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Change

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If anyone is aware the heartbeat of the earth has almost double in MHz from 7.8MHz to almost 13MHz so you all have wondered why the world and every one around you seems to be going crazy. The profound effects of this change effects the human body so much that your mind has reacted to things that used to maybe not bother you. My question is why is that not told on the news? So in this as a result  your insights can widen and understand that there are big changes coming. There is duality that comes into play what the general public would call good and evil but for so long we have been controlled as to how to think and what to think. The vale is falling and this is their last ditch effort to keep you from knowing how much power as a human you do have. For a person to walk in to a room or building or what ever it may be at the time and just start shooting is beyond any reasoning but understand these people have something inside of them that has festered and all it takes is the right wire to tap or switch to flip; Like a friend of mine always says "AND GO"  if You are curious as to why these violent things are happening on a daily basis even more than it did say maybe a year ago .  This is the effects of the change in your enviornment 

This is a just a small statement that was on my mind for some time now.

B P Needs An Over Hual

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I have been receiving the dumbest bu%*$@!& on my page. I am only here to socialize and meet new people but apparently BP has launched an attack on its users. The recent comments have been some stupid dumb ass shit that I can’t even explain. What the fuck…….. I am so angry. I have had to delete comments from my friends that I know dang on well they did not send simply because I don’t have stupid friends. So why is BP doing this??!!!!! I don’t know. Maybe someone has hacked the site I’m afraid to think of what the true deal is. Why would I send a dumb ass comment to someone that I just had a beautiful and stimulating conversation with or someone that I consider to be just a friend some thing about a crush. I am highly upset as you can see because this is and infringement on my free will and privacy. This is the last place that I would expect that but apparently I am highly mistaken so I am posting this for reasons listed above. Please Black Planet don’t do what the rest of the world does is impose views and values that we come here to get away from.

About Me

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I needed to share this. Well there has been some dramatic changes in my life furthermore I have to say that I have taken some risk; but we will see exactly how it is going to turn out. I have not really been the type of person to be alone, so with that written you understand that there has always been some man some where at all times. I have only recently decided to just let a relationship go that I had been holding on to for many years. I love him but things must change and evolve always. I was only there out of habit, and fear of the unknown; Pretty sad to admit but its true. I have grown and learned allot about how people do connect whether it be physical and/or mental. While there with him I tried every thing to make it work including all that he thought I should do. I read books, listen to lectures, asked for advice etc. So in a nutshell my knowledge on relationships between a man and a woman is a tremendous skill that I posses. I certainly did all the things that was essential to make him want to stay with me. The truth of the matter is; did I really want it? That has been a long burning question in the back of my mind for about three years now, only being a fraction of the time we had been together. I thought I needed him so badly that I would put up with all kinds of idiosyncrasies that a female with confidence as well as having any opportunity that is conceivable, would not tolerate. Yes, I had my weak times as well where I was not so good myself; but he chose to be with me regardless no matter what I did, he was still there. With immaturity I entered into a union that was doomed from the beginning. I thought that I could change his mind about me and the things that transpired between him and I. Moreover GOD knows that I forgave him every time he hurt me.( IE) Cheated, disrespected, argue for no apparent reason, stay out all night with no phone call , females calling the house. If you could imagine it, like Murphy's law it happened. (Don't believe in that any longer!) What you think about is what you bring about!!!!!!!!!! I am a woman that understands that if you want a man to be with you; I do all that is fundamental to get and keep him so in that department I have no difficulties . The problem was were we meant to be together? Was he the right type of person for me? He had it all for what I could see physically, mentally, financially. But the way he grew up was lacking in so many areas as far as nurturing from his parents. Yes his family are all doctors, judges, professors and all that you would consider to be the cream of the crop in society: but if the caring and rearing of a child is lacking how can that person mature and become caring them selves unless they make the decision to break the mold; if you will. How is it that a man says he wants to be with you but never try to change or at least sacrifice a little? Money is not the end all be all, when you die you cant take it with you. LOL That was his way of showing me don't get me wrong material things are nice but I wanted the emotional parts the connecting of souls, sharing of feeling. If you don' t tell a person how you feel about them how are you really truly supposed to know it. So here I am now, looking in the mirror and asking myself why did I waste all that time? I am not getting any younger.... Fortunately I understand that life is only what you perceive it to be. So I have done all that I could do and now it is time for more growth, connectedness, ending of a long slumber in addition being open to awareness that brings self closer to Truth. Life is wonderful and I am going to make the most out of while I am here in this holographic situation, while occupying this physical body. I am no longer dependent upon another person to make me happy. Everything I need and want is coming from within and the Prime Creator is the one that has my back. The knowledge that I am seeking and learning on a daily basis is enough to sustain my life force as well as keep me moving forward. My love for the world is unbounded and condition less, my positiveness will and has been known to make others feel better. My prior statement is for those that decide that you want to be my friend however keep in mind that I can only share my space and spirit with those that are positive. Peace, Love & Light Lanie

