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Member Since September 25, 1999

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Location Brentwood, NY

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Race Black

Education Master's Degree

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Observer1







"...You are looking at the PhD bound Graduate Student in Psychology at Stony Brook University..."







...Now a little "sum thing...sum thing" about me!!!!



I am of Haitian Decent, what does that mean to some of you. Well it means that it took the kidnapping, pain, mutilating, suffering, mental enslavement, raping of my African sistah`s in the Middle Passage, to back breaking work from sun up to sun down in the fields & mines of Haiti; also the belief & faith in God, ancestral leadership and guidance, our will to survive, strong family bonds, strong fighting spirit, rebellion, and the crushing defeat of our four mighty oppressors (France, Spain, England & a young United States) at that time to make...ME !!!!!
It sort of gives new meaning to the verse in the bible ?No weapon formed against me shall prosper!




My Money Maker


Bad boys...bad boys... what you gonna do....what you gonna do...when they come for you....




In 1997, I joined the New York City Police Dept. assigned to a specialty unit within the NYC Dept. of Homeless Services. Now as most of you might be asking yourselves, why would I do something like that? How can a "Conscious Brother" join the Police Department; Well, part of it was that I needed to pay tuition for school, second reason was I get full benefits but the real reason is well read the book The Spook who sat by the Door by Sam Greenlee, and you will get a real understanding of why I did it.







..In 2003 I decided to move up the ladder, I am now a New York State Police Instructor
&
..United States Dept. Of Homeland Security ODP Instructor with various other Instructorships beneath my belt.








One of my passions is Djing I have been djing since I was 14 years old. One would say by looking at my baby picture that it was predestined. I have been Djing on Several college campuses in the five boroughs to Strong Island. From Brooklyn College to Suny Stony Brook, I have done over 100 parties deep and have Djed at fashion shows, concerts, comedy shows, step shows, illegal dorm parties etc.






...Do you believe in......predestination?


Here are some of the underground radio shows I have DJed at...!!!!!



...Time to Educate the Masses !!!





"The presentation of truth is awesome; to speak it requires courage, to write it is dangerous and to live it guarantees an early death." - Wyatt Walker...
What books have I read lately or Recommend?!







...Now that I have given you the keys...the question is where is the lock ???
"...The attempt to silence a man is the greatest honor you can bestow on him. It means that you recognize his superiority to yourself..." Joseph Sobran








My HERO !!!

To A Great Man





At 3:30 in the morning on Saturday November 3rd 2001, God decided that he needed my Father in heaven and his mission on earth was over. He was taken by a massive heart attack in his sleep.



Fortunately, I was home from Howard to take care of some business and work in NY when this event happened.



I have the image of myself trying to revive my father through my knowledge of CPR. But was unsuccessful at reviving him God was insistent on taking him I thank God that he took him in his sleep. I only wish that that image wasn?t in my mind as well as my mother?s memory.



I thank God for giving me a father such as him, he truly taught me how to be a Man, a Haitian Man & and a Proud Black Man. He taught me the meaning of loyalty, devotion and undying love to the women that you?re with he taught me and showed me what the meaning of the term, provider for your family meant. Having 2 or 3 jobs wasn?t an issue for him as long as his family had a roof over his their head, warm food in their bellies and clothes on their backs. Many people that knew him knew that he was a very generous man and that he would literally give you the shirt off his back if you needed it. He taught me how to raise kids and also taught me how to care for your family members and your fellow man as well



I inherited my father?s humor cause my father was a jokester and I learned how laughter can cure the ills that are in the mind, & how it can bring about joy where no light is in sight.



He had the survivors skill of doing things for self, so he was literally a Jack of all trades, master of many, He taught me how to fixed cars inside and out, carpenter skills, roofing skills, gardening skills, etc....etc...etc...



