CEB

OK, I GUESS YOU CAN SAY "ITS ABOUT TIME HE UPDATED THIS SHYT!! LOL I GUESS I WOULD HAVE TO AGREE



I`ve been on this planet since almost the beginning of time. It has taught me a few things over the years: that people are not as they say they are, trust only yourself because in essence thats the only person you got, LOVE, well we`re not going to even tap that subject yet.



In the beginning, I was very immature about what i wanted and how to obtain it. The whole uproar over "the net" clouded my mind. Reality kinda just slipped away, gracefully. I was eager to meet people and open myself whether they were right for me or not. Let me tell u this, PEOPLE ARE SO FAKE. I didn`t want to believe it, it all attacked me at once. Friends, family, employees, damn it, LOVERs...I was swinging from a thread and everywhere i turned to, out of all the many friends I had or so-called supporters, there was no one. The once-believed love of my life was nothing but a time bomb waiting to happen, injuring my trust in "LOVE" (what is that anyway?). So people if you where on my friends list and you no longer see your name, you were alright but you weren`t real.



In order for me to proceed, i have to eliminate evil. This is a complete 360 for me. I no longer have the time or the patience. So much was lost for me and I can only heal myself. No more lovely poetry, no more fantasies, only reality.



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a mother is like the sun that rises in the morning

the sun`s warmth is her love

the love surrounds you and secures you, never worring

but what is it like to have a sun with no warmth, no heat

like a mother with no love,



with out the sun, planets would have never been form,

children never borned

no existence of the solar system

no form of identity,

to be with child and not love that child, hurts a child and its life, like a mother with no love



how can this be? my only answer is not loving me because of me

who i was destined to be,

my identity, who i am and shall always be,

PERCEPTION IS NOT A FEAR OF MINE

unconditional love shall forever rain in my mind, as my ultimate fear in this time,

especailly from a mother with no love



by me