Nubian-Phoenix

Live your life like you mean it. For the content of your personal character, glorifying the name of GOD.

Please bear with me, pic is done, just gotta get it to the page. (Easier said than done)

Heartfelt thanks for visiting my momentary base of operations.......

WARNING: These are the feelings of a TOTAL Man meaning no disrespect. As a returning vet I've been fighting "The War At Home" so I don't have time to be fancy like everyone else here. The upgrade of your personal comfort level comes those of us who have and are fighting for this country and personal betterment for our future regardless of "the uncomfortable truths". yeah, welcome to the REAL big leagues.

Name came from an unwanted throwdown between me and four out of six Latin Kings. One of theirs didn't make it and I ended up with their signature knife in my back. Admitted self in hospital, the nursing staff didn't understand how I could walk with a pierced lung. In reality...YOU CAN'T....but I did! Which explained why the King's mouths fell wide open when I kept clocking them after the stabbing. Army Strong?
Well, I do know GOD wasn't done with me yet. And guess who went to jail? Ummmmmm hmh.

Been doing for self since I was 12. NOT By choice but by circumstance...............
8 years spent as a real life G.I.Joe (the BIGGEST of the big leagues relating to the powers that be)
5'9, 186 lbs pound of lean military muscle ( I've fooled a few people during "showtime")
Able to give any woman that "full" feeling, but no "hosemonster".
Sex? When it's over, even my nosy azz neighbors need a cigarette.......
No brag.....just fact.
Wear glasses and look U-G-L-Y and make Ugly Betty look good.

Still here.......by GOD's permission......And I'm beginning to mess that up......

- WORDS I LIVE BY -

"We either find a way....or we make one." - Hannibal

Been on BP from the beginning with postive messages for my people
BY SPEAKING TRUTH, has cost me a few sites and drama in my personal life.
but read Bear_traks and bear_traks2 if u wish to be free of your "crab barrel mentality"
THIS IS REAL!!! And so dirty are the powers that be, reading BP pages, REWRITING THE INTERNET TO DIMINISH BLACK HISTORY AND CLAIM OUR INVENTIONS FOR THEIR OWN ( I.E. THE INTERNET, 3-D GRAPHICS) STOP SLEEPING!! Brother tryin to put a bug in yaw ear..........LOOK AT WWW.TOPBLACKS.COM. THEY HAVE CHANGED US FROM LEADERS OF INVENTIONS TO GOOD OLD BOY SONG AND DANCE AND SPORT PLAYING JUNGLE BUNNIES!!!

THE INTERNET WAS INVENTED BY PHILIP EMEAGWALI AND NOBODY ELSE!
DR. BEN CARSON WAS THE FIRST TO SEPERATE CONJOINED BABIES BACK IN THE 60"S!
VALERIE BARSOM INVENTED 3-D- GRAPHICS
IF POOR STREET PEOPLE CAN DO IT, SO CAN YOU AND YOUR KIDS!
A SISTA INVENTED 'STEALTH TECHNOLOGY". THAT'S RIGHT! Just can't remember the name right now.....

If your under 30, I am not trying to rock the cradle intentionally but the BP sidebar ain't showing me anybody my age to give me warriors. Some of you sure look old enough but I'm finding out the hard way ya'll just not mature enough like my generation. (Well, quite a few of you, anyway). So when I compliment you it's sincere but guarded because as much as I'd like to find real love somewhere, I gotta be careful for both parties. My last girlfriend was 24 years old! the sex was very nice....we got ours........then I felt her "burner" in my right ear and claimed me adding other outside drama that didn't need to be there......another potential wifey out the window..........sigh....

WHAT IS IT WITH U YOUNG PEOPLE AND ALL THIS UNNECESSARY DRAMA???? I....DON'T.... GET... IT.

I DO LOVE THE LORD AND I TRY REAL HARD TO WALK IN HIS WAYS, but....sometimes....I'm forced to go Punisher without the bullets. That takes being real creative. Lot of energy, lot of time, but if deliberate wrongdoing is happening to me...it's happening to you....and somebody has to do..... something.....blame it on my generation............but when I've had enough......I've had enough. Yes, I get results. And haters.

Call me AARP, but my life hasn't been no cakewalk as many of u younger folks seem to have it BECAUSE MY GENERATION STEPS UP TO THE PLATE. I get a lot of help from people tryin to shorten my lifespan but my GREATEST HELP COMES FROM THE LORD ABOVE. I HOPE YA HEAR ME. Until the Bush Adminstration came in, people like myself were the people who once kept 9/11 from happening.
Now evil is repositioning itself to stay way above the bar and under the radar. Then there's people like myself who the powers that be have "old scores to settle". Hence Y it's taking so long to get a computer and post a picture. TA-DA!!! (See Will Smith's Enemy of the State)



Today EVERYTHING is out there.......no respect, no censorship, no morals, no acknowledge of GOD in our lives.

