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Excuse me lady's & gentleman, while I fall in Love!

As many of you look for my normal voice of wisdom, my heart is playing chase with the winds of love. Erotic fantasy's fill my mind, as someone's voice lingers in my mind! My soul feels both secure and romanced, as he kisses my fears away with his adoration of my mind, body and soul! His exceptance of my experiences, my vunerabilities and my thoughts assure me that he is indeed my superb man! Both of us are often fragile in heart and mis-understood, but these commonalities bonds our emotions through the destortions of the world........Excuse me lady's and gentleman, while I fall in love (hopefully not just for a moment).

Trying to hold back my feelings for so long, has made whispers of kindled fondness, blossom into loud screams of desires, DESIRES FOR YOU, EXCLUSIVELY! I want you...... I think your love can save me...save me from the contentions of my mind, my past darkness, my pains.....loneliness and emptiness may deminish! The world is a lonely place, full of millions of people, but none of them my soul knows. My soul knows you, 1 MAN out of millions of men, my soul knows only YOU! I know your mind, your goals and even your doubts and confusions. You rarely misunderstand me, although I am often a mystery! Love carries the seeds of it's own bloom......Excuse me Everyone, but my spirit, my sensuality, my security, my sexuality, my comfort, my concerns and my cares are falling.....falling in the soil of loves blossoming flowers! I am falling in Love.

It was magical when our voices met! Your voice was strong, yet gentle, confident, yet protective. My voice was exciting and interesting, intriged with the common thoughts from your voice and your mind, which I carried many of them in my own head, before I knew of your existance! Your voice spoke of a better day, revolution, unity, improvement and elevation of our minds and souls and my heart began to cradle our conversations as your voice validated my own beliefs. My heart craved honesty, family values and a pure moral connection, through romance, relationship.........through LOVE! Your heart mirrors my own heart. Both hearts need the stability of honest devotion and pure love. The beauty of love without sight........it's the beginning of our love!

As I fight the turmoil in my mind, from my past relationships, you patiently say, "Don't act like I'm a stranger, when my soul is the REAL THING!" I listen to you, then I learn from you, then I began to long for you, because your heart seems to be the other half of my own! How can I deny the beauty of you, man of passion, man of dedication, man of grace, man of endurance, man of change, man of patients, man of compassion, man of concern, man of the heart.......Brotha of the Soul? How can I deny you trust, appreciation, affection, acceptance, adoration and devotion? I will not deny you your neccessary needs, although other women have denied you honest love in your past, through their betrayal.

When the time is right, my heart will let go of all it's barriers.......I will lay my head in your chest and lay my heart in your hand! My physical love to you will only enhance my expression of my emotional satisfaction with you, my beautiful Soul Man!

"Love is many things, but one thing love is not..........is unsure"