My father also kicked me in my %#&@$! Whenever I slacked off to the point that he is one of the many important people that has struck the inspiration, motivation, and drive for me to become the best at anything I do so my Ph.D. Is dedicated not only to my mother and my self but especially to him



My father and I did have fights and disagreements, but looking at it now I only see that he was determined to see me succeed where he couldn?t, and excel further from where he left off.



My father broke many stereo types that society has of black males, uneducated, lazy, good for nothing, drug addicted, non-child support giving, Dogs.



Since the apple doesn?t fall from the tree I guess that?s why some women think that I am too good to be true, well I say nope, just thank my father for showing me the secrets...lol


I am happy that the last image he had of me was his son in a Ph.D. Program at Howard University.



Here are my attempts at poetry...














G. A. M. E You're not ready for what you want?! Your Past Scares Me!!!
Going After Mademoiselle Effortlessly


Ok here we go on another poem spree

About some life experience that just came to be

Sweetie, sit down and let me explain

I'll try to make this nice, simple and plain



You say I got GAME, well is that the case

When we first started a conversation at my place

Candles lit the house, incense in the air

As we laid on the futon at the TV we stared



Can I sell ice to Eskimos, fire in hell

Water to wells, now that's a great sell



Women have told me, how they hate

Hearing my voice as they masturbate

Cause it?s soothing, calming and I know what to say

When hobby?s not around or they?re having a bad day



Or could it be the flowers & trinkets that I display

When your boyfriends out boning some chick today

Could it be, when you needed someone to listened to you

And your boyfriend looked perplexed & didn?t have a clue



Could it have been when you were at work I came to visit

Your favorite dessert I bring, it was quite exquisite

You stood there and looked at me, and couldn't believe

What levels of intimacies this guy? Strives to achieve



What is your plan Rick, to get in between my thighs?

That?s why you?re pumping my head full of these lies

No my darling not at all,

As you take a sip of that sweetened alcohol



I just want to be your friend? That?s all I want to be

Do what friends do, watch and you'll see

Loyalty, Respect, Admiration and Trust

Is what I?m trying to give you, I'm not trying to bus?



All up in you, as I?m stroking your thighs

Passion rises in you and to both our surprise

You straddled my legs as you laid me down on my bed,

Then you proceeded to give me some good %#&@$! Head



I lay there and smiled, watching you for a while

Getting a taste of your flavor, hey I reciprocated the favor



Then, you whispered in my ear, protection is a must

Cause as I?m riding you inside of me you cannot bus??



Misbehaving all night is what we did

Acting silly and teasing each other as kids

You woke up the next morning and couldn?t believe

That we accomplished the mission we BOTH wanted to achieve



So with an astonished look, you uttered to me,

Boy you got GAME, yeah Rick your real sneaky

Sweetie as effortless as it was for me to do

I?m sorry to say, but you don?t have a clue



Cause all this activity? Is just me being me

Doing this and that of course quite frankly

I thought for a minute and began to recall

The best game is No game sweetie,

NO GAME AT ALL!

Copyright Observer1
Here we are laying naked on this bed

Tears from your eyes about what I said

I lay here in frustration and not knowing what to do

Wondering what to say next cause I don?t have a clue


We just had sex or were it that we made love?

Only you and God know way up above

Could that be the reason, you turned around and cried

The cold, hard, reality revealed to you deep inside


You are having strong feelings for this guy right here

Your body says yes but your heart is not so clear

Cause you are holding onto the memories of the brother before

You remember the one you were crazy about and so, so sure


That he wouldn't break your heart and he is so fine

Dinners, movies, dancing, gifts? he WAS so kind

Closeness & intimacies that you shared with him

However, the sunshine that he brought to you started to dim


Phone numbers in the pocket, no calls at night

Having unprotected sex, now that wasn?t so bright

Playing with your emotions bringing you down from that height?

