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Member Since September 25, 1999

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Location Brentwood, NY

Relationship Status Involved/Partner

Race Black

Education Master's Degree

Primary Job Category Consumer Products, Insurance

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Observer1

"...You are looking at the PhD bound Graduate Student in Psychology at Stony Brook University..."

...Now a little "sum thing...sum thing" about me!!!!

I am of Haitian Decent, what does that mean to some of you. Well it means that it took the kidnapping, pain, mutilating, suffering, mental enslavement, raping of my African sistah`s in the Middle Passage, to back breaking work from sun up to sun down in the fields & mines of Haiti; also the belief & faith in God, ancestral leadership and guidance, our will to survive, strong family bonds, strong fighting spirit, rebellion, and the crushing defeat of our four mighty oppressors (France, Spain, England & a young United States) at that time to make...ME !!!!!
It sort of gives new meaning to the verse in the bible ?No weapon formed against me shall prosper!

My Money Maker

Bad boys...bad boys...

what you gonna do....

what you gonna do...

when they come for you....

In 1997, I joined the New York City Police Dept. assigned to a specialty unit within the NYC Dept. of Homeless Services. Now as most of you might be asking yourselves, why would I do something like that? How can a "Conscious Brother" join the Police Department; Well, part of it was that I needed to pay tuition for school, second reason was I get full benefits but the real reason is well read the book The Spook who sat by the Door by Sam Greenlee, and you will get a real understanding of why I did it.

..In 2003 I decided to move up the ladder, I am now a New York State Police Instructor
&
..United States Dept. Of Homeland Security ODP Instructor with various other Instructorships beneath my belt.

One of my passions is Djing I have been djing since I was 14 years old. One would say by looking at my baby picture that it was predestined. I have been Djing on Several college campuses in the five boroughs to Strong Island. From Brooklyn College to Suny Stony Brook, I have done over 100 parties deep and have Djed at fashion shows, concerts, comedy shows, step shows, illegal dorm parties etc.

...Do you believe in...

...predestination?

Here are some of the underground radio shows I have DJed at...!!!!!

...Time to Educate the Masses !!!

"The presentation of truth is awesome; to speak it requires courage, to write it is dangerous and to live it guarantees an early death." - Wyatt Walker...

What books have I read lately or Recommend?!

...Now that I have given you the keys

...the question is where is the lock ???

"...The attempt to silence a man is the greatest honor you can bestow on him. It means that you recognize his superiority to yourself..." Joseph Sobran

My HERO !!!

To A Great Man

At 3:30 in the morning on Saturday November 3rd 2001, God decided that he needed my Father in heaven and his mission on earth was over. He was taken by a massive heart attack in his sleep.

Fortunately, I was home from Howard to take care of some business and work in NY when this event happened.

I have the image of myself trying to revive my father through my knowledge of CPR. But was unsuccessful at reviving him God was insistent on taking him I thank God that he took him in his sleep. I only wish that that image wasn?t in my mind as well as my mother?s memory.

I thank God for giving me a father such as him, he truly taught me how to be a Man, a Haitian Man & and a Proud Black Man. He taught me the meaning of loyalty, devotion and undying love to the women that you?re with he taught me and showed me what the meaning of the term, provider for your family meant. Having 2 or 3 jobs wasn?t an issue for him as long as his family had a roof over his their head, warm food in their bellies and clothes on their backs. Many people that knew him knew that he was a very generous man and that he would literally give you the shirt off his back if you needed it. He taught me how to raise kids and also taught me how to care for your family members and your fellow man as well

I inherited my father?s humor cause my father was a jokester and I learned how laughter can cure the ills that are in the mind, & how it can bring about joy where no light is in sight.

He had the survivors skill of doing things for self, so he was literally a Jack of all trades, master of many, He taught me how to fixed cars inside and out, carpenter skills, roofing skills, gardening skills, etc....etc...etc...

My father also kicked me in my %#&@$! Whenever I slacked off to the point that he is one of the many important people that has struck the inspiration, motivation, and drive for me to become the best at anything I do so my Ph.D. Is dedicated not only to my mother and my self but especially to him

My father and I did have fights and disagreements, but looking at it now I only see that he was determined to see me succeed where he couldn?t, and excel further from where he left off.

My father broke many stereo types that society has of black males, uneducated, lazy, good for nothing, drug addicted, non-child support giving, Dogs.

Since the apple doesn?t fall from the tree I guess that?s why some women think that I am too good to be true, well I say nope, just thank my father for showing me the secrets...lol

I am happy that the last image he had of me was his son in a Ph.D. Program at Howard University.

Here are my attempts at poetry...

