For everyone who hasn't had the pleasurable experience of getting to know me, I've decided to let u in on what you've been missing. The name's Slim. I'm 5'7 1/2 125lbs with a deep caramel complexion. Im asfreakyasiwannab, as well as everythinguwantme2b. I'm not for games or b/s. To hate me, you must be ignorant of me and my intellect. To love me, you must be conscious & receptive of my dimensions. But to overlook me, you must be blind & out of ur damn mind. I am defined by my most valuable assets: my mind, my body, and my soul. I am deeper than any body of water, more graceful than any model, and most importantly, more real than real life itself. I pride myself in being authentic. Step into my world, forever you are welcome.
Just as my heart starts 2 heal.... U come back.
U come back as if u never left, like things are as they were before. U come back with ur lies, and deciteful ways, and everything else that caused this womans scorn.
U try 2 give the illusion that u've changed.. that u care, and as if somehow u understand my pain.
Tricking me 2 believe that u are the true definition of happiness, and that without u I have no real meaning.
And though my eyes were physically open i was still blind.
Blind because of my authentic emotions and distorted perception, which disabled me 2 see that i was the target of ur deception.
Recently I've noticed a change. Oddly enough things aren't the same. I've found myself questioning where we stand, asking too much of each other, always in demand. Too stubborn to come to an agreement together. Too selfish and high-strung to indulge in erotic pleasures.
But im all cried out. Though my heart hurts i can't deny, there are no more tears left to cry.
Violent rages that never existed a nightmare is what became of our happy wishes. Confusion and frustration ignighted the flame. Deep within me burns a candle lit with pain. Masquerading our true emotions. Fooling ourselves to believe that other doesn't notice.
Im all cried out, hurt feelings from deep within. Years of tears from my lover, my best friend.
I still imagine that ur here. Holding me close whispering sweet nothings in my ear. But ur gone now, forever, ur out of my life. Didn't get to say I love u, didn't get to say goodbye. U were on ur cell phone when u called me that day. Asked if there was anything I needed and said u were on ur way. Never did I think that I'd never see u again. Never did I dream that this would be the end. When i received the call I thought it couldn't be true. Had to be someone else, it couldn't possibly be u. I grabbed my keys with my heart steadily beating fast, I ran lights and signs as i raced to the scene of the crash. There I stood, with such disbelief, frozen, in a trance. I watched in total dismal and horror as they loaded u into the ambulance. To the hospital, I went hoping for good news Praying to God that there wasn't a body to view. The doctor came to me with the news around four. I blocked everything else out and fell to the floor. There I see you, in the morgue, on the bed. The image of ur cold lifeless body still plays on in my head. But I still imagin that ur here. Holding me close, whispering sweet nothings in my ear. But ur gone now, forever, ur out of my life. Didn't get to say I love u, didn't get to say goodbye.