From the gynecologist, news that brings to you a fright


The break up was traumatic, the period after was sad

Depression, anger, hatred & mistrust are the feelings that you had


You want that love back so much, that sense of trust

Feelings of security and lots of lust

You want the dancing, dinner, movies and such

Feelings of being desired you wanted so much


Now you are in a new relationship, and as before

He is providing what you wanted, but you wonder what's in store

Your experience about the past make you hesitate at first

Feelings that you want to release but are there like a curse


So you flip for no reason, starting fights with him

Revenge is the motive, cause he has committed the sin

The sin of being a male? Whatever that means

Cause all males are the same, ha, that's what your girls deems


So here you are in the bed, crying about what I said

Are we having sex? or are we making love?

Now only God knows the answer up above

As questions on these pressing issues starts to taught

The fact of the matter is?

You?re not ready for what you want

Day after day, I wish you didn't tell...

Me about your past, cause now it rings a bell

Whenever you talked about the dirt you did

%#&@$!in that girls? man and that other kid's


You told me about how slick you and he was

boning on your mind, cause that what he does

Main girl leaving, as you entered his dorm

You doing this on a constant like it?s the norm


How about your EX coming over, taking about his main girl

As you get on your knees and give his bone a swirl

He claims, this is not cheating between you and I

As your look around trying not to get caught playing I-Spy


Remember the time you went out with this kat for 2 years

Insecurity in your life, you couldn?t rule your fears

So you met this other kat fine as can be

He's %#&@$!ing you real hard as you say...Bye Honey


On the phone cause you man's not around

We laughed about that brother as if he?s a clown

As you let this kat bus? all inside

You?re thinking he going to slow down & make you his bride


The problem is that it?s all in your past

As you got tired of being disrespected and being last

You want to be trusted, and start a new relationship

You want a man that?s trustworthy and who won?t dip


But I don?t think I can give that to you, cause just the other day

You told me about the marriage of your EX and he?s asking you to stray


One more time for ole times sake

Then your vision becomes blurry or was it opaque

Cause the answer you should have told him was no

But to him your answer was hey its good to go













F. E. A. R R.A.G.E. I MISS YOU...IN SILENCE
Finding Excuses As Reason?

Is what I see

When hearing you complain and talking to me


What is it that you fear so much
?
Why does it have you like this

Looking out for this and that instead of

being in relationship bliss


I know that your history plays a big role

Someone hurt you deep down into your soul

You cried many nights, didn?t eat a bite

Things that were normal now don?t feel right


But what makes you think you are alone

I?ve been through that to

Feeling sad, miserable, lonely and blue

Feeling like what?s a person to do

Feeling like no one understands what you?re going through


Now God presents you with another relationship

One that maybe better then before

One with many promises and a whole lot of fun in store


One filled with loyalty, friendship, respect and trust

One filled with discipline, caring, lots of love and a lil? lust

Our friendship has endured the good times and bad

You have seen me in all aspects and all types of fad


I carry some baggage with me just like you

Life has been rough to me and has tainted my view

I have become suspicious, of everyone that comes my way

But I have realize that life isn?t black and white, it?s somewhat gray


God brought people into my life to teach me about myself

To see the harmful ways and reveal them from stealth

To wake me out of my restful sleep

And break the chains that make me weak


To make me stronger in my life

And bring this strength out of you

Stop using excuses & preventing

This blessing being brought to you


Finding Excuses As Reason

Is what needs to stop this is true



In order to experience

The true love that I have Ms.

That?s right my love only for you!

REACTING AGAINST GUT ENSTICNT


People always ask me why I am so calm

When life brings me all these negative situations & emotional bombs

They ask me why I don?t do this and that

Lower my self to the level of a rat


I tell them that I choose to deal with my emotions in a creative way

Dealing with these people day after day

Poetry is one way I choose to release

Instead of releasing out the inward beast


I couldn?t be you?, said a friend

I would have done this or that and laws I would bend

To make this person feel my pain

With their blood on the carpet I would stain


I told her you don?t know me, and the things I have done

If you want to know here lets have a run


I remember the time

A close friend stole from me

Money, stereo, cell phone, beeper, including my dignity


I felt the anger deep in my gut

So outside his window I sat in the cut

With two of my boys, we had gats in hand

A drive by was needed I had to make a stand


I glanced at the window in his crib

And saw him attaching to his baby boy a bib

I thought long and hard if these gats should rip

A fatherless baby would lie because I flipped


I remembered the time?

