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The question that puzzled me for so long was " In what way am I different?" My answer was revealed to me on a Sunday.I am no different than the person sitting right next to me. I had been going through something so terrible that the only way out was to call upon Jesus.Just as everyone else on that Sunday morning.The Holy Spirit entered into my body taking me to a place unknown to myself. The feeling of freedom, security, love, patience, and encouragement was a relief to, not only my mind, but my heart and soul. I was so angry for so many reasons at the age of 14. I was confused, hurt , depressed, on top of all that, dealing with the anger dwelling in my spirit. I missed out on my blesings. I walked through life blind ,again, for many years.As time went on I would loose my way falling into the abyss of darkness. The streets became my friend, which for me ,I shouldn't have went there.Totally , my decision.I've learned from my mistakes realizing that alone, I am nothing without Jesus. I am a witness. I am here to spread the Gospel of Jesus. I am still human, so, I have more work to do within myself. As my Pastor would say , " Don't you know what God has done for you? Don't you know that Jesus died on the cross for you and for me?" God is an awesome God. He reigns in my life. Does he reign in yours?

Once there was a child who had no confidence,her self-respect was long gone, her pride was at it's lowest,the integrity of her soul was tainted,self-destruction was her path. No where to run,no where to hide. She had to face those demons. By looking in the mirror to see the very one at fault. Pain settled in her stomach and shame was written on her face. No room for regret. Her spirit was broken.The tears trickle down her brown face onto her lips. She sniffed,sucking in a salt-filled tear. A silence came over her as she felt this warmth surround her. She embraced it. Questions flow rapidly through her head. She asked,"what if i wasn't what people wanted me to be?","what if i were to make my own decisions?","can i think for myself or do i need people to think for me?","do i have my own opinion?" Many emotions came over her as she sat and struggled to deal with herself. Alone she sat,not lonely by far, contemplating on her next move. She picked her head up as she dried her eyes. Said to herself," Self you must take action in changing who you are for your happiness. You must regain your self-respect,pride,integrity,dignity and so forth to become a stronger woman. You have the bloodline of INDEPENDENT WOMAN. You must hold your head on high when you walk. Walk with confidence. Let your inner beauty shine through. Take pride in your appearance. Enjoy becoming a woman, slowly. You don't have to move fast just becasue of others influence. Move at your own pace. " As she finished with her self party. Her soul was lightened,her spirits lifted,the pain was eased,her frown became a smile. This child has become a beginning woman. With the weight lifted , her life was lighter and she struggled no more. The beginning woman has created her own voice , her own style. She has grace and class. She has freedom at last.

Here I am a WOMAN LIKE ME walking the beat to the drum of my heart. The tenderness that flows through my finger tips, FEEL ME!!!!!! The stride of my CONFIDENCE, HEAR ME COMING!!!!! The chosen words I speak, the very definiton of me, UNDERSTAND ME!!!! I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROOOOOOAAAAAAAARRRRRRR!!!! I will not surrender to failure. I love unconditonally. I place myself in my own hands to create a mold of unique quality. Taking from all my experience and placing them strategically in there place for which they stand corrected. No, is not an exception. I will not bow down to level of immaturity. I stand on my own level. I am woman that provides. No one is like me. I am original!!!!!!!

It is human nature to do the things we do. As human beings we are to know right from wrong, What's good and bad,To be true to ourselfs. So i ask, "why must ppl play games as adults? when are men going to be men?, when are woman going to step up to the plate and stop naggin ?, when are parents going to be mother's and father's to their children?, when are we going to realize that until we make a change in our lives things aren't going to change. Human Nature is the way of life. Nature takes it's own course and humans create the karma for her to bite us. My ppl step up.