Look people, I don't give a care what you "Racism Free" people have to say, all of us have some sort of bias in us! Our society molds us to be bias in some way, shape or form. Let me give you people some statistics: Do any of you know that interracial couples that are Black Male/White Female have the HIGHEST DIVORCE RATE out of ALL interacial couplings (Black Women/White Men, etc)? Now, I wonder Why? All these dog on Black men want to talk their mouths off about the Black Woman being the reason why they run to love and sex outside their race, but social and psychological statistics proved that in a Rutgers University survey done in 2004, Black women were the most likely to have a successful and PREMANENT marriage if they choosed to marry interacially! Black Women/White Men had the lowest divorce rate out of ALL interracial couples studied in the survey in 2004! So good people, who's the problem.....Black Men or Black Women? Statistics show that BLACK MEN are the problem when it comes to cohabitating and having thee ability to live in a peaceful and successful marriage. The #1 complaint among White Women who were divorce from their Black Male Spouses was, "He was abusive to me!!" The second reason given was, "He and I could not communicate!" and the third reason given in the study by White women was, " I said I couldn't relate to him!" Hummm......is anyone wondering what the hell is going on with BLACK MEN NOW? White women, no offense to you women, but studies have proven that most women who marry black men, when they are of a different culture or even a different financial status, have a 68% chance of ending in a divorce or breakup, within 18 months of the relationship. Most married interacial couples that included black men/white women, usually ended in divorce within 5 years of the marriage. White women, no offense to you women, but studies have proven that most women who marry black men, when they are of a different culture or even a different financial status, have a 68% chance of ending in a divorce or breakup, within 18 months of the relationship. Most married interacial couples that included black men/white women, usually ended in divorce within 5 years of the marriage. It was stated in the survey that over 76% of Black Men who experienced a divorce or break-up from a woman of a different race, never dated or married outside of their own race again! Most of the Black men surveyed that conceived children in the interacial relationship, never married or dated outside of their race again! This was refered to in the survey as thee, "Awaking Theory". Basically, the Black Man was so tramatized by the relationship failing, that they were determined to shield their off-spring from the effects of what these men viewed as, 'Their Mistake" which was blending two cultures, thus creating confusion in their children, when the relationship failed! So, this big theory about Black Men leaving sistas because all of us got problems or we're too picky or we just got bad attitudes, so I'm going to the White Girl or the Asian Girl? Why Brotha's? Statistics have proven that most of you are going to be just as problamatic in your "Inter-racial" relationships and end up having "MAJOR DRAMA" still!!!!!! Replacing the sista just doesn't help you BLACK MEN HAVE HAPPY RELATIONSHIPS! ALL OF YOU MEN THAT ARE HELL BENT ON DATING "OUT OF YOUR RACE" TO AVOID RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS, NEED TO STOP LOOKING FOR EVERYONE TO SAVE YOU FROM THE PERSONALITY DYSFUNCTIONS THAT YOU DUDES DO NOT WANT TO CHANGE! WHITE WOMEN AND LATINO WOMEN AND ASIAN WOMEN CANNOT CHANGE YOU BLACK MENS STRUGGLE WITH RACISM, ANGER, SEXUAL LUST , SEX ADDICTION, POLICE BRUTALITY, LACK OF PROPER EDUCATION, AND I CAN JUST CONTINUE ON!!!!! I can understand what everyone is saying on this blog, but statistics have proven that interracial relationships, especially among Black Men, do not work out long term and are very problematic! More problematic than many romantic relationships among Black Men/Black Women. I HAD AN EX-BOYFRIEND WHO DATED WHITE WOMEN AND ALWAYS THREW WHITE WOMEN IN MY FACE AS IF I WAS NOTHING BECAUSE I WAS A SISTA. LOOK, I WOULD ADVICE ALL BLACK WOMEN TO TOTALLY AVOID DATING BLACK MEN WHO DATE OUT THEIR RACE! I'M SORRY PEOPLE, BUT THE ANTIC OF DATING WHITE WOMEN BY MOST BLACK ME, ONLY SHOWS THAT THESE BLACK MEN ARE ONLY TRYING TO GET THEIR EGOS STROKED, THEY HAVE LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND THEY WOULD BE WILLING TO DATE ANYONE, EVEN GULLIBLE OLE' PASSIVE WHITE GIRL #2, TO APPEASE THEIR EGO AND GET SOME VALIDATION! SORRY WHITE WOMEN, BUT IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH ME, GO DATE A WHITE MAN WHO ONLY LOVES BEAUTIFUL CHOCHOLATE SISTA'S AND THEN COME TALK TO ME WHITE GIRLS! YOU WHITE WOMEN REFUSE TO SYPATHIZE BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T GONE THROUGH IT YET! KEEP WATCHING, MORE WHITE MEN WILL JUST FINISHING MY STATEMENT: YOU WHITE WOMEN REFUSE TO SYPATHIZE WITH US BLACK WOMEN BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT EXPERIENCE THE WHITE MAN REFUSING YOUR PUSSY SENCE SLAVERY! I DO BELIEVE THAT WHEN A LARGE MAJORITY OF PROFESSIONAL WHITE MEN, START LEAVING YOU WHITE WOMEN IN DROVES (AND ASIAN WOMEN TOO) FOR BEAUTIFUL, SUPER VALUBTIOUS, BIG BONED BLACK WOMEN, THEN ALL OF YOU WHITE AND ASIAN WOMEN WILL BEGAN TO FEEL THE HURT AND BETRAYL THAT MAN OF US BLACK SISTAS FEEL! AND WHEN IT HAPPENS......IT'S ALREADY STARTING (WHITE MEN/BLACK WOMEN RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE FASTEST GOING INTERRACIAL DATING GROUP ) YOU WHITE WOMEN AND ASIAN WOMEN WILL BE CRYING AND DEMANDING THE BLACK WOMAN TO SYPATHIZE WITH YOU! DON'T FORGET WHITE GIRLS..............DEENA TOLD YA'LL SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO, NO,NO...............AND HELL NAW!!!!!!! THIS IS IT! TODAY IS MARCH 4, 2008 AND THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL THAT WE ARE GOING TO CONVENTION IN AUGUST TO NOMINATE OBAMA FOR THE DEMOCRATIC TICKET!!!!!

