WARNING! INTENCE SPIRITUAL AWAKENING COMING TO HEART NEAR YOU!!! INTENDED FOR OPEN HEARTS WILLING FOR CHANGE & PROGRESSION! 911 SoNG TO ENDUCE!!
First off, I am not judging, only telling my story:) Much love to ya!;)
I¿m to the point now that nothing really matters except being real. People misuse the word a lot now, but I know that ppl know when someone is not playin.
Just a female who tryin to live holy, and presentable before her Lord. Jesus is very important in my life. But first, if you want to take a look in my world, you must know that this is a place of wounded hearts, mended by One greater than all the pride any man in this world could have. I have been healed by my Savior Jesus and kept by the Father of all Creation, and living thing. My Father God has Blessed me beyond all comprehension, and after seeing what Jesus has to offer, I would never turn back.
Now for my testimony¿
I was wondering in a life of darkness. Heartbroken, I walked around in pain, depression, self-pity, and scars of abuse that kept me in denial and self-destruction. But I had a helper, his name was satan. I had believed the lies that he put in my mind: that I had no worth, except that of a girl with no self esteem, only to be used for sex. I was not a hoe. But I gave away something that was to be used for the glory of God¿my purity. I gave my body to men I didn¿t know, lusting, having heartless sex that leads nowhere but to more pain and shame. That is what I was doing, thinking that I was somehow going to find love, in the midst of other peoples problems and self abuse¿and then my own. Then, if that wasn¿t enough, drinking was going to help me, yes, it was going to be my friend¿more lies from the one who wanted to take my life and destroy me. See, the enemy had a plan for me too, but God had a bigger plan. And God always wins. Always. In the midst of my old life, I was always looking to other people to try to satisfy within¿but the problem wasI needed to search within to be satisfied. The world along with its backer, the devil, has its way of deceiving you into thinking that you will be loved. Then, after it has used you, spit you out and thrown you away, then proceeds to try to label you your sin. And then try again. Satan is smart. But He¿s also already defeated.
I was never raised in church, as I can think I maybe went to church three times in my life before receiving the Holy Spirit and getting saved. My mind was always filled with this warped view of who God was¿unloving, uncaring, vengeful, mean. And nowhere did I understand who Jesus was. Because my heart was closed. I was so blinded by the hate, bitterness and confusion that the devil had me hooked on. It was my comfort zone, and that is what I was used to- pain.
I can remember times when I was high off of the weed that other people were smoking. And then that time when I let my so-called ¿friends¿ cooked the mess in my stove¿and the whole house was rank with that smell. Those same friends ended up robbin my place¿took everything except for the furniture¿all my stuff that I had from when I was a kid¿
And that one time that I helped rob that gas station for beer¿my car was the getaway car¿ and the cops couldn¿t find us. Fridge full of beer and that makes me no better. I was lost and deep in sin, needing some shelter, refuge, and help.
I did find my helper, His name is Jesus. No, I didn¿t get saved in church where a lot of people do, but my experience was by faith in my room in Waxahachie, TX. I grew up in The Colony, where I left to stay with my new family, my mom, new step father, sister and brother. That night my dad (I don¿t call him step) told me I needed Jesus. He said it in a ruff way, but it was the truth. I began to look inside myself and search. I felt the pain of my sin, and the unbearable anguish of sorrow of all that I had done to God. I just cried out to Him¿and then the Spirit of God interceded and I prayed the prayer of salvation. I had never heard it, nobody had ever told it to me. But I know just as Jesus stood the gap for my sin, He stood the gap and gave me the prayer to pray to Him. Jesus I called, I need you. I can¿t do this anymore. I choose you, and no longer the sin that I¿m in. Please forgive me, I know you died for me, and I receive all you have for me. I just let it all go to Jesus. And that feeling is like no other¿ having all your sin, past, present and future be taken on the cross. It was all nailed to that tree and that is why I am free from hell. I feel that Jesus literally took it out of me. I know that seems scary, but when I accepted what Jesus did for me, and I turned from my sin, God healed me, through His Son and His blood. I am now covered in His blood, and I live according to the new covenant described in the New Testament. Jesus paid the price ultimately so that I could live and live in abundant life, no longer bound by destruction and shame. It was WITHIN myself that I was able to take pride, and my man self and put it down to see what God had in store for me. It was faith. And that is the same faith that kept my Savior up there with nails through His hands and feet, blood running all down His face, and all over His body. He did that for Me. And for you. All to fulfill the purpose that God had for Him, to die for unworthy humans that are selfish, prideful, vain, and self-pleasing. But God says that we are His children, and that the sacrifice of that Lamb, Jesus was for us, and for our new lives in Him. I know because Jesus died for me and because He rose for me, I am a New Creation, old gone, and only New to Come.
This free gift of forgiveness and eternal life cannot be yours unless you willingly accept it. God will never push Himself on anyone. He is not a master that forces ppl to love & serve him like robots. So with this in mind, know that God loves you, and always keeps you in His heart...loving you forever...The Blood was enuff to cover you from head to toe...for when Jesus gave up His spirit...to recieve your love and give His...you dont have to hurt no mo...