G. A. M. E	You're not ready for what you want?!	Your Past Scares Me!!!
Going After Mademoiselle Effortlessly Ok here we go on another poem spree About some life experience that just came to be Sweetie, sit down and let me explain I'll try to make this nice, simple and plain You say I got GAME, well is that the case When we first started a conversation at my place Candles lit the house, incense in the air As we laid on the futon at the TV we stared Can I sell ice to Eskimos, fire in hell Water to wells, now that's a great sell Women have told me, how they hate Hearing my voice as they masturbate Cause it?s soothing, calming and I know what to say When hobby?s not around or they?re having a bad day Or could it be the flowers & trinkets that I display When your boyfriends out boning some chick today Could it be, when you needed someone to listened to you And your boyfriend looked perplexed & didn?t have a clue Could it have been when you were at work I came to visit Your favorite dessert I bring, it was quite exquisite You stood there and looked at me, and couldn't believe What levels of intimacies this guy? Strives to achieve What is your plan Rick, to get in between my thighs? That?s why you?re pumping my head full of these lies No my darling not at all, As you take a sip of that sweetened alcohol I just want to be your friend? That?s all I want to be Do what friends do, watch and you'll see Loyalty, Respect, Admiration and Trust Is what I?m trying to give you, I'm not trying to bus? All up in you, as I?m stroking your thighs Passion rises in you and to both our surprise You straddled my legs as you laid me down on my bed, Then you proceeded to give me some good %#&@$! Head I lay there and smiled, watching you for a while Getting a taste of your flavor, hey I reciprocated the favor Then, you whispered in my ear, protection is a must Cause as I?m riding you inside of me you cannot bus?? Misbehaving all night is what we did Acting silly and teasing each other as kids You woke up the next morning and couldn?t believe That we accomplished the mission we BOTH wanted to achieve So with an astonished look, you uttered to me, Boy you got GAME, yeah Rick your real sneaky Sweetie as effortless as it was for me to do I?m sorry to say, but you don?t have a clue Cause all this activity? Is just me being me Doing this and that of course quite frankly I thought for a minute and began to recall The best game is No game sweetie, NO GAME AT ALL! Copyright Observer1	Here we are laying naked on this bed Tears from your eyes about what I said I lay here in frustration and not knowing what to do Wondering what to say next cause I don?t have a clue We just had sex or were it that we made love? Only you and God know way up above Could that be the reason, you turned around and cried The cold, hard, reality revealed to you deep inside You are having strong feelings for this guy right here Your body says yes but your heart is not so clear Cause you are holding onto the memories of the brother before You remember the one you were crazy about and so, so sure That he wouldn't break your heart and he is so fine Dinners, movies, dancing, gifts? he WAS so kind Closeness & intimacies that you shared with him However, the sunshine that he brought to you started to dim Phone numbers in the pocket, no calls at night Having unprotected sex, now that wasn?t so bright Playing with your emotions bringing you down from that height? From the gynecologist, news that brings to you a fright The break up was traumatic, the period after was sad Depression, anger, hatred & mistrust are the feelings that you had You want that love back so much, that sense of trust Feelings of security and lots of lust You want the dancing, dinner, movies and such Feelings of being desired you wanted so much Now you are in a new relationship, and as before He is providing what you wanted, but you wonder what's in store Your experience about the past make you hesitate at first Feelings that you want to release but are there like a curse So you flip for no reason, starting fights with him Revenge is the motive, cause he has committed the sin The sin of being a male? Whatever that means Cause all males are the same, ha, that's what your girls deems So here you are in the bed, crying about what I said Are we having sex? or are we making love? Now only God knows the answer up above As questions on these pressing issues starts to taught The fact of the matter is? You?re not ready for what you want	Day after day, I wish you didn't tell... Me about your past, cause now it rings a bell Whenever you talked about the dirt you did %#&@$!in that girls? man and that other kid's You told me about how slick you and he was boning on your mind, cause that what he does Main girl leaving, as you entered his dorm You doing this on a constant like it?s the norm How about your EX coming over, taking about his main girl As you get on your knees and give his bone a swirl He claims, this is not cheating between you and I As your look around trying not to get caught playing I-Spy Remember the time you went out with this kat for 2 years Insecurity in your life, you couldn?t rule your fears So you met this other kat fine as can be He's %#&@$!ing you real hard as you say...Bye Honey On the phone cause you man's not around We laughed about that brother as if he?s a clown As you let this kat bus? all inside You?re thinking he going to slow down & make you his bride The problem is that it?s all in your past As you got tired of being disrespected and being last You want to be trusted, and start a new relationship You want a man that?s trustworthy and who won?t dip But I don?t think I can give that to you, cause just the other day You told me about the marriage of your EX and he?s asking you to stray One more time for ole times sake Then your vision becomes blurry or was it opaque Cause the answer you should have told him was no But to him your answer was hey its good to go

