blumonday_01's Blog

you know i'll be the first to admit that i'm rigged with imperfections, and i can be an asshole sometimes. I can be soo bullheaded that its totally rediculous, i've been guilty of holding grudges stupidly. I said all that to say that life is too short to loose relationships/friendships over pettiness. i told myself for 2008 i'm to make a point to not argue or get into spats over pettiness, i'm going to try my best to find a resolution or just let it go. and i wanna surround myself with people who cherish life and relationships like i do. i would hate to have an meaningless arguement with one of my friends or relatives and have them die without us resolving the issue. I guess i'm being really hard on myself because you only get one chance at life...and nothings better than making things right, even if you cant argee its better to agree to disagree and let love blossom!! in 2008 my prayer is that God humbles me, that He helps me to have a watchful eye for wolves in sheeps clothing, and that He helps me further develop unconditional love. Cause people may say they love you but it isnt unconditional love sometimes there are stimpulations......I Will Be Better Than I'Ve BEEn!!!!

Beyonce wrote a song called "Kitty Kat" that is soooo true....and at ths present time in my life it reigns soo true. I really do believe that some men think that they got their woman so wrapped around their fingers that a woman wont step out or even better leave them. Now some women may suffer from self esteem issuses that are so severe that they think that they cant do better or that the reason why their man is stepping out, doing his thing (taking that woman for granted) is because its something that their not doing. Well that aint necessarily true, its probably because hes just a dog and you cant give water to someone who has a thirst that'll never be quentched. I've realized that, and in my closing i'm liberated by this fact. If a man is in the world doing his thing while he has a good girl at home, he should be worried if his girl is stepping out or is making plans to. Especially if he's not taking care of home i.e making sure she's satisfied in the bedroom. Also, ladies you should step out on your man if your not being fulfilled....step right outta that relationship and on to a man thats going to give you what you need.

I realized something in my old age (wink) it really doesnt matter what you do to keep a man happy. He'll never be satisfied, EVER! you can do the freakiest %#&@$! you've ever done in yo life. You can allow other people into your bedroom to satisfy him....and he'll never be happy. I mean you can sex him everyday of the week, i mean no holds barred (oral, anal, %#&@$!l)! And he'll still wanna take his old %#&@$! to the club or whereever because the chase is what turns him on. Just like a junkie, he's not addicted to the drug most times its the process (the belt, the vains, and the needle). I mean its amazing, and after all of that you still gotta deal with bull%#&@$!. ANd it doesnt even have to be sexual, you can change your lifestyle habits, to show him that you know the art of compromise, but does that %#&@$! matter?? HELL NO!!!! Greed is one of the 7ven deadliest sins...and it can kill and destroy something good. My mama told me something recently... and i'm going to adopt it. She said to love yourself and keep busy! She said to relax, your going to run into alot more sleeze than you will beauty, but you have to keep a watchful eye on who's really good for you, because sometimes they're not packaged in the wrapper your used to. Now the blame aint always on the man, because women can be just as bad. And i admit that I let some good ones go because i was under the spell of the posion. Hmm what do i mean by posion? Well, women we can be so used to being treated badly that being treated badly is all that we're used to. And this is very bad, a friend of mine told me something real key...he said "Everyone deserves a clean sheet of paper"! now this is true, but what if every piece of paper you get is recycled...wrote on..then what! As for me i wont allow myself to be played no more i'm cool...I'm not bitter I'm just loving me a little more then I ever have in the past! I'm not going to stop paying attention to things that woud normally raise an eyebrow to me or anybody I know. Need an example? Well here it goes, eyebrow rising things like: If your used to being real active with your man and the activity starts coming to a stretching halt! I mean affection no longers exists. And here's the real deal breaker.. WHen he disappears for days and of course there's always an excuse! I mean someone told me if it looks like a duck, quacks like one and it has an orange beak....then its a duck! In closing, i truly believe that love still exist in the beautiful state that God made it, and that if you prepare yourself to be loved ( by working on you as a person) i.e learning to trust (something i have trouble with), being able to communicate openly, knowing the art of compromise, being honest with your mate about what you want in your mate, having a sense of humor, and of course being a good lover (which means openly expressing what your likes and dislikes are in the bedroom), and last but not least expressing what the boundries are in the friendship. i.e if you have many women/men friends and your mate finds that uncomfortable then it should be discussed. Any Ole ways...i hope this finds everyone who reads this well. I love feed back, leave a note and tell me what you think!!