Twin Flames Reunite

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Strange they can be............. One day I went to sleep and I came upon a river where the water was so blue it looked like a painting. In front of me across the river there stood the Washington monument with many stairs. The color was so bright white it almost seemed difficult to look at. The sun beaming down on my skin so warm I'm thinking to my self. I begin to walk towards the water because all I know is I need to get a cross to the other side. I m wondering; why I want to go over to the other side so bad????? My chest starts to get warm like you feel when you think you love someone. Passion wells up in your chest it feels like it is about to burst. I need to know I am being pulled over like a magnet. Suddenly I realize that actually floated to the other side and landed right where I wanted (needed) to be. I have this long flowing dress on that looks of opal essences and pearls with crystals lain in the edges of the dress. The colors change as I move almost as if I am in the water the material flows. I look up at the top of the stairs which seem so far too far I need to get up there. From in the distance I see this face so familiar I know him we are speaking but not moving any lips his eyes so bright and happy to see me. It was so quick how we just floated towards each other it was like warp speed He says to me I'm here with no voice to ear. His skin of brown caramel complexion so clear it looks like you could see right through him akin to tans lucidness. He says "I have been looking all over for you why is it that it took so long for me to find you, why did you go away? I look at him in wonder trying to figure out where I knew him. I can't remember; all I know is that he is so familiar his look, as he smiles. His touch as he reaches out to me and gently caresses my chin and the back of my neck. This happiness that I could see was like nothing I experienced in recent times. He grabbed me so tight I could feel his heart beating from his chest on my ear so loudly. Fast was its pace. I love him I know he is from somewhere I used to be in the past maybe in the future. The chills that race down my spine is like something touching you but you can't see it...... thrilling but scary. He is so tall I have to look up like you would to the sky just to gaze into his eyes. He told me that he had a mission to complete and he could not tell me for fear they would come and take me away from him, he missed me all this time and he was not going to allow for us to be separated again. I saw and felt his concern. So serious was his gaze there was no mistaken how sever the whole situation is/was he is gazing into my eyes the love emanating from him was so intense I almost felt as if I was heating from the inside out nothing to do with the sun beating down upon us. I am so filled with the notion that I want to go with him I almost immediately feel this great sadness come over me. I say to him "Please don't go. What will I do, I need to know where and what we are." He says "it will come to you in time. You already know but give it a moment it will come." He sits on a stair and pulls me down with him where I am in between his legs and all I can see and feel is me hugging his left leg for dear life. I wanted it to last for ever but I know I have to let him go. In silence we sit watching the others walk but float in a manner of speaking. So busy the streets but almost like we were in our own sacred space, sort of a barrier (bubble). It was a while before he actually stood up to proceed with his mission but it was enough for me to receive all that I needed to allow him to move forward with his undertaking. Passion makes us do and think mysterious things that may seem so far fetched but understand all fiction comes from truth. Whether it is here in this dimension or another we all have other universes were we dwell and snippets come to us in day dreaming sleep dreaming, and so forth. Reality is a holographic matrix. So can you tell me would you partake of the blue pill or the red on? He could have very well been my twin flame. He is not here in the dimension but waits for me to return. Maybe he did lose track of me for my childish worldly ways that took me so far into false hood that he could not feel my vibration, so full of fear and anger. I was so bitter with how the world is and why did I have to dwell in it, because I know that I don't really truly belong here; if you will? I allowed myself to place faith into those that did not have my best interest at heart. So after the disappointments I turned it into anger and resentment. I took it out on a lot of those that were around me and in return my life was difficult so it is just a vicious cycle that happens when we are asleep and blame all things and every one else for our troubles when the root cause of it all is you (ME).