LOOK GOOD PEOPLE, WE'VE BEEN WAITING FOR FAR TOO LONG TO ELECT A DEMOCRATIC NOMINEE. THIS IS STRANGE..........I WONDER WHY? THIS BLACK KING CALLED BARRACK SHOULD HAVE BEEN ON THE DAMN TICKET WAY BACK IN FEBUARY, BUT NO..........STUPID PEOPLE WITH THEIR STUPID DELEGATE NUMBERS, WANT TO STRETCH THE HELL OUT OF THIS DAMN DEMOCRATIC NOMINATION!!! NO WAY...........I'M CALLING FOUL, WHO SAYS RACISM...........CAN YOU ALL SAY IT WITH ME...........RACISM!!!!!!!!

WHY IN THE HELL IS IT TAKING SO DAMN LONG FOR YOU CRAZY AMERICAN VOTERS TO PUT MR. OBAMA ON THE TICKET! WE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO GO TO CONVENTION TO PUT BARRACK ON THE TICKET! WE DIDN'T HAVE TO GO TO CONVENTION TO PUT BILL CLINTON ON THE TICKET OR AL GORE IN 2000 OR DAMN JOHN KERRY! I DON'T EVEN THINK WE HAD TO GO TO CONVENTION TO PUT JFK ON THE TICKET! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!!!!!!!

NO..............NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! TONIGHTS THE NIGHT PEOPLE! GET TEXAS AND OHIO OBAMA AND DO THE THING TONIGHT OBAMA.! IT'S DO OR DIE FOR YOU HILLARY TONIGHT AND DR.DEENA SAYS.....DIE HILLARY, BURY THE CAMPAIGN AND BEG OBAMA TO BE GRACIOUS ENOUGH TO PUT YOU ON HIS TICKET AS A VICE-PRESIDENT RUNNING MATE! COME ON AMERICAN PEOPLE!!!! YOU DAMN PEOPLE KEEP SAYING WE MAY HAVE TO TAKE IT TO CONVENTION BEFORE WE KNOW WHO'S GONNA BE THE DEMOCRATIC NOMINEE....WE ARE TIRED..........BARRACK WILL WIN TONIGHT......IT'S TIME!!!!!!!!!! FOR SHO!~

O.K EVERYONE, LISTEN CLOSELY:

I hate to say this, but I think that it's time for me to make this clear to EVERYONE that views my page! I am not HERE FOR SEXUAL LIASONS! NOR AM I ON BP TO GET HITCHED, GET MY FREAK ON OR SHACK MY ASS AND HOPE FOR THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD TO NOTICE! NO! I have a mind, a mission and a dream and I am strickly here on the Planet to promote my mission and help my people! Although I am single, I certainly am not DESPERATE! PLEASE STOP SENDING ME ALL KINDS OF MESSAGES IN MY DAMN BOX ABOUT WHAT UP BOO, YOU SO FINE GIRRRLL, I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU AND ALL I CAN FIX MY DAMN MOUTH TO TALK ABOUT IS SEX, LET ME BE YOUR ANGEL AND SAVE YOU! AND DON'T COME AT ME WITH THAT, "THAT'S JUST HOW BLACK MEN ARE SHIT, BECAUSE YOU BLACK MEN AREN'T STUPID, YA'LL GET AWAY WITH MORE SEX GAMES THAN THE FU-CKIN LAW ALLOW AND IT TAKES A VERY SMART MAN TO GET AWAY WITH FU-CKIN GAMES! SHUT THAT STUPID SMACK UP!!!................PLEASE STOP IT!!!!!! STOP THE MADNESS!!!! THIS IS RIDICULOUS!

And just to help some of you brotha's out on catching a "Real Sophisticated LADY", here's some tips for you all:

(1). Stop coming off DESPERATE! THAT'S RIGHT! WHENEVER YOU CAN ONLY FIXATE YOUR DAMN MIND AND MOUTH ON NOTHING BUT LUST AND SEX, THIS SHOWS A WOMAN THAT YOU ARE NOTHING MORE THAN A HORNY, NASTY ASS BASTARD, WHO HAS NO INTEREST IN HER MIND AND SOUL. IT ALSO SHOWS HER THAT YOU CARE ABOUT NO ONE BUT YOURSELF, BECAUSE ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS JUST BONE THE %#&@$! OUT OF HER AND YOU'RE NOT THINKING ABOUT NOTHING ELSE! Some of you men need to get a %#&@$!ing clue QUICK!!!! (A COMPLEMENT AND LUST ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS....THINK ABOUT IT GENTLEMEN)!!! AND JUST TO LET YOU DUDES KNOW, THAT'S A TOTAL "TURN-OFF" TO WOMEN WHEN A DUDE START TALKING TO HER AND ALL HE CAN DO IS TALK ABOUT SEX (YOU FU-CKIN FOOLS.....STOP!!!!!!)

