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In the Library of existance there it is written in thousands of books, new and old, historically told, that man is born to Die...but after birth and before death is a Life that we should cherish with every breathe.. often we wait until that second to last breathe to make steps toward trueness, the eternal.. This precious gift given to ME, I left unattended and alone, I was unaware and I didnt care about its severity, or its magnitude...with relentless moves and a store bought attitude, I took for granted the power of being ABLE!! as my upward strides continued to fail, legs driven like stakes in desperations trail, I finally realized my life was going to HELL...bending over backwards to find this peace, with no effort I frequented all the wrong places, and in all the wrong places there is NO peace..I took out my own soul and threw it at my feet, like a piece rotten raw meat unfit for a dog to eat! ...fueled by these feelings of what I thought u thought of me, who u see, maybe not or maybe I could be, all while turmoil and sparatic explosions of anger lie deep, like a volcanoe waiting to erupt on anybody, all nicely dressed in gucci and armani....clothes torn to shreads in the lime light of celebral heights, on stage playing the role, during intermissions half baked and blowed from cocaine overloads, going back on stage, with no idea of whose role I was playing... thrown off by the jones's, the keep up as my past afflictions and my created addictions walked with me like demons, hungry shadows, never fading..picking, eating, deleting, and depleting my dayz, my directions, and my soul...unconsciously asking hell for help, to continue the tasks that require a mask.....obsessing over material wealth, reputations, females, and flash..choosing to give each other identity, CHOOSING TO GIVE EACH OTHER IDENTITY, choosing to get lost in the establishments mental slavery, choosing to give up on my tru identity.. I identity is formed inward OUT, not outward in...I soon became eager to search for a spirit from within...but still faithfully exhaling distortions, smoking trash and spitting confusion...oblivious to the TRUTH, or what they say IS REAL!!!...as we grown children portray playas, thugs, and pimps ..nothing real in my eyez, not even a glimpse of what they say is REAL!!!! I DO NOT SO I RECEIVE NOT, that substance I need to live...that foundation from which to build, the courage I need to forgive, I sought to be healed of my double crosses and my earthly appeals....I painfully had kneeled to the FORREAL..thats where I want my hours and dreams to drift, to start and go, NOT FOR SHOW, BUT FOR LOVE AND CHANGE, no longer can i say i dont know to whats real!! REAL is that man tortured because of his beliefs, never denouncing his faith to gain relief... REAL is that woman whose lost her family to AIDS and starvation and still believes... REAL is that person deprived of limbs and still achieves... REAL is that child who searches for food in scrap heaps and dumps, and strives to live amoungst the rats, dogs, and flies and fleas.... REAL is when a person thru grace, gets their Life back after addiction has knocked them to their knees... Real is the unseen power that gives a woman back her children after the system has taken them away.. Its real when we give of ourselves, that soulfood for others thats blinded by site, REDEMPTION is mine when I can see the light, my heart takes flight, my drives get rite, my spirit is raised like the dayz of slaves when freedom is in there sites.........redemption to life is mine when I can see the light!.... I neglected to put the ending up because there are plagerists here and they have stinky fingers so "TOO those thieves who stole my last piece off my page..lol...its copywrighted so be very careful...u wont get far!!"

....and for those who stopped by to read, or jus to look, thankyou!...I hope there was something here that u can take with u...not literally!..lol..eventho my pics dnt show it, I'm a man who loves to laugh, and to see others laugh! I'm very passionate and compassionate, humble man who stands by his convictions....ill die for what I believe in..but also a work in progress, not one to take %#&@$! off anyone, not a lover of dumb s**t, a lil impulsive and quik tempered..lol..but ive gotten past games, childish decisions that may affect the rest of my Life! so, If u wud like to know more there's a note box below!