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Who I AmPosted
DO U SEE? shyt i know im no model or got body shaped like a bottle do u see who i am can u understand? damn beauty only goes skin deep without it who will u be? i know i will be me. beauty comes from within i think it should be a sin to be someone who is sickly skinny... only made of bone and skin. God made me who i am i walk with no shame the beauty i hold inside i can not tame urs may show on the outside ... but my personlity shines just the same. got more shine than those who live in fame. shyt i know im not a model or got a body shaped like a bottle... but i still walk around like i won the lotto. do u understand beauty only goes skin deep. my words, my luv, my personlity can out do the pride of wut u see in the mirror on a daily bases fukk...i see beyond the faces. damn beauty only goes skin deep. my soul is more valuble than the green printed on ur money. for u ... i have no jealousy... with wut i hold inside ...i will have walking around with invy ...wanting to be me. shyt know im not a model or got a body shaped like a bottle... but i do luv me when i look in the mirror i know who i see. i know who i am and who i will be.... the mirror ..when u look wut do u see? luv and peace to u from me
FATHER?Posted
i tried to let it go i tried to be strong and let it go... well that didnt work u broke me to the core living life as tho i was so fukking poor damn ...then you got the nerve to bad mouth the ones (to me)who really count now how does that sound? a grown azz man actin like he damn near 4 yea from your sperm and my mothers egg , i grew but after that it was with me you acted all brand new shoot muthafukkas talk how a man needs a good role model .... a good fatha damn females need one too but thats all good i will settle for a good pair of new shoes lol yeah thats funny aint it... the last time you was in my life i was three and then it was your backside walkin away from me i seen never gave a damn who i came to be never coming to see me and say baby is there anything you need? shyt you didnt even know i existed. i once asked you when was my birthday.... damn the funny look you had on face as you tried to calculate and still you could say.... lol ... pretty fukked up aint it got me feeling like im less than shyt sad thing is most people would have washed there hands of one who is less of a man.... but you got to realize my mother raised a good girl into a good woman... always knowing to let go and forgive even tho you will alway be less of a man. anyone can make a baby but it takes a real person to raise one sorry to say that was definitly not you so i got you looking like a fool. all my life i wandered if life would have be a whole lot easier if you were in it.... i cant even imagine or even make up a dream on my own but, then reality set back in. yea life was hard we were poor but the love of my mother mad up for the emptiness that you could never fill but still when i think of you i get alittle ill shyt ... i got a heart a soul i do still know who you are i know your birthday i know you full name i remember the few good days of me and you and some of the nice things you would say i told you i got a heart a soul damn give me credit im a child of my mother. now that the years have passed we have both gotten older and wiser you and i have seen and been thru alot more yes and life has dealt us a bad hand and we've have shed one too many of tears.... i reached out a hand of forgivness to put all the bad behind us and build a bridge of trust to move on in our lifes it would be a must eager to know you more and more to bond with you the way we should then ... the phone call came... we lost that chane on November 4,2002 i lost you never got to know you now wut do i do? i guess knowing that you were willing to do right thing and be more of a man to hold my hand ...and say,"Yes its me ...your father." |
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