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still fawked up

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after all the soul searchin, thinkin i found myself - only to realize i'm as lost as ever//
i take wha u say wit a grain of salt when u make promises - do u keep them? never//

through all the testimonies and thinkin im done - im still fawked up//
after i opened my heart's door thinkin i've won - im still fawked up//
tryin to mask my problems with off the wall events - im still fawked up//
tryin to understand mixed signals & what they meant - im still fawked up//

i talk about it, i be about it, and i stand by my word//
honesty seems to surprise them - like it aint never been heard//

after takin a step back and letting it all go - im still fawked up//
after standing up and lettin my feelings show - im still fawked up//
after i tried, then failed, and then tried again - im still fawked up//
after putting feelings aside and being a friend - im still fawked up//

after all is said and done - im still... fawked... up

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leave her alone

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im so fukkin frustrated because its more than just the thought of her name//

its the sound of her voice, the mention of her homestate, and the questions that drive me insane//

the last time i felt like this about a chick i cant even recall//

but for some reason my heart says "dont stop - give it your all"//

they tell me to quit and let it die - the feelings aint mutual and im wastin my time//

but i cant let go until she belongs to me - until shes not theirs but mine!!//

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loving her

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i wrote this a while back, but today it still applies... i just dont understand how someone can NOT love a woman... peep game:

- Her hair when it's done, & then when I mess it up...
- Her pretty eyes; & lashes when she bats them
- Her pretty smile & str8 teeth...
- Her sexy lips when she glosses them up just right...
- Her goofy a$$ laugh...
- Her tiddays... especially when they're in my mouth

- Her a$$... lawd!!
- Her soft, smooth, silky, caramel colored skin...
- Her curves of her body...
- Her sexy, smooth legs & gentle hands...

- Her sensitivity...
- Her (mental/emotional/physical) strength...
- Her realness

- The softness of her voice...
(except in the morning when she first wakes up)
- The sound of her rough a$$ voice when she first wakes up...

- The sounds of her gentle moans in my ear when I make her feel good & you KNOW she isn't faking it...

- The way she snuggles in really close to me for security...
- The way she shakes when she reaches her peak...
- The way her eyes roll to the back of her head & her toes curl & her body vibrates as she has an orgasm...
- The way she doesn't put her friends before me...
- The way she looks when she steps out the shower/bath, all dripping wet...
- The way she calls me & asks me to come over in the sweetest voice...
- The way she shows how much she misses me...
- The way she gets really horny right before that time of the month & wants me to get it before its too late...
- The way she shows her true feelings through thick & thin..
- The way she expresses her true feelings...
- The look on her face when she's in love...

SMH... how can you NOT love a woman?!

I know I do!

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HER

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her eyes are like stars - they look like all the others
but its her soul, as her fingerprints, that makes her unique
its her charisma and her strength that makes me weak

her workouts are rare and her diet could be better
but its the love that overflows from her heart to mine
its the way her voice and mere presence stops time

her temper is short - sometimes she loses complete control
but its her ability to recognize her faults and flaws
its her honesty that makes me give her my all

her rhythm is a bit off and she cant hold a tune
but its her moans during love making all night long
its the sound of her heartbeat i call my favorite song

her reality is fictitious for she only exists in my dreams
but it is her face to this day that i have not yet seen
its her i patiently wait to one day make my Queen....

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