He saw my pain...impossible to see it on my face but through my words. We talked about Love, Marriage, and Betrayal. I did not give him the specifics on how DMT betrayed me but enough to let my computer love know that DMT %#&@$!ed me up. We talked about everything from politics to economy stress which ended up in talking about sex in general and sex in specifics. it was so easy to type you inner thoughts. it was nice, a new kind of freedom. I told BIG all the things that i liked, how i like being dominant, but at the same time i loved being in submissive positions. Guess i went with the flow and loved to mix it up, sometimes tender sometimes rough. Loved for a man to take control, slap the %#&@$! and tell me what to do. i was being sucked in the zone and told him things that my best friend doesn't know...things DMT don't know. Anonymity made a person uninhibited and bold; brought the fantasies out in the open. BIG asked questions and i was excited to answer. and as we typed, i put my hands in my pants and touched the core of a long overdue orgasm. BIG told me that he never been in love and i told him that i have drowned into it 6 years ago. there was an awkward pause in between our typing and then he wrote..."whatever DM T is doing, you'll get better." ten seconds went by and i wrote "whoever DMT is doing, my heart will get stronger." i then told him that i have renewed my lease on life. BIG asked if he could be the landlord. he then typed "imagine me there with you. imagine my tongue on your hipbone, your pelvis, your thighs." i squirmed and moaned, God how i squirmed and moaned. i imagined him on his knees, holding the back of my thighs, pulling me into his mouth praising me with his tongue, flesh that was very gentle, as smooth as water, a rhythm that made me hold my sheets and float...float...float, my movements so...so...powerful, saw a thousand of flickering stars, wanted to stay soaring on the wings of an angel. BIG taught me that INSIDE EVERY ORGASM LIES HEALING. after months of this, BIG asked if we could meet. knowing i could risk losing DMT and knowing that i could bring the pain of betrayal to DMT i still did not want to disconnect from BIG'S world and to fall back into the place as i knew as pain...i sadly tucked DMT inside that small place above the heart underneath the soul and behind my mind and typed "when, where, and how.'