(2). No you cannot just keep saying to a woman in her email box, "HOW YOU DOING GIRL!" 50 MILLION DAMN TIMES, when you see that the lady has posted exstinsive information about her interest on her damn PAGE, and then assume that this INTELLEGENT woman is gonna want your DUMB ASS!!!! I MEAN FELLA'S, this shows the lady that you didn't even read what the %#&@$! she put up on her page! All you keep asking her is, "How you Doing!' (WINK), That's it! That's all you men have to say to a woman that most certainly have a BRAIN! COME ON.....PLEASE!!!!!!!! WHAT THE %#&@$! IS THE PROBLEM GENTLEMAN! I know BLACK MEN are more intellegent than a one liner %#&@$!ing NOTE!!! If you don't have nothing to say to a woman, you will certainly prove to her QUICKLY, that you are not SOCIALLY AWARE, you are UNINFORMED ABOUT LIFE AND THE WORLD AND that your mind is narrow and completely STUPID! You will prove that you are nothing more than a STUPID IDIOT and she will bypass your %#&@$! Quick, LIKE TRASH!!!!

(3).STOP TALKING AND ALLUDING TO SEX ALL THE DAMN TIME!!! How in the hell do you Gentleman believe that it is fair or even OWED to you, to get some sex from a woman that you haven't even proven that you are committed too? What! Listen fella's, do you want to give money and take care of a woman that has not proven to you, that she is devoted to YOU? HELL NAW! You men know damn well that many of you are not willing to do nothing for a woman that hasn't proven that she is trustworthy and devoted! So, expect the same from a TRUE LADY! NO woman who does not want to be hurt, is just going to want to give a man sex, when he hasn't even proven to her that he is committed to her and committed to loving her and caring for her. SO GENTLEMAN, I SAY THIS TO YOU MEN IN ALL FAIRNESS AND LOVE, PLEASE STOP FOCUSING ON "GETTING SOME" AND START FOCUSING ON PROVING YOURSELVES WORTHY OF BEING CALLED, "GENTLEMAN"!

(4). YOU MEN WHO GOT MONEY NEED TO STOP ASSUMING THAT EVERY DAMN WOMAN IN THE WORLD ARE AFTER YOU FOR YOUR CASH OR YOUR DAMN STATUS! You "MONEY GRIP" DUDES....you gentlemen need to stop assuming that everyone wants you for your money and your status. Many of you fear even the thought of giving some normal human being a chance to "BEFRIEND" you (NOT FU-CK YOU, NOT SCREW YOU, NOT DOG YOU AND TAKE YOUR ENDS, NOT TIE YOU DOWN AND FORCE YOU INTO MARRIAGE, jUST BE YOUR FRIEND!!!) due to you being pursued for the "Wrong" reasons. How will any of you dudes ever meet decent people if you are not willing to give anyone a chance? And "Money Grip Fella'a" please, I would appreciate it very much, if many of you would stop coming off as if the whole world owe you some great praise or monicure on high, just because you're a "Rare" Black Man, who's got education and some fu-cking- grip! This type of "You Owe Me the World, Girl" attitude shows a woman that you are self-absorbed, arrogant and judgemental of others. This type of attitude equates to "Low Self Esteem" gentlemen! It shows a woman that you place your own value of yourself, on your damn monetary accomplishments and no one wants to be with and un-humble, SELF-CENTERED, FU-CKIN %#&@$!, WHO CAN'T COME DOWN OFF HIS HIGH-HORSE FOR 5 SECONDS! Humble yourselves money grip men! HUMILITY SPEAKS VOLUMES LOUDER THAN MILLIONS IN CASH!!!!