Musicwise...Alexander O'Neil....Kashif......Hiroshima.....Howard Johnson....Phyliss Hyman...Thelma Houston......Gap Band......MADONNA......The System....Gwen Gunthrie....ZZZ TOP (Yes, ZZZ TOP ) My music choices is just to the bone real for me CHECK SHARP DRESSED MAN). Yeah, they old, but it's how I roll............still.

U get the picture......strong songs..........for an ALL....TRUE....MAN. IN NEED OF AN ALL...TRUE...WOMAN.
No brag, Just Fact.

No, I don't want 2.0. but give BP time, they'll change it anyway........

I'm a nice guy. Yeah I finish last, but I finish by getting it right the FIRST time. Every time. No brag, just fact. I'm not about the b.s. because life is too damn short. Sometimes you gotta got thru a few storms before GOD brings you out!

AS a black man in the U.S. and a "black" military veteran I am in the serious business of taking control and staying in charge of my life in a country based on the frauding and humilation of black men! Being a black man in the United States brings automatic drama, ain`t ya`ll been payin` attention? And being a STRONG, BLACK, TRYING-TO-BE-CHRISTIAN, MAN either brings you a peaceful life or drama multiplied. Read JOHN 15:18-27. I don't mind because I'm old school and people who are used to dishing it out, can't take it when you re-supply them in kind.....even Jesus was forced to drive the merchants out of the temple (MATT 21:12). Better that I stand on my feet as becomes a MAN then on my knees less than an animal in times of oppression. But I'm on my knees to GOD before I do most things. When the smoke clears, I'm still here, I maybe leaning up against something, but I'm...still.....here.

A BLACK MAN GETTING THE NOD FOR PRESIDENCY??? Never thought I'd live to see this!!! TOO MANY PEOPLE THINKING ONE PERSON CAN CHANGE THIS COUNTRY WHEN THEY NEED TO LOOK UP AND REMEMBER WHO THEY REALLY NEED TO LEAD THEM.

ON THE NEW FRONT LINES HELPING MY VETERAN BROTHERS AND SISTERS RETURNING AND PAST OFF THE STREETS, INTO REHABS, GIVING THEM HOPE AND ASSISTING IN HELPING THEM GET THEIR DISABILITY BENEFITS AT NO CHARGE FOR MY SERVICES SO I'M IN THE STREETS BACK IN THE CONDITIONS I WAS RAISED AND PART TIME MOVIE PRODUCER FROM COMCAST WITH NEW SERIES COMING OUT CALLED "UNSUNG HEROES". COMING OUT IN SEVERAL MONTHS. PLEASE STAY AWARE AND CARE FOR THOSE OF US WHO HAVE BORN THE BATTLES FOR YOU!!!

IF I wasn't FORCED to be on the OTHER front lines, I'd have a computer in my apt, no drama except for that bs cheating on each other drama......(that people can't seem to avoid), I"d know how to make all those cute little computer thingies yaw do, and maybe by now I'd have that beautiful-built-black woman-blindly-in-love-with-me. Even THAT seems to be a troublesome task these days.
Oh, well, gotta keep it moving and pray for the best. I don't do complacency or mediocracy very well.
Kinda goes against my spirit.

Black feminists joining white ones and supporting same sex marriage? Sup'in wrong wit dat picture.....

Body by effort, attitude and STILL alive by GOD`s Blessings. Better reckonize and tell HIM "THANK YOU!!!" FOR ANOTHER DAY AND ALLOWING ME TO BE ME!!!

For most of my life I`ve battled everything from the streets, real rude boys, people from other countries, mobsters, gangbanger wannabes, dirty cops, judges, lawyers, the list goes on. And these last nine years...... things that REALLY go "bump in the night. AND NOW THEIR GOING BUMP IN THE DAY!!!
And they ...HIT....HARDER....THAN THE MOVIES!!! Getting Mike Tysoned and you can't see anything can make anyone terrified and scared. If you can remain conscious long enough and ain't too busy spittin your teeth out. That was from my last encounter and wear partials now (damn!) That was this past July 1st.
And until about September 15, everything I saw still had a band aid on it.
Why me? I don't know why, but I'm screening my potential wifey's a little bit closer these days...........


WARNING!!!
IF U R PHYSICALLY ATTACKED BY AN EVIL SPIRIT, WAIT UNTIL IT GRABS YOU (PRESSED DOWN) PRAYERFULLY SAY: "I PLEAD THE BLOOD OF JESUS TO WASH OVER ME AND OVER MY LIFE AMEN!!!" and u will send that sorry son of biscuit eater SCREAMING back to when it came from. Welcome to the biggest of the big leagues...........it....reallly..could..happen..to...you....like....me. And now....
"something"..... is actually "stalking" me, the way the lion does it's prey over time and miles.
and I'm rock steady ready for freddy or GOD knows what it is.....

