and my spiritual attitudes .In olden days, alcohol had twisted my thinking and filled it with resentments. It had warped my judgement and paralyzed my usefulness .Now nothing has changed outside, but inside, my own attitudes have changed to better my life in a gradual fashion hated everyone and the whole world, now through god in AA, I have replaced this emotional outburst, into patience and loving kindness I also learnt that in sobriety it is alright to express any legitimate concerns on our views without feeling guilty .I have also not only found away to serenity but a priceless formula for learning how to live in a positive way. I am always touched by the gestures of AA members and that gives me immense serenity. Contd:4  [4] The simple statement that I make in the meeting ?I am an Alcoholic?, eliminates the past fears, the frustrations and the feeling of helplessness and near hopelessness has given me the courage and confidence to struggle for serenity. I had a lot of half empty, half-full problems and AA has given me the answers, by attending meetings, sharing and caring through the AA way of life I have learnt that depression and fear can be overcome. Through this serenity I have understood and I have been learning there is much in this world I can understand and I need to understand, which will become easier each day if I take them ?One Day At A Time?. If I face myself in serenity through AA, I will find freedom from bondage of self. R.R. Sethu.. INDIA   R. RAMA SETHU AGE:52 ADDRESS FOR COMMUNICATION: INNOVATIVE SOUND AND LIGHT ENGINEERING/RESEARCH ASSOCIATED MANAGEMENT SYSTEMS No.5, 5th Lane, Karim Mohideen Sahib Street Behind Gaiety Theatres, Chindadiripet, Chennai - 600 002 India. Phone: Fax:00-91-44-30223064 Hand Phone:00-91-9382160733 Email: ramasethu2001@hotmail.com ramasethu2001@yahoo.co.uk ramasethu2001@gmail.com Company Email ID : isleindia@gmail.com ramsindia2005@gmail.com Web Sites: http://www.isle.ne1.net http://www.myspace.com/ramaset hu http://www.ramasethu2001.multi ply.com EDUCATION: "Madras University", PSG College of Technology - Coimbatore - Tamilnadu - South India - B.E., Bachelor of Engineering - Branch IV - Electronics and Communication Engineering. Selected Television, Radar and Navigational Aids, as specialized elective subjects. Project in "Microwave Antennas" for final year B.E., Academics - 1978 and "Morse Code Demonstrator" for Silver Jubilee Science and Technology Exhibition - 1977. Member - Photographic Club, Philatelic Club and Tech Music. Involved in organizing Culturals. INTERNATIONAL EXPOSURE: US, UK,Japan, Dubai,Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand and Hongkong. CREDENTIALS TOWARDS CAREER DEVELOPMENT: 1995 - Till Date: Research Associated Management Systems (1997), Innovative Sound & Light Engineering (1995), Chennai - Partner & Consultant Engineer - Business Development. Involved in Event Management and Consultancy from Concept to Completion of recording studios, stadiums, conference halls, hotels, discos and open-air rock shows in entire South India under the banner Innovative Sound & Light Engineering. Handling the complete management system for higher education in US & UK along with Travel Consultancy, Visa Consultancy and Financial Planning under the banner Research Associated Management Systems. 1987 - 1995: Sein Impex - Madras; A.G. Currimbhoy & Co., - Madras, Maharaja's Impex Pvt. Ltd., Trichy - Fuji Electronics Pvt. Ltd. Madurai, Consultant - Business Development. Handled a complete setup including Systems, Recruitment and Training, Sales Territory and Budget, Product Management and Promotion, Brand Name and Design for Home appliances, Telecom Equipment, Office Automation Equipment, Satellite and Cable TV Equipment. Prepared Import and Export Documentation, Organized Clearing and Forwarding procedures and Managed Customs Negotiations for Negative listed and Restricted items in Electronics and Automobile Industry. 1984 - 1987: Tamilnadu Polytechnic - Madurai, Electrical & Electronics Engineering Department. Government Polytechnic - Krishnagiri, Electronics & Communication Engineering Department - Instructor. Taught theory and practicals for Full Time and Part Time, II & III year Diploma students. Trained them in Television Engineering Laboratory, Electronics Lab, P.C.B. Lab and Project Works. Designed and Developed Audio Visual Laboratory and organized the introduction of new concepts in Audio Visual Method of Teaching, which increased the results in final examination from 40% to 80% pass. Participated in Training Programme on Research Methodology and Report Writing, conducted by Technical Teachers Training Institute at Madurai Extension Centre - 1986. Conducted public awareness seminars, students vs officials meets through Jaycees - Krishnagiri and Madurai. Participated in all "Individual Development'' Courses conducted by Jaycees School of Management. 1978 - 1984: Customize Electronics - Cochin. Sales / Service Engineer. "Managed successfully the Marketing and After Sales Service of 'Enbee' Professional Audio Systems by identifying the Correct Market System. Launched 'Customize' special effects speakers for Theatres, Conference Halls and Hotels in Entire South India and helped the Product Management group for performance enhancement. Operated Sound and Lights for Western Music Groups like "Hijackers''," 13 Ad", "Wild Angels" ,"Dada Dogs". Directed the settling up and controlling of special sound and light effects for "Bombay Dyeing?, Vimal and My Fair Lady. Fashion shows and was covered in India's largest selling Youth Magazines 'SUN' under the caption 'One Man Mobile Disco' - Nov. 1982 issue for these achievements. Worked with various leading play back singers like Jesudass, Jeyachandran, S.P.B, P.Susila, Janaki, Vani Jayaram etc., in the movie field, and people like Dr.Balamurali Krishna,Umayalpuram Sivaraman,Vikku Vinayakaram etc in Karnatic music field. Also worked with music directos Illaya Raja,A.R.Rahman in special effect recording,using multi track sinc degital recording systems. Designed, fabricated and installed Indian and Imported professional sound and video equipment for M/s.Harisri Recording Unit and Studios and M/s.Kalabhavan Recording Studios at Cochin with Acoustic Consultancy from Concept to Completion. prepared the strategies for pre and post sales support for Marketing "Harisri" and "Kalabhavan" pre-recorded cassettes using own designed high speed duplicators. Suppoted with latest technical know-how for master recording and copying. Released them thorough the company's sales outlet M/s. Darshan Services at Coimbatore. Supervised the preparation of Audio Visual Packages with Logistic of Multi Projector and Multi-Screen setup for World Renowned Mathematician - Mrs.Sakuntala Devi for her "Mind Dynamics" courses. Organized special Outdoor Recording Equipment and worked as Chief Recording Engineer for World Renowned "Macro Photographer" Mr.K.Jayaram, B.A., A.R.P.S., A.F.I.A.P., for his Wild Life Expeditions and Project Tiger. PERSONAL:: Married - Spouse R.Indira (21.08.1974), Daughter Miss.Jeevitha (07.09.1991) CLUB MEMBERSHIPS: * Member -Aero Modelling Club, Amateur Photographers Association, Amateur Radio Federation (HAM) & Madras Motor Sports Club.  Your results: You are Hulk
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