O.K everyone, sorry for the disclaimer, but I want to make every effort to make myself very CLEAR.....I am not hear for the fu-ckin BULL-%#&@$!!! THERE ARE PLENTY OF HOES ON THE BP THAT DO NOT MIND ENTERTAINING YOUR NASTY LUSTFUL THOUGHTS, YOUR DESPERATION FOR A FEMALE OR A BREEDER OR YOUR FU-CKED-UP GAMES! I HAVE HAD MORE THAN MY FAIR SHARE OF GAMES WITH MEN AND I AM NOT LOOKING FOR, NOR INTERESTED IN GAMES ANYMORE. I AM PATIENT AND TOTALLY CONTENT WITH MY PRESENT STATUS AS A BEAUTIFUL, LOVING AND COMPASSIONATE, SINGLE LADY! I AM WORKING ON MAKING MY LIFE HAPPY AND BEAUTIFUL FOR MYSELF AND I WILL NOT ENTERTAIN IDIOTS WHO ARE LOOKING FOR NOTHING MORE THAN A "FU-CK FIX"! I DON'T CARE WHO THE HELL YOU KNOW OR HOW MUCH MONEY YOU GOT! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE A DECENT FRIEND OF MINE OR IF YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT BE A DECENT PERSON TOWARDS ME, BECAUSE YOU HAVE LUST BURNING IN YOUR FU-CKING HEART AND SOUL..........THEN STEP THE FU-CK OFF, QUICK!!!! I AM ONLY HERE FOR MY MISSION, MY DREAMS AND FRIENDS THAT WILL CARE ABOUT ME, SUPPORT MY WORK AND SHARE MY SAME INTEREST AND HAVE THE SAME PASSION TO HELP PEOPLE AND MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE. I DON'T LIKE OR HAVE ANY TOLERANCE FOR BULLSH-IT SO DON'T COME TO MY PAGE WITH THAT %#&@$! NO MORE AND DON'T TRY TO FORCE ME TO TALK TO YOU EITHER, GENTLEMAN. I RESPOND TO THE PEOPLE THAT I WANT TO RESPOND TO, I IF I DON'T RESPONDE TO YOU, IT'S PROBABLY BECAUSE I CAN SEE THROUGH YA'LL FUC-KIN BULLSH-IT!

NOW GOOD PEOPLE, LET'S GET TO WORK!!!!!!!!

This is a comprehensive list of Common Traits that human beings resort to, when expressing ANGER! (Please Take note of these Traits and be aware to avoid resorting to these common traits, when managing your feelings of ANGER!) ANGERS MOST COMMON TRAITS: Silent Treatment, Resorting To Critical Communication, Holding Irritation and Anger Inside, Rage, Guilt, Bitterness, Resentment, Violence, Tuning People Out When They Have Something To Say, Ignoring other People and their Concerns, Withdraw, Holding Grudges, Irritability, Annoyance, Yelling, Frustration, Selfishness, Intimidation, and Bullying. Rid yourself of these traits and you will began to find peace and solice in your life! Blessings to all of you!

Are You Vulnerable To ANGER? (Feel Free to Print this List out and Check The Statements That Apply to YOU in Inventory List 1) __ Impatience comes over me more frequently than I would like. __ I nurture critical thoughts quite easily. __ When I am displeased with someone, I may shut down any communication with them or withdraw. __ I feel inwardly annoyed when family and friends do not comprehend my needs. __ Tension mounts within me as I tackle a demanding task. __ I feel frustrated when I see someone else having fewer struggles than I do. __ When facing an important event, I may obsessively ponder how I must manage it. __ Sometimes I walk in another direction to avoid seeing someone I do not like. __ When discussing a controversial topic, my tone of voice is likely to become persuasive. __ I can accept a person who admits his or her mistakes, but I have a hard time accepting someone who refuses to admit his or her own weaknesses. __ When I talk about my irritations, I dont really want to hear an opposite point of view. __ I do not easily forget when someone does me wrong. __ When someone confronts me from a misinformed position, I am thinking of my rebuttal as he or she speaks. __ Sometimes my discouragement makes me want to quit. __ I can be quite aggressive in my business pursuits or even when playing a game just for fun. __ I struggle emotionally with the things in life that are not fair. __ Although I know it may not be right, I sometimes blame others for my problems. __ When someone openly speaks ill of me, my natural response is to think of how I can defend myself. __ Sometimes I speak slanderously about a person, not really caring how it may harm his or her reputation. __ I may act kindly on the outside while feeling frustrated on the inside. __ Sarcasm is a trait I use in expressing humor. __ When someone is clearly annoyed with me I too easily jump into the conflict. __ At times I struggle with moods of depression or discouragement. __ I have been known to take an attitude towards the needs of others. __ When I am in an authority role, I may speak too sternly or insensitively. If you checked 10 or more of these traits, this indicates that you are vulnerable to the ill effects of anger, rage and explosions of rage or you or prone to feelings of guilt, bitterness and resentment. Honesty is the first key to improvement. Pat yourself on the back for completing Inventory List 1......freedom from angers grip is on the way! See you all next week with Inventory List 2!