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WOW... IT`S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I`VE UPDATED THIS PAGE!! WELL IT`S DEF TIME FOR A CHANGE. SOME VERRRY IMPORTANT THINGS HAVE HAPPENED SINCE I`VE WRITTEN ABOUT LOST LOVES, BROKEN HEARTS, AND BEING DISSED.

I HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO FIND SOMEONE WITH WHOM I AM ON THE SAME VIBRATION... SOMEONE WHO SHARES MY PASSIONS AND ASPIRATIONS. HE IS MY INSPIRATION AND I AM HIS. THIS IS THE FIRST MAN I HAVE MET IN MY ENTIRE LIFE WHO RETURNS THE ENERGY I PUT OUT AND I AM ABLE TO RETURN HIS.

SO HERE`S TO LIFE... HERE`S TO LOVE... HERE`S TO FINDING SOMEONE WILLING TO GO ON THE QUEST FOR ULTIMATE TRUTH WITH ME.

A HAIKU FOR HASHIM

WHEN OUR EYES FIRST MET

I FELT THE DEPTH OF YOUR SOUL

WE CREATED LOVE

Souls Mating by Hashim

YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL 2ME,I THINK ABOUT YOU ON A LEVEL I`VE NEVER

EXPERIENCED..SOMETIMES I SEE US AS WE ARE TODAY,OTHERS 5,10 YEARS DOWN THE

LINE..I MARVEL AT YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE&THE INTENSITY IN WHICH U DISPLAY

IT.LEARNING,LIVING&LOVING 2GETHER..MY HEART.

HASHiMiCHELLELOHiM



TO FIND OUT ABOUT THE REAL WAR GOING ON IN AMERIKKKA GO TO THIS PAGE WE NEED FREEDOM!!!





I was told my page needs structure... i`m going to attempt.

i`ve never been the type of girl who wanted to follow much structure.

BUT to give you a better understanding of what`s going on on my page

this is how it is set up. I¿ve listed each separate thought

by a #. Some thoughts are totally random and are listed as

such (Look out for those!!). I hope you can understand now :-)





THIS IS WHAT THEY THINK OF US!!




My Thoughts and comments:



i cannot even begin to communicate the outrage I felt when i read

the newspaper clipping and viewed the pictures of the RACIST PIGS

who dressed in black face for halloween with nooses around their necks.

After the outrage calmed (it`s not gone), the reality of this bullshit

country became even more apparent to me (it`s not a new discovery)...



the pigs who dressed as such in these pictures represent the

majority of white people`s feelings (at least the majority who hold

economic and political power) when it comes to Afrikans in amerikkka.

the majority of them think of us as simpletons, homeboys and worthy to

be lynched. we try so hard to prove them wrong, but this thinking is

internalized in their very beings...

i used to be one who wanted to prove so hard to white people that we can

articulate thoughts, that we are intelligent, that we are good

people... then one day i said fuck it... why should i spend so much of

my time and energy trying to integrate into a system that is set

up for my demise instead of trying to build my own community... instead

of fighting for self determination...



tell me people... who are we looking to be validated by?? these same

pigs who think it`s funny to depict tying a noose around a blackman`s

neck are the same pigs who may one day be your bosses... these are the

same pigs who will tie an institutionalized noose around your

necks.



writing to their schools and national headquarters is a good

idea... it will punish the guilty, but it will not cease the thinking

that goes along with these actions (which is an impossible feat because

this thinking runs rampant). we need to stop looking for validation

from someone who doesn`t give a damn... stop trying to fit in and

conform to be something we can never be... stop contributing to a system

that overall is repaying us with crumbs.



Come on Afrikan people... let`s build!! thoughts... ideas??





***Random Thought

WE ARE A PEOPLE OF INFINITE WISDOM. WE JUST NEED TO

LEARN HOW TO TAP INTO IT AND APPLY IT





***Random Thought

I CAN`T STAND A FOOT SHUFFLING, UNCLE TOM CONFORMIST AZZ NEGRO.





***Random Thought

I can`t promise those who enter my life enlightment... I can only offer

ALL that I am. They will get from the experience what they will. In

some cases it is enlightment.. in others... nothing.





***Random Thought

All Mysteries truths manifest themselves in due time









***Random thought

what i desire most:

to experience ultimate love. to get there i have to fully attune

my body, mind and soul into one. i don`t know if this love will

include another being or if this is a love that will only be between me

and the creator inside of me.





***Random thought

Affairs of the mortal heart:

I fall in love every 15 minutes and fall out of love every 5.





#2)

abstract philosophy to the familiar

stranger



i met a man so dope that

he makes my mind cumm just

by looking at me-

i mean this dude is so fly that

my soul climaxes just by hearing his

voice-

this brotha is so bad that I fiend

for his spirit

and get a serious jones when

he aint around-

this god is so smooth

that he has me speaking in tongues

that

only the holy can decipher-

damn

it got to be a sin to feel this good-

i mean this cat is so real that

time and relativity have

no bearing on the bond we

have solidified between

Blackman and Blackwoman-

how was I so blessed

to be blessed by his presence-

to be touched by his being-

mind seeks mind and my soul

found yours-

damn brotha what else can I say¿

you are Him-



THE ABOVE THOUGHT WAS INSPIRED BY MY

SOUL MATE.

