Tanzswa77's Blog

Hello BP, I love this website and now that everyone is using MySpace and other websites it really gives me a chance to keep doing me.. without all the drama no offense but there are so few people on this website it gives me a chance to be in the background. I really like that.. okay.. mving on

I am looking forward to each day now that I am living for me again. I plan to get some things in order.. the body, the mental .. all that.. people treat you so diff.. when you are not in shape.. so this next time around I feel this will be for me .. The magic number is 154. They say I could not do it.. but I will.. I can't remember when I have seen that number but I know I can do it this time. and by July 2008 ( end ) 8 months. 64 lbs. Can it be done stay tuned to see. So far 218. Each week or at least per month I will keep you up dated.

I am starting to think it's for the best..

Tomorrow brings a new day.. so I'm happy. I look forward to another chance at love

I think.. and I know that God is blessing me .. It's a new day.. better with each day.. I thought I would have a bad day.. but I feel wonderful.. God is good.. all the time.. Enjoy the Jill Scott.. I put that on there for the haters out there.. the lairs and the cheats.. those little girls out there.. without out a daddy that looks for love in all the wrong places.. that can't face their wrongs .. it's all coming back to you.. be ready for the pain and the suffering.. maybe then you will learn a lesson.. I say think you for all you taught me.. You made me stronger for the real woman in my life.. she is already here.. but I am taking my time so she has the Best of ME.

SO hate on me haters.. Jill is all that.. perfect song.. for the phrase in my life.. .. just a moment in time.. waiting on something better.. peace..

God is good.. I just feel great today.. connecting with people I haven't heard from in years.. it feels good to know you are still in someones heart and mind. Jah Bless.

I don't even know how to begin this one.. I guess all I can is I tried to be in it to win it but I think having a sex life and a partner is not in the cards for me. I am not saying I am perfect but what I am saying is I am tired of trying and falling.. I try so hard.. but I am a fool .. and I am tired of falling .. so I just need a break.. I don't understand people I don't understand myself at this point.. I am not laid back .. I got feelings.. i can't just kiss someone today and kiss another person in the same day.. Not judging .. thought I could do it but I can't.. I just need to be alone.. on that level .. I think I am just understanding at least that part.. all you can do is pray and hope that when you are ready that god sends the right person in your life that will appreciate you .. guess I will just pray and wait on that day to come.. until then.. I will just take it easy .. nice and slow.. putting me first.. this life.. is crazy.. it's got to get better one day.. in this level in my life.. I got the home.. good friends .. and family.. maybe.. I am just asking for too much in a good person .. I can love and they can love.. me. I am so sad right now.. I could cry all day.. in fact.. at this point I am so .. depressed.. I can't ven cry.. I am more so numb at this point.. trying to eat.. but I see me not eating for a while.. well at least detoxing right now will be good idea.. Peace out..