904music_lover88's Blog

What do you do when the one you trusted,

hurts you?

What do you do when the one you loved,

tried to destroy you?

How do you deal with the fact that he has taken,

your innocence?

Leaving your heart, your soul, your mind constantly,

playing defense?

You don't know what its like to love anymore,

your body is tired, your soul is sore

You search high and low for someone to fill that space

hoping that they will be able to replace

the emptiness that you feel inside

You don't care what happens,

You're just goin along with the ride.

STOP!

Don't continue on this road of misery and unhappiness!

You're still a woman of virtue and greatness!

You are precious, majestic, and God's loving creature

Don't let the troubles and mistakes of your past,

determine your future!

I open my eyes and let these words dwell in me

Now,

My mind is clear,

My soul is free.....

I'm sorry I hurt you

the way I did

to leave you hanging

the way I did

You were oh so good to me

but we just weren't meant to be

from the beginning I knew

that my heart was not with you

I told you my situation

yet you still pressed on

I told you of my feeling for him

yet you still pressed on

I said yes to give it a try

but I knew that all the while

my mind was miles apart

somewhere out there

someone was holding the keys to my heart

However, I am not all to blame

you too caused our relationship to become lame

you did not lie about your feelings for me

but of who you truly were in reality

I'm sorry that I did not stay

but I couldn't and won't live this way

a life of misery and lies

that would forever keep tears in my eyes

Everytime you walk by

 I feel like I'm ready to fly

I never felt this way before

Could this be a new door, to my heart?

I go home thinking about you

and the possibilities of things we could do

take long walks on the beach

and staying out of the reach of the waves

as they kiss our feet.

As we sit on the sand hand in hand

you look into my eyes and say "I Love You" but could this be true?

then, you do the unthinkable

something I thought you would never do

you inch closer to me

all the while my mind is runnin crazy

this is just a dream,

maybe or a much sought reality.

First you feel around my cheeks

and make me feel so meek

then you make the first move

as for me,

I'm just going along with the grove

As our lips touch my body feels many vibes and such

I can hear the heavens singing their heavenly song

giving me the confidence that we did nothing wrong

Now I see that this was meant to be

then we stare at each other as if in a trance

and I can tell by the look in your eyes

that you didn't regret taking that chance

After this kiss

this one kiss

my soul feels anew

a feeling it never knew...

When we first started out,

I had a great feeling that without a doubt,

We would be together

For the rest of our lives.

You gave me such comfort

To you I told

All my thoughts and fears

I thought that with you,

I could get past my tears.

To you I poured out my heart

I guess that's when

Things began to fall apart.

Like a lion

You devoured my inner soul

Tearing my spirit apart,

Limb for limb,

I thought to myself,

How could this have been?

Although I felt I had nothing left,

My love for you was still potent

I still felt that with you

I was more than content

I was too blind to see

That I was in bondage

A slave to a man

Who didn't love me

The way I loved him

Only using me as his object

I meant nothing to him

But as day turned into night

And night into day

My feelings for you diminished

My love for you had gone astray

My battered, weakened soul

Just couldn't tak it anymore!

You brought me to the point

Where I felt less of a person

And that I have no reason.

But thru His grace, support, and REAL love,

I was able to stand and rise above.

So now that you see that I've risen thru the pain,

You try to lure me in

For your own personal gain.

I'm tired of your foolishness

I'm tired of your games

I put my love for you on a shelf

Left to wither and remain lame

It's over, we're thru

Although still scarred,

My heart is no longer attatched to u.

The question arises, is there still a slight chance for this love?

Sadly, but true, the love will never be revived.

The love is lost!

Gone for good!

Gone forever!

There is no hope

No hope for a love lost.....

Longing to be held In warm loving arms To be touched And still feel safe. To be told sweet words That lets me feel That I am special Eventhough I already Know that I am. To be caressed Til the goosebumps disappear. To be able to trust When there seems That there is No one to trust. To be able To share my Deepest thoughts Without being condemned Of past mistakes. To cherish every Moment with you And never regret The day I said yes. To feel the warmth Of your skin As we make music The way it should be. Longing to be With that person, That special person

****LiEs****

All these words of deceit,

These words of lies

These words left me scarred

Swollen eyes from all the cries

Why not speak the truth

Why did you lead me on

Your road of lies

Upon me they dawned

Your words mean nothing to me

Now that I've lost trust

The times when you told me you loved me

Were false for you said it out of lust

When those three words

Aren't said from the heart

You leave a person

Quite torn apart

For them to find out

Your words weren't true

Leaves anger & frustrations & distrust in you