F. E. A. R	R.A.G.E.	I MISS YOU...IN SILENCE
Finding Excuses As Reason? Is what I see When hearing you complain and talking to me What is it that you fear so much ? Why does it have you like this Looking out for this and that instead of being in relationship bliss I know that your history plays a big role Someone hurt you deep down into your soul You cried many nights, didn?t eat a bite Things that were normal now don?t feel right But what makes you think you are alone I?ve been through that to Feeling sad, miserable, lonely and blue Feeling like what?s a person to do Feeling like no one understands what you?re going through Now God presents you with another relationship One that maybe better then before One with many promises and a whole lot of fun in store One filled with loyalty, friendship, respect and trust One filled with discipline, caring, lots of love and a lil? lust Our friendship has endured the good times and bad You have seen me in all aspects and all types of fad I carry some baggage with me just like you Life has been rough to me and has tainted my view I have become suspicious, of everyone that comes my way But I have realize that life isn?t black and white, it?s somewhat gray God brought people into my life to teach me about myself To see the harmful ways and reveal them from stealth To wake me out of my restful sleep And break the chains that make me weak To make me stronger in my life And bring this strength out of you Stop using excuses & preventing This blessing being brought to you Finding Excuses As Reason Is what needs to stop this is true In order to experience The true love that I have Ms. That?s right my love only for you!	REACTING AGAINST GUT ENSTICNT People always ask me why I am so calm When life brings me all these negative situations & emotional bombs They ask me why I don?t do this and that Lower my self to the level of a rat I tell them that I choose to deal with my emotions in a creative way Dealing with these people day after day Poetry is one way I choose to release Instead of releasing out the inward beast I couldn?t be you?, said a friend I would have done this or that and laws I would bend To make this person feel my pain With their blood on the carpet I would stain I told her you don?t know me, and the things I have done If you want to know here lets have a run I remember the time A close friend stole from me Money, stereo, cell phone, beeper, including my dignity I felt the anger deep in my gut So outside his window I sat in the cut With two of my boys, we had gats in hand A drive by was needed I had to make a stand I glanced at the window in his crib And saw him attaching to his baby boy a bib I thought long and hard if these gats should rip A fatherless baby would lie because I flipped I remembered the time? These white boys were on strike Drunken, racist bastards wielding pikes Off to work I go guarding the place Getting punched, kicked, spat upon, even maced The rage spurred up in me anger at hand While 5-0 standing there with this drunken band All I could do was stand there in a frightened state As pictures of my ancestors and lynch mobs hate I have now experienced how it was long ago Experience is a good teacher now, don?t you know It taught me about the people that I have known for a while And the hatred they have for me behind that smile I remember the time This girl I loved, we were close as can be Friends for two years yeah quite friendly I loved her, cared for her, gave her my heart & truss' Little did I know that this would soon bust My feelings, emotions, dignity and pride Were all shattered deep down inside When I heard her in her room moaning and such To another mans thrusting inside of her? he bus? So rage takes over and I pull from my bag My police service glock I looked in it to have At least three bullets I counted in the clip As once again I wanted to flip One for her, one for him, and definitely one for me Cause jail isn?t my style after this lil' crime spree As I turned the door knob to bring this to an end My cell buzzed off it was a close friend I explained to her what I was going to do God if the silly weak %#&@$! only knew That she was saved by a stranger on that day Cause into my head rage had its play But I learned that Reacting Against Gut E?nstinct Is what you should do, For those that react without thinking They don?t have a clue It makes you a stronger & better human being And that?s a fact Instead of lowering yourself to their level man that?s wack People say that you?re a fool for putting up with that But where are these people now cause they didn?t know how to act	We had that argument two weeks ago I hate being away from you, yeah now you know I think about you day after day It pains me to wonder why you stay away Is it as hard for me as it is for you No email, snail mail or phone call, I don?t have a clue As to how you are, or what you are doing Excuse me for a minute that?s my phone that?s ringing I really hate that %#&@$! very, very much Someone reaching out to me trying to touch But just breathing on the phone, like a stalker at hand Now this my dear I don?t understand Well back to the idea and thought at hand Staring at your picture, I begin to pan Across the room at my keys I pick them up and then I freeze I ponder the thought to go to see you But my mind says no, and I don?t know what to do Stubbornness, hatred, anger and pride Argue with other feelings deep down inside My love for you interrupts this argument and fight Getting into my car, I go on this flight So I hit the highway to see you While thinking of what to say or what to do I get to your apartment and walk to the door About to knock, but I don?t know what?s in store I look into your window and what do I see You laying across your futon, stroking your puppy You pick up your phone and dial a number I see Could it be your mother, a friend, or some other gee? Anger stirs up inside me and begins to rise Am I in store for a nasty surprise I sit back and watch as you let it ring Then my collie goes off with a distinctive ring Who is calling me right now, what the hell Oh I forgot I forwarded my calls to my cell I answered it as quiet as I can And there is the silence I don?t understand Then I look up slowly towards your way I let out a sigh of relief thinking its ok So that?s who it is doing this to me Now the silence has meaning, meaning I see For when you hung up, my anxiety disappeared For that phone call I saw, I shouldn?t have feared I miss the sound of your voice I whispered too you I wish this whole thing would stop and us to be true True to the feelings that are between me and you For us to draw a truce, and find the right things to do As you sit there in silence, you actions speak so loud I sit there also secretive in my lil? shroud Thinking what can I say, or what can you do So we can bring back that Love between me and you