I really don`t need anymore learning experiences....... except for true love and married with children.
Then I'll be on a permanet vacation and loving it!!!! Then I'll take on the education system......
If I survive long enough to get married.
Probably get drama at the wedding. Don't even want to think about THAT!

This HERO MENTALITY can b draining at times. Too few left and too far in between.
Honestly,..... Sometimes, I feel like a band-aid on festering sores. Have you any idea how many pairs of glasses I go through? AND THIS IS REAL!!!

Now, ladies.......if you one of those, "I like my life drama-free" whatevers, then you need to bypass me and my message. Right now.....Drama-free = sediated, easy going, ALREADY able to be led like sheep to the slaughter. I was like that at a time. A long one at that. And when I woke up, it was tooo late and had to suffer tremendously. But as a TRUE scorpio, I rose from ashes that these younger "think-they all that" fellas just wouldn`t have survived. And I've got the fugly looks and scars to prove it...Sometimes I remember those who have died and what from....because I remember WHERE I COME FROM EVERYDAY.
These younger guys may come bigger, stronger and meaner from all that processed food, and that west indian ground food, but they AREN`T me. No brag, just fact.

And I`m a really nice man.....till my glasses get bent....

What do I do for a living, I'm a disabled veteran, I spent alot of time helping out all veterans and their families, regardless of time in service while trying to producing orginial documentaries that will the mental shackles of my peoples minds.. And yeah, I get in trouble because I'm trying to show the truth about our slavery, this country's history from the Native Americans side of the story............I think I've established a good team being the best at what we do......covering what others won't dare to. Well, we'll find out soon enough

My other side job is hunting down bad landlords for an agency and putting them out of business as close as I can. Kinda like bounty hunting, without guns.

I'm 55 years now, still single, with no kids, and not by choice? I wasn`t in no damn prison! I seriously thought maybe it was time I cashin my bid for black happiness and see what`s available on the international menu. In the past I have and in my heart, I hurt, because I been searching for a BLACK QUEEN to bear me WARRIORS!!! And I am living proof that my sisters don`t want a good man......


Did you know that over half of THOSE brothers over 40, AT LEAST have a high school diploma? Compared to you younger generations? Some just didn`t finish college, not to mention many are military veterans. Only to return and fight the battle of re-acceptance in our own country!!! The soldiers perspectives change about rascism, unfortunaetly, we come back home to people who perspectives did't and don't care.

I DON`T do, cute, skinny, petite, needy, married, divas, daddy`s girls, spoiled, gays, lesbians,
drama-queens, down-lo`s, or WEBCAMS!!!

Lesbian?Gay? I got friends like that, so I don't judge but GOD IS gonna jack ya`ll up for being so stupid!! Better Read Leviticus!!! You got told.......

I DO VOLUPTOUS, INTELLIGENCE and STRENGTH! Give me a woman with the heart of a warrior with a meaty chest, and THICKNESS WHERE IT COUNTS! With the will, raw power, integrity and courage to be the rib of my rib so I may lay the planet at her feet with GOD`s blessings. And if she`s a veteran and/or wears glasses...DAMN! =8P~
I KNOW what I like and need, so yeah, I'm still looking AND PRAYING.
And if she's reading this far, SHE ALREADYS KNOWS if she's the one.

Obviously, my simple preferences seem to be so overwhelming. I'm NOT settling for less in a woman but total obedience as a "helpmate" as the bible states. A woman should not have to settle for less than that in a man....

Now those of you who are into PELLE-PELLE, TOMMY HILFINGER, JORDACHE, AND WHATEVER DESIGNER ITEM YOU`RE WEARING THESE DAYS.....Do you know who owns that company? Are they investing in black people? You don`t know? I suggest you find out and if they aren`t investing in US then you shouldn`t invest in them.

I`d be remiss (Look it up in the dictionary) if I didn`t say about the one good sister I met on BP. But GOD had OTHER plans for her. She`s a taurus, so you know I was nervous when I told her what was up. We`ve moved on and still tight the way black people in general SHOULD be. Don't think I didn't get my azz whupped good -n-proper. *whew* I don't hit women, in this case, it wouldn't have mattered, I survived the after shock. ow....ow..ow

I thank you for your time here at the ranch...I wish every one of you the very best in your life.
Don't be so arrogant you forget to pray, and don`t be too proud to help out somebody who needs food, shelter or both. You could be looking at your past.....or your future. U may be down, but you ain't out!
It ain't over till you're dead.If you can look up, you can stand up and "remember whence your true strength comes from."

NOW

No matter what, I will ALWAYS be there to STILL RESPECT, AND PROTECT YOU SISTERS, "YOUR MAJESTIES AND YOUR HIGHNESSES" as I have ALWAYS done. AS MY GENERATION HAS ALWAYS DONE. I`ve been doing it this long, it`s a little late to change now....

Peace to all.....................

KEEP IT REAL OUT THERE AND RESPECT, PROTECT AND LOVE EACH OTHER!!
THAT'S AN OLD SCHOOL ORDER!!!!