A New World

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What would you say if all the things that you dreamed about were possible? Would you decline to listen or read; For fear of success or the possibility of having all that you want with no difficulties. Are we attracted to making things hard for ourselves?????????????? Do you walk around and critize yourself for the silly things you do? Beat your self up verbally or just think about yourself in a bad light? Are you your worst critic? Thoughts are energy and to think something is to give it power. Energy manifest if you are just at the right frequency. Frequency meaning feelings of extreme tremendous happiness or intense angriness or feelings of sadness and or disappointed makes our greatess desire or what we fear the most come to past with very little effort. If there was a world with out war, crime and everyone was living in a state of ecstasy would you want to be there? Why do you not think it is possible? More people that ponder that is probable the closer to that reality we would become. When you think about the races of people that have persecuted, killed, martyrs so forth, what do they all have in common? Most times their spirituality, religion beliefs play a major role in the reasons why they are attacked. The spirit can not die and if you connect to it, spirit will always lead you to truth. So many of our leaders do not want you to know this because they want to keep all the power and give you the illusion that you have none. Hint; I really hope and pray that you understand where I am coming from because time is running out. Our people are so close but so far please , I beg of you to think outside the box and stop letting people tell you that you are nothing, buying into the lies and deceit gives them power and you very little, all can be changed at a blink of an eye but it comes with practice. Starting with YOU .......................... If you want the knowledge you have to seek truth. Your heart will tell you but you also have to know when heart speaks.

JUST US

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There is a situation that I wanted to keep to myself, but now I do want to share it since I have nothing to lose at this point. I met a friend not too long ago, his spirit so familiar when I saw him in person I absolutely knew that he was mine in another life. His quiet was a form of calmness that filled my soul with reassurance. When he spoke to me I knew every word he said to me was un doubtably the truth. When he says "I Love You" to me, it would permeate every cell in my body like this lightening striking, my stomach full of butterflies. The connection was so strong I would could feel him with me even though we would be miles apart. I would wake seconds before he called every time like clock work if I was sleeping. So strange this thing that I have encountered with him it kind of scared me but I enjoyed every minute of it. I fell and fell hard needless to say; in logic it made no sense, he was younger than me as well as polar opposite of the usual guy that I am attracted to. He knew what I was thinking before I would say it so this made it difficult for me to hide anything from him. Maybe he knew that I doubted that it would work with us being that we are in two different worlds, I take that back I know he knew it. This essentially made it the reason to remove his self from me. To have a friend that understands you to the core is more than anyone else in the world is the best thing that could happen to any person. It keeps you sane in a world going mad. I needed and still do that friend that I had nothing else would make me more happy. The support that comes from a relationship like this makes life worth the hassles that we encounter from day to day. Okay I admit it I MISS U

 

 

In my minds eye it is Just Us.

Frustrated

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When you love someone the goal is try to live happily with out all the drama and extras that make life simply difficult to live. I am a lady that only wants to be loved and appreciated for the human being that I am. As Beyonce says simply flaws and all. I tried all I could to make him happy even as far as changing the person that I used to be. Change was in order and I was growing up anyway so it would have happen whether he was there or not. I am so irritated and maybe slightly disappointed. So the question to my self would be what is the next step to take that will make me happy as well as relieve the stress that has come about. do I have enough drive to pick myself up in addition to move forward. For some reason or another I did not think that I would take it this hard. When you are working and trying to do what is required as a mother sometimes I forget about me until I sit down and have more than 1 hour to be within myself, All of a sudden it all comes crashing down around me because I just realized that we are no longer we. Where do I go from here??????????????

Release

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There is this image haunts me. We all have something that may move us to another realm and this happens to be the one that is persistent in my mind. He was always very loving towards me as well as treated me with respect and admiration; but some where in the block of time that we were together he lost sight of who I was. Although we are no longer, the spiritual connection has been continuous nevertheless I need to be free from this bond. I do not like the hold that invades my very being to the core. When he thinks of making love to me I feel every thought penetrate my essence. The blood begins to rush like a water fall that is 10 stories high from the ground. It starts from the back of my spin and moves slowly up my backside and around to the front and back down again to the front & center of my body where my treasure lies. As I look at the computer screen and talk to a client. I think to my self, "Where is this coming from?" Just a spontaneous feeling of euphoria down there had begun and won't stop. The energy creates this heat that is hot and electric pulses to my hart shook me to pay attention even more. Why cant he just let this go? all I ask is to be free from this.

In the middle of the day while I am working is not a good time I need to do my job. "Let me go" I can not do this anymore. Ten Minutes in to this I get a text then a call from him. "I miss you. " I have to be strong, so I get up and proceed to walk out of the office for some fresh air. I ignore the texts and the calls for fear I will give in.

 

Flouride Is A Pollutant

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This is just a warning to all my brothers and sisters that do not know. The water supply throughout the USA is tainted with a substance called flouride that has long been misconceived as something to help the overall health of your teeth. Lies all lies if you view the video above this will prove that you should never ever drink tap water or brush your teeth with any tooth past containing this pollutant called Fluoride. It causes Cancer, Hip fractures hence bone density is obviously an issue along with tooth decay.

Please reply with comments and tell me your thoughts on why the Government has not taken any drastic steps to eliminate this problem. I have uploaded the actual video in the video section on my page.