911 Song by Kirk Franklin off The Rebirth of Kirk F ~FEEL THIS~
Daughter: Hello
Kirk: Hey, it`s me, Kirk, I need to speak to Bishop
Daughter: Sure, hold on¿
Jakes: Hello¿
Kirk: Hey¿I got some stuff I need to talk to you about
Lately, pastor I`ve been¿having all these crazy kind of dreams
It`s hard to sleep, I can`t eat¿scary, you know
Jakes: I know what you mean
Kirk: I mean, every since that Tuesday, seems like life`s just getting real strange
Jakes: I hear ya
Anthrax, terrorist attacks and¿ I ain`t even trying to get on no plane
Jakes: I feel ya
Kirk: ¿and you know when I try to pray, there`s a voice that telling that God`s not real
Jakes: You know that`s just the enemy
Kirk: Yea, but you ain`t feelin` me
Jakes: No son, I know just know you feel¿
See, just because I preach and teach don`t mean I don`t get scared sometimes
Kirk: yea, whatever, but you T.D. Jakes
Jakes: Well, then I don`t make mistakes¿
Kirk: Well¿
Jakes: Now, let me tell you what`s on my mind¿
When your smile is gone (He cares)
Kirk: Yea, but I feel so alone (He`s there and¿)
Jakes: Although, your heart is heavy, God said¿(every burden I will bear)
Kirk: See, but you don`t know my (my pain)
And I`m getting so sick and tired of all (this rain)
I just got laid off, and to top it off the rent`s due, so tell me what I got to gain?
Jakes: Well, see, trials come to make (you strong)
Storms won`t last (last long)
Kirk: But how can I trust God in all this mess?
Jakes: Well, see that`s the reason for the song
See, wherever you go there`s one thing ya got to know
God, is right there by your side (weeping may endure for a night)
And he told me to tell you everything (everything`s gon` be alright)
So thank you for calling¿.it`s always good to hear from you
Kirk: yea, but¿
Jakes: But I gotta go now
Kirk: wait a minute¿
Jakes: I got another call on line 2
Kirk: But I ain`t through
Kirk: See I`m sick and tired of all these church folk talking about stuff ain`t as bad as it seems
See, y`all don`t feel my pain¿
Jakes: I don`t have pain¿?
Kirk: I don`t see how ¿you on the cover on Time magazine
Jakes: See, but you`re looking at now and you don`t know how I struggled and what I`ve been
through
Kirk: Yea, whatever¿
Jakes: Now, you crossed the line¿
Kirk: I`m just speakin` my mind
Jakes: O.K. so let me speak mine , too (Hmmmmmm)
I`ve made some mountains, I`ve seen some valleys, I`ve even had to cry sometimes
Like when I lost my mother
Kirk: Your mother?
Jakes: My mother¿
Kirk: I`m sorry¿
Jakes: No son¿that`s fine¿¿see life is full of ups and downs but God said
(the storm won`t last long)
Kirk: But how`d you make it through?
Jakes: Boy, I thought you knew¿it was His (love that kept me strong)
When your smile is gone (He cares)
Kirk: But I feel so alone (He`s there and¿)
Jakes: Although, your heart is heavy, God said¿(every burden I will bear)
Kirk: yea, but see¿y`all don`t feel (my pain)
And I`m getting very sick and tired of all this (this rain)
Just got laid off, and to top it off the rent`s due, so tell me, Bishop, what I gotta gain?
Jakes: Didn`t I tell you trials come to make (you strong)
And those old storms won`t (last long)
Kirk: How can I trust God in the midst of all this mess?
Jakes: See that`s the reason for this song
Wherever you go there`s something ya got to know (God still cares)
(weeping may endure for a night)
And he told me to tell you (everything`s gon` be alright)
Kirk: Thank you pastor
Jakes: Any time¿
Kirk: I think I can make it now¿just tell me what I need to do
Jakes: Just pray this prayer with me¿
Say¿Father (Father) forgive me (forgive me) I`m sorry (I`m sorry)
Please help me (help me) I love you (I love you) I need you (I need you)
Hold me (hold me) Jesus (Jesus)
My heart (my heart) my soul (my soul) please take (please take) control (control)
Right now (Now) now (now) now (now) (right now)
Jakes: When you ain`t got no smile (he cares)
Kirk: and even when you feel so alone (he`s there and¿)
Jakes: Although your heart is heavy, God said (every burden I will bear)
Kirk: And even in the midst of all ya (pain)
And when you`re sick and tired of all the rain (this rain)
Remember that the rain won`t last always..and in Christ Jesus, you got so much to gain
Jakes: You see your trials come to make you (strong)
And the storms won`t last (too long)
Kirk: Remember my brother, my sister..it`s only temporary
Jakes: See that`s the reason for this song
Wherever you go
Kirk: There`s something you`ve got to know
Jakes: God is still there (weeping may endure for a night)
Kirk: And told me to tell you (everthing`s gon` be alright)
(ad lib) end
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