MY SOUL HAS FOUND "HIM".

AND I HAVE FINNALY MET A PHYSICAL BEING THAT EMBODIES ALL THAT I WROTE ABOUT.

I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I NO LONGER PONDER WHETHER SOUL MATES

EXIST OR NOT... INDEED THEY DO. EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING SAYS THAT

THEY DO. AS I WRITE THIS... I CAN FEEL HIS AND MY SOULS MATING.

BEAUTIFUL.





*** Random Thought

there is something very profound missing in my life. i have no idea

what it is or how i will find it.





#3)

PEACE ALL:

FOR THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN KEEPING CURRENT WITH MY PAGE KNOW ABOUT MY STRUGGLES WITH SELF, MEN, HIP HOP, SOCIETY ANDALL THATOTHER JAZZ. THE BIGGEST UPSET WAS MY THOUGHTS ON

DATING OUTSIDE OF MY RACE BECAUSE I WAS FEELING HOPELESS IN REGARDS TO BLACK MEN.



WELL NEW NEWS!!

ALL THINGS EVOLVE... INCLUDING OUR OUTLOOK ON SUBJECTS. EVOLUTION CAN HAPPEN IN A MATTER OF THOUSANDS OF

YEARS OR IN JUST AFEW SECONDS. I HAVE EVOLVED...

WHILE I AM STILL SINGLE AND HAVE YET TO FIND MY SOULMATE I

KNOW THAT WHEN I DO FINDHIM IT WILL HAVE TO BE A BLACK MAN.

I KNOW THAT I CAN NOT BE WHOLELY HAPPY WITH

ANYONE ELSE.



BLACKMEN AND BLACKWOMEN NEED TO KNOW WE COMPLETE EACH OTHER. IT IS THROUGH US THAT WE CAN UNDERSTAND THE DIVINE BOND BETWEEN THE BLACKMAN BLACKWOMAN AND BLACKCHILD.



SO LET IT BE KNOWN THAT THE BLACKMAN IS SUPREME IN MY HEART...



ALL PRAISES TO THE BLACKMAN..

THE ORIGINAL MAN...



#4)

MY NEW QUOTES:



I`D RATHER BE HURT BY THE TRUTH THAN MADE CONTENT WITH A LIE





I am the daughter of slaves. I was born a slave. Shackled not

By physical chains, but mental. It is my job to break those restraints

so my children and their children and their children can be free.





GOD never gives us more than we can handle.

For those of us who it seems have much more than others need to

realize how blessed we are.We have been blessed with the ability to be

resilient against hard times. To survive them and become much

stronger beings.





I will actively search outthe truth.



I will search for God inside of me.



The man that GOD sends me will love me for all that I am

and all that I am not. He will be pleased with what GOD has made.





I will not be validated through the eyes of others.

I am validated because what GOD made is good and

that is me.





I am a constant contradiction of myself.





I am a Black Girl Found





Copyright March 2001



#5)

THIS LIFE IS AN INTERESTING THING... IT IS A CONSTANT SEARCH.

RIGHT NOW I`M ON A SEARCH FOR KNOWLEDGE OF SELF,

LOVE AND FREEDOM. IT SEEMS THAT THESE THINGS WOULD

BE EASY TO COME ACROSS BUT THEY CERTAINLY ARE NOT.

AS SOON AS I THINK I KNOW MYSELF... I EVOLVE...

AS SOON AS I THINK I HAVE FOUND LOVE...

I FIND THAT IT WAS SOMETHING ELSE DISGUISED AS

LOVE... AS SOON AS I THINK I AM TOTALLY FREE I FIND

OUT HOW ENSLAVED I STILL AM.



I`M STARTING TO BELIEVE THAT LIFE WAS EASIER WHEN

I WASN`T CONSCIOUS... AWARE OF CERTAIN THINGS.

I`M LEARNING THAT HAVING KNOWLEDGE IS A RESPONSIBILITY...

AND CAN AT TIMES FEEL LIKE A BURDEN. BUT SINCE THIS

RESPONSIBILITY WAS GIVEN TO ME BY GOD, I WILL CONTINUE...

I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO CONTINUE.

SO UNTIL I FIND KNOWLEDGE OF SELF,

LOVE AND FREEDOM I WILL KEEP ON KEEPING ON.



THIS JOURNEY CAN BE LONELY, SO IF THERE ARE ANY

LIKEMINDED INDIVIDUALS OUT THERE I`D LIKE TO EXCHANGE

THOUGHTS.





The music I`m feeling now: I`M A

LOVER OF HIP HOP CULTURE...BUT I`M

ALSO VERY VERSATILE





Some nicknames I`ve been called:

HMMM...I`M ONLY GOING TO PICK NICE

ONES... SHELLY,MELLY, SHELLY-

MAY...IF YOU WANT TO KNOW

OTHERS...ASK

A quote I like: LIFEIS 90% ATTITUDE





Some of my heroes: MY MOTHER... SHE

IS ONE OF THE STRONGEST WOMEN IN THE

WORLD...SHE IS THE EPITOMY OF THE

COMPLETE CHIQUE UNIQUE BLACK WOMAN