These white boys were on strike

Drunken, racist bastards wielding pikes

Off to work I go guarding the place

Getting punched, kicked, spat upon, even maced


The rage spurred up in me anger at hand

While 5-0 standing there with this drunken band

All I could do was stand there in a frightened state

As pictures of my ancestors and lynch mobs hate


I have now experienced how it was long ago

Experience is a good teacher now, don?t you know

It taught me about the people that I have known for a while

And the hatred they have for me behind that smile


I remember the time

This girl I loved, we were close as can be

Friends for two years yeah quite friendly

I loved her, cared for her, gave her my heart & truss'


Little did I know that this would soon bust

My feelings, emotions, dignity and pride

Were all shattered deep down inside

When I heard her in her room moaning and such

To another mans thrusting inside of her? he bus?


So rage takes over and I pull from my bag

My police service glock I looked in it to have

At least three bullets I counted in the clip

As once again I wanted to flip

One for her, one for him, and definitely one for me

Cause jail isn?t my style after this lil' crime spree


As I turned the door knob to bring this to an end

My cell buzzed off it was a close friend

I explained to her what I was going to do

God if the silly weak %#&@$! only knew

That she was saved by a stranger on that day

Cause into my head rage had its play


But I learned that Reacting Against Gut E?nstinct

Is what you should do,

For those that react without thinking

They don?t have a clue


It makes you a stronger & better human being

And that?s a fact

Instead of lowering yourself to their level man that?s wack


People say that you?re a fool for putting up with that

But where are these people now cause they didn?t know how to act

We had that argument two weeks ago

I hate being away from you, yeah now you know

I think about you day after day

It pains me to wonder why you stay away


Is it as hard for me as it is for you

No email, snail mail or phone call, I don?t have a clue

As to how you are, or what you are doing

Excuse me for a minute that?s my phone that?s ringing


I really hate that %#&@$! very, very much

Someone reaching out to me trying to touch

But just breathing on the phone, like a stalker at hand

Now this my dear I don?t understand


Well back to the idea and thought at hand

Staring at your picture, I begin to pan

Across the room at my keys

I pick them up and then I freeze


I ponder the thought to go to see you

But my mind says no, and I don?t know what to do

Stubbornness, hatred, anger and pride

Argue with other feelings deep down inside


My love for you interrupts this argument and fight

Getting into my car, I go on this flight

So I hit the highway to see you

While thinking of what to say or what to do


I get to your apartment and walk to the door

About to knock, but I don?t know what?s in store

I look into your window and what do I see

You laying across your futon, stroking your puppy


You pick up your phone and dial a number I see

Could it be your mother, a friend, or some other gee?

Anger stirs up inside me and begins to rise

Am I in store for a nasty surprise


I sit back and watch as you let it ring

Then my collie goes off with a distinctive ring

Who is calling me right now, what the hell

Oh I forgot I forwarded my calls to my cell


I answered it as quiet as I can

And there is the silence I don?t understand

Then I look up slowly towards your way

I let out a sigh of relief thinking its ok


So that?s who it is doing this to me

Now the silence has meaning, meaning I see

For when you hung up, my anxiety disappeared

For that phone call I saw, I shouldn?t have feared


I miss the sound of your voice I whispered too you

I wish this whole thing would stop and us to be true

True to the feelings that are between me and you

For us to draw a truce, and find the right things to do


As you sit there in silence, you actions speak so loud

I sit there also secretive in my lil? shroud

Thinking what can I say, or what can you do

So we can bring back that Love between me and you












Well I got to go for now!!!!


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