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I'm positive. Like that first kiss felt. Like... when he told me about annual medical check-ups and monogamous relationships. Even listening to him speak on his "healthy lifestyle" habits seemed comforting. Perhaps, my hips made the truth slip beyond recognition. And so we continued... kissing. The momentum seemed more promising than the 98% chance of me living. If I used a Condom. Seven months later, anual visits turned into monthly trips to the specialist. I am positive. But not like how that first kiss felt. Like now, it's too late to be conscious about reaching for the protection. Instead of whats under his belt. Cause now... I'm laid to rest with the rest of his truth.
Left In The MorningPosted
They always leave in the morning. Before busy traffic hover over street lanes and highways. They are gone like last night. Like last night was a fantasy and this mornings empty bed brings me back to reality. Their memory is faded in to my poetry. Written off like taxes. And the only credit I them is for my midnight happiness. But my commitments are different at day break. I never initiated them to stay. Even the morning quickie is quickly time in their departure. I never offered a menu for a late lunch. Maybe it was me, why such mornings were so temporary. No day light courtesy. Maybe that was as far as my expectancy went. Maybe if I went and made space for their shoes in my closet instead next to the closest exit. Maybe if I hung their picture on my mantle by my keep sakes. Or awake with fresh fruits, whole grain pancakes, and maple. Maybe they would have been able to stay for a Saturday afternoon stroll. Or even forever.
20 Things To Do Before I DiePosted
A few things I want to accomplish before God takes me. No particular order. 1. I want to fall "IN love" because I feel like one of my greatest tragedies would be never to have felt that feeling. 2. I want to bungee jump or sky dive. 3. I want to visit the Holy Land & the Mother Land. 4. I want to do humanitarian/mission trips to third world countries to sooth dying babies, feed the hungry, educate mothers/fathers, and hug those that feel like they are not loved. 5. I want to do whats right AND righteous. 6. I want to go to a KKK meeting and tell them that I love them. 7. I want to be there for all of my children's accomplishments. 8. I want to live in another country... I am soooo sick of the United States. 9. I want to go to a festival that is like Woodstock... since I ever made it to Woodstock... I was not born as yet. 10. I want to build a Museum for poets. 11. I want to pose nude... tasteful nude, for a Christian magazine. 12. I want to completely learn to play an instument. 13. I want to marry an artist. 14. I want to tell O.J. that he did it and best thing he could do right now is to repent and ask God for forgiveness. 15. I want "complete" freedom of speech to say exactly. 16. I want to do a duet with Paul McCartney, Yoko Ono, Babyface, & the Wu Tang, my cousin (Sammy Keys), 17. I want to go to a nudest colony for vacation... with my husband. 18. I want to get over my fear/issue of sleeping by myself. 19. I want an afro as big as Diana Ross 20. I want to do all these things on this list and be a disciplined Christian woman at the same time. Falling In Love With A PoetPosted
Falling In Love With A Poet I want to fall in love with a poet.No a prophet. I want to hear love softerThan a child's laughter. I want to feel love deeperThan seas struck by Tsunami's. This is my spirituality. This is me before and after Christianity.This is me believing that churches Belong on nude beaches, With us on the bleachers Consummating our faith. Never have I fell in love With an existence beyond mortality. I live and die in his presence. And possibly his essence will be my scent. I am confident to say that I have never been in love before His prophecies spoke to me. This is my energy Lost in songs and poems with out words. Just rhythm. I often wonder if this is my sanity jaded. Or fading from lost emotions. Rusted, From corrosions with miscellaneous sex And compromised kisses. This time I will lay completely naked within his presence, In scriptures. In dreams pictured in marriage. When I salvage for inspiration To complete my stanzas. I will accept his touches. Answer his questions about the Other handprints on my bosoms. I will tell him the truth They were lessons to get me to my blessing. Him. I explained, "Even though these handprints are like wounds, How else would I have identified your truth?" He continued. Performing our expressions into miracles. Turing my reality into circular poems In the middle of my nature. No one has reached that far before. Turning time beyond 24 hours. I will lay naked every night To accept more of his wisdom. Be apart of his kingdom, Where nothing will come before his God Or me His Queen. As a child, I seen him in fairytales And later in life in my intuitions. I am waiting Inpatient. Still holding the deepest part of my intimacy, Sacred for my poet.
No my prophet. "The Rhythm"Posted
I got that rhythm. Ask me, Sug, or Deidre the mothers of Diversity Poet Educators. Ask all the other sisters of grass root organizations. The Rythem even cross nations. Ask Ann Frank, ask Mother Theresa, ask the two Mary's that nurtured Jesus destiny. The Rhythm, even gets mixed up in political controversy. For that you can ask Condalisa. Cause we have all sort of rhythms. Passed down from my "Habit"Posted
I have a boyfriend now. |
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